Tonight I wana share with you something that I have been using and that I think has helped me calm my soul and be less worried and with much less anxiety and it isn't Xanax its called BACH.
It comes in a small bottle with a dropper and you only put a few drops of this natural stuff on your tongue or u can mix it with water... (I just put it on my tongue).
Here is the link to find out which one you think u need; http://www.bachflower.com/38_Essences.htm
Read through and see what you need help with in your life! Its not addictive, its made of natural flower extracts! They are all
"For relief of natural occuring nervous tension". So, if your like me u should give it a shot! I bought two, I bought Olive & Red Chestnut so you can look them up on the link provided to see what they are exactly for. I encourage you to look into them! I carry them in my purse and when I see them I decide between the two which one I need at that moment.
I also bought a different magazine that I wouldnt usually buy... maybe bc im growing up... maybe because my choices are becoming less superficial... its called 'Whole Living' with a sub heading that read 'body + soul in balance'
articles like 'Find Instant Calm 10 ways to feel relaxed and restored' Its a new movement for me... what you are interested in changes with time... I used to want to be a fashion designer... now i dont see that the same. I know I should focus on one thing, plan my career, be the best at something... but I am still in search for simplicity and happiness and sharing special times with people that have interesting lives... Reading articles about how to improve yourself or an innovation in design or technology rather than the percentage of who wore what better! Dont get me wrong... I do still love fashion and it will always be a huge part of who I am and everything I do and I appreciate creativity when I see it but its just not the same as what it was... what I want from life is a little different. I like taking the time to watch the dogs play at the park as the sun goes down... and I dont care to go in Pijamas!
I bought a hilarious hat in Vegas... I have to take a picture of it. Its like a joker mixed with a rainbow iguana! hard to explain.
I also bought a bunch of products for skin care from Oro Gold! which has 24k gold in it! I think this line of products is really amazinggg!!!!!! http://www.orogoldcosmeticsreview.com/
Read up on them and get them for half the price I bought them for here; http://www.amazon.com/s/?ie=UTF8&keywords=oro+gold&tag=googhydr-20&index=beauty&hvadid=5174098181&ref=pd_sl_3cdsu7tldv_e
I bought like half the store with my mother and its really because the affects are immediate! The one I liked the most was the "collagen and seaweed mask' with the 'renewal cream' and also the 'deep peel' but I have a few more of their products like the vitamin c booster serum.
Happy to share!
Goodnight!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Vegas...
Vegas in itself is not at all peaceful hahah.... Casino after casino, show after show, party after party, shopping and more shopping... thats basically all their is to do, i hung out at the pool but the weather asnt to be hanging in a bikini... more like sweatpants and a sweater! I saw some grreaaat shows though... "Love" "La Reve" & "O". My fav was 'O'! 'Love' was full of little kids and sort of silly but cute... I wasnt expecting that. 'La Reve' was fantastic bc the choreography was amazing... all with water... pretty spectacular except the story line was not that interesting. 'O' was basically like a dream so just really beautiful to look at and full of detail and so much amazing set work... they really made such amazing use of that stage, I was so captured and at the end I was about to cry! I went alone to that one so I told myself to hold back those tears... the ones that came from watching a beautiful show.
I needed that.
Anyways back to my project... just had to fill u in on what I did see in Vegas and that it was all very inspiring to me... Unfortunately no pictures can be taken during the show... which I wish was not a rule...
TAMMM
I needed that.
Anyways back to my project... just had to fill u in on what I did see in Vegas and that it was all very inspiring to me... Unfortunately no pictures can be taken during the show... which I wish was not a rule...
TAMMM
Sunday, November 14, 2010
A peaceful pause.
So that was a, pause, a long pause...
a pause worth every breath a pause just a time that I had to REALLY myself... to take things IN and let them sit there...
So, when they sit there, they marinate... now its way harder to explain and grasp and express everything ive been through throughout that "pause" so i hope u were having as much fun as I was through out it.
I got a lot of advice from great people... something "God" hasnt done for me in a while... so I take it he put some people in my life, at my reach, to communicate with and they had something very special about them... lots of ppl worth my time for a change!
I dont need that much, but I love a dose of something once in a while... and thats just what it is.
I feel like Im growing and getting older and I dont wana be grown up and say "I wish i didnt party as much as i did". I dont wana be that woman. I want my life to be a celebration like they say and I want that celebration to be something that comes naturally... like not looking for the next party like we do a lot of times... i really want the party to just follow me... i was enjoying myself sitting at a cafe outside having a great conversation about trips ppl take by themselves... adventures and moments u have with YOURSELF where crazy shit happens... like when you cry bc your emotional doing yoga on a rooftop while the sun goes down and it fels sooo good! and your stretching and its going farther thatn u could ever imagine and your releasing so much and its coming out in the form of joyous tears. That happened to me. But its That that we were all talking about... everybody, we have each had our own experiences ith ourself where spirituality strikes and moments that'll blow your mind bc ur putting out that energy into the Universe and it does something magical to let u know it heard!
This guy just tonight was amazing... he was too compassionate for me! I'm like ice when it comes down to it... i get clamy hands and start thinking about IT instead of letting it just flow... its strange. When I'm there, im there tho and i do release... its just the parts before where u see it coming and u notice and then instead of me just letting it in i get wierded out and ask myself "do i want it" "do i want that?" "is that whats gona happen" should i let it" which is how i should think when it really matters... like when im alone i will do all kinds of things without even THINKING! LOL
ok so anyways, this guy was telling me that when I dance alone i have great rhythm and whatever but then when i would try to be led by him to dance salsa for instance i get all blocked and lose rhythm in a sense but its bc i have a hard time letting go of myself to let him be boss... bc i like to be in control... its happened before ;) Im just like that! dont ask me why I'm just telling U my side of things.
i was in VEGAS for 5 days by the way...
I went with my parents for the Latin Grammys... well, they were going for that but I didnt wana go to that i wanted to see some shows and get out of Miami for a bit bc its always the best to come back to! We ALL here share that feeling! :D Miami is my HOME, but thats not enough a lot of times... so we just accept it for what it is bc ive lived n a lot of places and we should not COMPLAIN about THIS PLACE BC WAY WORSE PLACES OUT THERE... should i just say different? yea.
Anyway so much happened to me that it will reflect in ways but right now its hard to explain exactly all the good and bad moments and it works so beautifully when they say "WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS STAYS IN VAGAS!" right? hahahahahaa !perfect!
I do know one thing though... It was a real pleasure to be with smart succesful creatives who really care to listen and have things to say right back that make u go 'hmmm..' and then ur brain does a kartwheel... and it feels good. :)
when ppl have manners, when they care about u... when they offer u things or ask u your opinion and care... instead of take advantage, cheat, lie, assume.
Thank u life... for giving me these ups and downs to make it interesting and to make finding the answer a process instead of given to u... its more like solving a mystery, clues are given and given and given... but u already know the answer silly... u always knew! it inside u... and your body is your compass... and its going wherever u have inside that it is... u have to pay more attention and go back to what does u right... and not go back to what does u wrong... but if u go where it does u wrong, dont think its wrong... bc only u suffer... only u can make u feel worse and enjoy more than anything... if anything just make a change... change is fantastic. like this trip was fantastic and im glad to be back to work on my project...
2012 is not the end.
dont u worry.
2012 is the end of the past... like it always is! 2012 is when we finally all get it and move the most togethersome of any other time in the past.. into the future... a beautiful place that never pauses.
a pause worth every breath a pause just a time that I had to REALLY myself... to take things IN and let them sit there...
So, when they sit there, they marinate... now its way harder to explain and grasp and express everything ive been through throughout that "pause" so i hope u were having as much fun as I was through out it.
I got a lot of advice from great people... something "God" hasnt done for me in a while... so I take it he put some people in my life, at my reach, to communicate with and they had something very special about them... lots of ppl worth my time for a change!
I dont need that much, but I love a dose of something once in a while... and thats just what it is.
I feel like Im growing and getting older and I dont wana be grown up and say "I wish i didnt party as much as i did". I dont wana be that woman. I want my life to be a celebration like they say and I want that celebration to be something that comes naturally... like not looking for the next party like we do a lot of times... i really want the party to just follow me... i was enjoying myself sitting at a cafe outside having a great conversation about trips ppl take by themselves... adventures and moments u have with YOURSELF where crazy shit happens... like when you cry bc your emotional doing yoga on a rooftop while the sun goes down and it fels sooo good! and your stretching and its going farther thatn u could ever imagine and your releasing so much and its coming out in the form of joyous tears. That happened to me. But its That that we were all talking about... everybody, we have each had our own experiences ith ourself where spirituality strikes and moments that'll blow your mind bc ur putting out that energy into the Universe and it does something magical to let u know it heard!
This guy just tonight was amazing... he was too compassionate for me! I'm like ice when it comes down to it... i get clamy hands and start thinking about IT instead of letting it just flow... its strange. When I'm there, im there tho and i do release... its just the parts before where u see it coming and u notice and then instead of me just letting it in i get wierded out and ask myself "do i want it" "do i want that?" "is that whats gona happen" should i let it" which is how i should think when it really matters... like when im alone i will do all kinds of things without even THINKING! LOL
ok so anyways, this guy was telling me that when I dance alone i have great rhythm and whatever but then when i would try to be led by him to dance salsa for instance i get all blocked and lose rhythm in a sense but its bc i have a hard time letting go of myself to let him be boss... bc i like to be in control... its happened before ;) Im just like that! dont ask me why I'm just telling U my side of things.
i was in VEGAS for 5 days by the way...
I went with my parents for the Latin Grammys... well, they were going for that but I didnt wana go to that i wanted to see some shows and get out of Miami for a bit bc its always the best to come back to! We ALL here share that feeling! :D Miami is my HOME, but thats not enough a lot of times... so we just accept it for what it is bc ive lived n a lot of places and we should not COMPLAIN about THIS PLACE BC WAY WORSE PLACES OUT THERE... should i just say different? yea.
Anyway so much happened to me that it will reflect in ways but right now its hard to explain exactly all the good and bad moments and it works so beautifully when they say "WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS STAYS IN VAGAS!" right? hahahahahaa !perfect!
I do know one thing though... It was a real pleasure to be with smart succesful creatives who really care to listen and have things to say right back that make u go 'hmmm..' and then ur brain does a kartwheel... and it feels good. :)
when ppl have manners, when they care about u... when they offer u things or ask u your opinion and care... instead of take advantage, cheat, lie, assume.
Thank u life... for giving me these ups and downs to make it interesting and to make finding the answer a process instead of given to u... its more like solving a mystery, clues are given and given and given... but u already know the answer silly... u always knew! it inside u... and your body is your compass... and its going wherever u have inside that it is... u have to pay more attention and go back to what does u right... and not go back to what does u wrong... but if u go where it does u wrong, dont think its wrong... bc only u suffer... only u can make u feel worse and enjoy more than anything... if anything just make a change... change is fantastic. like this trip was fantastic and im glad to be back to work on my project...
2012 is not the end.
dont u worry.
2012 is the end of the past... like it always is! 2012 is when we finally all get it and move the most togethersome of any other time in the past.. into the future... a beautiful place that never pauses.
Friday, November 5, 2010
politics...
I wana put the whole world on pause. bc im thinking this should stop making noise on the keyboard... i was gona say type writer... i had a good night bc i spoke about politics and i wana hear what others have to say other than my parents. I feel lonely without music or a frnd n i get anxiety when i have to leave it but its only bc then i ONLY have myself (should i make only lower case? nevermind) this is it, isnt it? well then im gona need a re-appearance... un acceptable people!!!! what do u think this is? what do UUUU think this is???? (thinking thinking)
why am i carrying along with the u know what ?
somebody throw me a good song pls, im starving!
lol
their r a million things i dont talk about.
millions.
millions of better things to talk about.
billions of related facts that we can be inspired by to make a difference.
billions of ways to make me feel better about myself, billion doesnt exhist guys! they r fooling US ALL! its only an IOU.
UOME dude. get with the program, in a nice way lol. cuz im scared of what u will do if i say it wrong.
so im trying to understand, trying to.
little by little right?
r U sure??????
LOL
I dont believe a word u say.
gota change this song, everything annoys me... right when i said that i liked it :).
some crazy shit
Im super tired but im more than tired to say that once again.
This is not real....
somebody VERY imprrrtanTE told me!
so fuck everyone else...
i believe her.
AND ONCE AGAIN I CANT STAND ANY SONG.
Im sooo
leme start over
IM soooo sorry Mom n Dad.
(i feel NO relief)
My mom is really cute bc she is trying to give me something to do that is stimulating to me and REALISTIC... ive thought of MAD ideas but this whole Art Basel project is getting . how it should get . but thats giving me pressure and im suffering from anxiety,,,,, right? right? right this is anxiety? like the problem that i have... its called anxiety right???
pls tell me it has a name
pls tell me the name is xanax
pls
or actually...
this is my way of coming to terms with the fact that we r alllll crazy n trying to get this crazy anxiety offf us bc its the resulf from all this CRAZY ASS NEWS we watch!
The shit is not worth explaining.
I just hate how ppl r making their own version up in their heads.
its shameful yet very acceptable due to the north eastern winds...
JK
i need earings... like really super duper pretty ones...
by the way im hyper bc im annoyed.
im hyper enuf to write this to u bc i just rather make the thoughts concrete... before this they r oxygen... we need it.
i always hate how i feel afterwards. bc i know whats good for me but i have a nocturnal and frustrated gene that lives within me and i tamper with it. i appreciate u and i appreciate who u think i am, though ur wrong AGAIN jk. i just know we can agree on a few things therefore we remain unexplainable
a lot of shit shouldnt happen to me, should nt be there to even
to even
i dnt even
but wtf
im like talkin about it
LOL
just laugh
bc im still up and i cant get over it.
SORRY.
SO SORRY
BC I LOVE U
A LOT
AND I DID NOT MEAN N E HARM.
and harm is easy n harm shouldnt exist... so YES their is a GOd, an unhelpful one... one thats only watching... i spoke to him by the way, at Burning Man.... he was just like us... he doesnt give u answers, they come from u only, they r just at the end of the day U answering what u feel is the answer.... either ur a Jew... and r selfish LOL or u care about sacrificing what u want/crave for some grandchildren that u dont even know u will have (and that will be annoying lol) but yet u will CARE to TRY to do whats BEST... bc idk wtf.
DO U?
bc then maybe mayyyybe u should run for pres...
why am i carrying along with the u know what ?
somebody throw me a good song pls, im starving!
lol
their r a million things i dont talk about.
millions.
millions of better things to talk about.
billions of related facts that we can be inspired by to make a difference.
billions of ways to make me feel better about myself, billion doesnt exhist guys! they r fooling US ALL! its only an IOU.
UOME dude. get with the program, in a nice way lol. cuz im scared of what u will do if i say it wrong.
so im trying to understand, trying to.
little by little right?
r U sure??????
LOL
I dont believe a word u say.
gota change this song, everything annoys me... right when i said that i liked it :).
some crazy shit
Im super tired but im more than tired to say that once again.
This is not real....
somebody VERY imprrrtanTE told me!
so fuck everyone else...
i believe her.
AND ONCE AGAIN I CANT STAND ANY SONG.
Im sooo
leme start over
IM soooo sorry Mom n Dad.
(i feel NO relief)
My mom is really cute bc she is trying to give me something to do that is stimulating to me and REALISTIC... ive thought of MAD ideas but this whole Art Basel project is getting . how it should get . but thats giving me pressure and im suffering from anxiety,,,,, right? right? right this is anxiety? like the problem that i have... its called anxiety right???
pls tell me it has a name
pls tell me the name is xanax
pls
or actually...
this is my way of coming to terms with the fact that we r alllll crazy n trying to get this crazy anxiety offf us bc its the resulf from all this CRAZY ASS NEWS we watch!
The shit is not worth explaining.
I just hate how ppl r making their own version up in their heads.
its shameful yet very acceptable due to the north eastern winds...
JK
i need earings... like really super duper pretty ones...
by the way im hyper bc im annoyed.
im hyper enuf to write this to u bc i just rather make the thoughts concrete... before this they r oxygen... we need it.
i always hate how i feel afterwards. bc i know whats good for me but i have a nocturnal and frustrated gene that lives within me and i tamper with it. i appreciate u and i appreciate who u think i am, though ur wrong AGAIN jk. i just know we can agree on a few things therefore we remain unexplainable
a lot of shit shouldnt happen to me, should nt be there to even
to even
i dnt even
but wtf
im like talkin about it
LOL
just laugh
bc im still up and i cant get over it.
SORRY.
SO SORRY
BC I LOVE U
A LOT
AND I DID NOT MEAN N E HARM.
and harm is easy n harm shouldnt exist... so YES their is a GOd, an unhelpful one... one thats only watching... i spoke to him by the way, at Burning Man.... he was just like us... he doesnt give u answers, they come from u only, they r just at the end of the day U answering what u feel is the answer.... either ur a Jew... and r selfish LOL or u care about sacrificing what u want/crave for some grandchildren that u dont even know u will have (and that will be annoying lol) but yet u will CARE to TRY to do whats BEST... bc idk wtf.
DO U?
bc then maybe mayyyybe u should run for pres...
Thursday, November 4, 2010
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