Went to Kabbalah class today... its every Tuesday night for an hour, with my boyfriend and even my Mom... working on our other project which has to do with finding "the light" from the darkness... which is where I've been if you have followed my blog for that long... its been a roller-coaster but we all have had our own individual ride which has taught us and led us to where we are now.
When I got home we edited more for the "Magic" movie and ordered pizza...
We asked my Dad for one of his songs for the soundtrack for a section of the short film, being a very humble guy it wasnt easy for him to think he had anything that would suit us... when in fact anything of his would in my opinon... hes such a poetic deep man.
I mentioned him the song he wrote for me on the piano when I was a little girl...
"oh its just a sonata" he said
like a piano excersise song, blah blah blah...
he agreed that hed practice it a bit before we recorded him
the story turned around and I fond myself on the piano with my father doing duets i hadnt played since I was maybe 5 yrs old when I played all the time with him... he made up some simple keys for me to practice and he would sit along side me and play something much more complicated...
sadly, it felt like a punishment those days to play the piano with him...
when i broke against my old memories and habits of letting the piano entirely go out of my life and actually sat back down with my dad those same simple songs came right back to me... and i know that it was a big deal for him to have me play them again... i didnt even want to get up! i wanted to play them over and over again and i even remembered one of them better than him! haha
amazingly because of Paul who brought me over to the piano and because of the Kabbalah approach im learning this was possible.
"breaking through our comfort-seeking selfish nature will lead us to true fulfillment." Living Kabbalah book
it was a magic moment in and of itself and now it will be a part of "Magic" isn't that magical?
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I have just finished reading a chapter in my book which talked about "restriction"... where later they ask you to really examine what u really want from life... and as you read further u are digging deeper into yourself to find out what that truly is...
I have already written the first part somewhere but this is my second part and so in order for it not to get lost in my mess of papers and things I am choosing to rewrite it on here...
So what I really want from life...
family
happiness
travel
knowledge
of art & my interests to become a better artist, photography, discover deeper and deeper into my talens, pushing boundaries, always reinventing, a model for children, to learn to stay composed, always trying new things, to grow and share, learn to cook new meals always learning taking a class which interests me, to become the best I can be, a wonderful daughter, sister, aunt, wife, mother etc. Reaching out to others more, planning, creating, to find beauty in everything, to make my dreams and ideas come to life, to surround myself with interesting ppl who share back with me and that we can collaborate together, to give myself to art and find my place in it. to make money so i can live a beautiful life full of luxury, choices, joy and buy art. to find myself! to find others & help others & make the world a better place by recycling & sharing beauty & art.
goodnight*
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
ON FIRE!
I had a great day today... worked on my movie called "Magic" we are editing it and its already 10 mins long! i think it will end up being about 15-20 mins long... that's pretty long!!
Its my first real movie... like watching it get edited on Final Cut Pro type stuff n all, but its very low budget, i mean we shot it with an iphone! :)
Paul shot it mainly, we wrote it together and Hugo is who we are working with to get it edited, he graduated from UM's film program.
So anyway, we worked on editing as we do usually these days and later I had a dinner with Panda Paul's family at Houstons! It was his brother Ari and his gf Pixie, their Mom Yvette and the moms sister Alegra from Panama... we talked about UFO's and weird stuff as we usually do... lol
After that we went to Alegras house which was this lil cute spot in "the white house" i always wanted to know who lived in there! haha and later Yvettes and we all pitched in to help build a new IKEA table while 3 lil dogs ran around all us :)
When we left, as the two brothers and their gfs rode back south, home... we mentioned to Ari and Pixie where we usually stop on the way from "moms" house... its a hidden lil outdoor bar called "Lou's Beer Garden" where we eat this crazy spicy secret thing called "THE CURE"
We have it every Friday actually on the way back home from Shabbat dinner at Yvettes home over by Bal Harbour... a super cozy home with 3 dfferent types on windchimes in the side entrance, her 3 lil doggies Shanti, Dutch and Princess... she lives there with her youngest, 3rd son Steven. Shes very spiritual and always talks about the craziest stuff I have ever heard LOL all very spiritual and interesting yet STRANGE haha
As we raved about "THE CURE" and walked up to our regular Friday spot we sat at the bar and I ordered my regular "banana bread" beer from London... Paul orders a Pale Ale but he usually gets a "Father Theodore" stout...AND "THE MOTHER FUCKIN CURE"
BAD IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This time it was RED and usually its in fact GREEN!
-I eat it anyway.-
(OH by the way my back was killing me and Alegrita gave me an anti-inflammatory pill earlier!)
so after we go ON FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
and CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
and SWEATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
O boy
I run to the bathroom and try to puke!
they gave me tomatoes w salt and lime which they say is the "antidote" FUCK THAT SHIT! YEAH RIGHT! MY MOUTH WAS ON FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AND MY INSIDES WERE BURNINGGGGGGGGGGGG I felt so so bad!!!!!
They gave me water with ice and even a glass of milk,,, still with that pill, the two sips of beer I should not have drank, the spiciest thing in the world...
and VOILA!
when we walked to the car... I PUKED more... like a water fall! not one but two long, constant water falls!!!! straight to the groud from my mouth shooting out at full speed in light pink w yellow... praying it wouldnt get on my Pink Adidas Silver line wedges!!!!!
and THANK GOD after everything came out I felt GREAT and smiled and in fact wanted to straight kiss my boyfriend hahahaha
I warned him that my breath wasn't so so bad as he opened my door to the car and instead of planting a smooch on him I asked him to smell my mouth and he said what a good boyfriend says and said "you never smell bad baby" hahahaha
I decided I wouldnt kiss him only cuz Ari and Pixie would probably think it was DISGUSTING! bc I would if I saw anybody do that in front of me after that Niagra Falls scenario...
''''
I showered and im sitting here on Pauls bed writting on the laptop eating spaguetti... my delicious Houstons fish sandwich remains on the floor of a parking lot... but glad I am feeling much much better. UUUFFFFFF! never again.
PS after all this UFO talk at dinner... while watchin tv Paul says he "hates" commercials... then we suddenly see a trailer for a new movie about ALIENS called "PAUL" hahahahahahaha noooo fuckin way! LOL so cool!
Its my first real movie... like watching it get edited on Final Cut Pro type stuff n all, but its very low budget, i mean we shot it with an iphone! :)
Paul shot it mainly, we wrote it together and Hugo is who we are working with to get it edited, he graduated from UM's film program.
So anyway, we worked on editing as we do usually these days and later I had a dinner with Panda Paul's family at Houstons! It was his brother Ari and his gf Pixie, their Mom Yvette and the moms sister Alegra from Panama... we talked about UFO's and weird stuff as we usually do... lol
After that we went to Alegras house which was this lil cute spot in "the white house" i always wanted to know who lived in there! haha and later Yvettes and we all pitched in to help build a new IKEA table while 3 lil dogs ran around all us :)
When we left, as the two brothers and their gfs rode back south, home... we mentioned to Ari and Pixie where we usually stop on the way from "moms" house... its a hidden lil outdoor bar called "Lou's Beer Garden" where we eat this crazy spicy secret thing called "THE CURE"
We have it every Friday actually on the way back home from Shabbat dinner at Yvettes home over by Bal Harbour... a super cozy home with 3 dfferent types on windchimes in the side entrance, her 3 lil doggies Shanti, Dutch and Princess... she lives there with her youngest, 3rd son Steven. Shes very spiritual and always talks about the craziest stuff I have ever heard LOL all very spiritual and interesting yet STRANGE haha
As we raved about "THE CURE" and walked up to our regular Friday spot we sat at the bar and I ordered my regular "banana bread" beer from London... Paul orders a Pale Ale but he usually gets a "Father Theodore" stout...AND "THE MOTHER FUCKIN CURE"
BAD IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This time it was RED and usually its in fact GREEN!
-I eat it anyway.-
(OH by the way my back was killing me and Alegrita gave me an anti-inflammatory pill earlier!)
so after we go ON FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
and CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
and SWEATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
O boy
I run to the bathroom and try to puke!
they gave me tomatoes w salt and lime which they say is the "antidote" FUCK THAT SHIT! YEAH RIGHT! MY MOUTH WAS ON FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AND MY INSIDES WERE BURNINGGGGGGGGGGGG I felt so so bad!!!!!
They gave me water with ice and even a glass of milk,,, still with that pill, the two sips of beer I should not have drank, the spiciest thing in the world...
and VOILA!
when we walked to the car... I PUKED more... like a water fall! not one but two long, constant water falls!!!! straight to the groud from my mouth shooting out at full speed in light pink w yellow... praying it wouldnt get on my Pink Adidas Silver line wedges!!!!!
and THANK GOD after everything came out I felt GREAT and smiled and in fact wanted to straight kiss my boyfriend hahahaha
I warned him that my breath wasn't so so bad as he opened my door to the car and instead of planting a smooch on him I asked him to smell my mouth and he said what a good boyfriend says and said "you never smell bad baby" hahahaha
I decided I wouldnt kiss him only cuz Ari and Pixie would probably think it was DISGUSTING! bc I would if I saw anybody do that in front of me after that Niagra Falls scenario...
''''
I showered and im sitting here on Pauls bed writting on the laptop eating spaguetti... my delicious Houstons fish sandwich remains on the floor of a parking lot... but glad I am feeling much much better. UUUFFFFFF! never again.
PS after all this UFO talk at dinner... while watchin tv Paul says he "hates" commercials... then we suddenly see a trailer for a new movie about ALIENS called "PAUL" hahahahahahaha noooo fuckin way! LOL so cool!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
teach US how to LOVE.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PhSpJppLu4
bc its lovely to teach those u love the lovely things u lovingly love to share love love love...
bc its lovely to teach those u love the lovely things u lovingly love to share love love love...
im ok with it, if u r.
hello i know. hello i know and so do u. hello and so we look at eachother in the eyes and look n look n look n look. n look. n finally see.... what we looked for at least for sure, i mean, bc, we were looking... who's Rachel? LOL "she must be a hot tamale... oh hes so... so shaggy(???) ew lol no its this movie... THIS CANT GO ON... but where did u get it? everything is gona change i promise... champagne... champagne... "Haunted Honeymoon" is the movie''''' can u believe it? such a confusion when
u
laughter n sin, laughter n sin,
rebel,
still
still
hear
oh, what memories....
charming, charming.
u remind me of me... when i was a little girl.
"i know that one of u is a warewolf!"
just found him tho... got him pinned down to the bed... he cant move its pretty fuckin awesome.... i mean he knows i dont want him to so since its my bday maybe hes jsut not,,,, for me,,,, u knowwww,,,,, but idk.
im trying to figure it out too... but i love u
this is what IVE BEEN CRAAAVING! watch!!!!!!
$5.00
Pyrite Cube 1/2"
pyrite cube
Pyrite Cube
Iron Pyrite meaning and properties
The resemblance of pyrite to gold has made it a traditional symbol for money and good luck. It's sunny golden color associates it with the sun, and with fortification and strengthening of the mind. The name comes from the Greek word meaning "a stone which strikes fire".
Iron Pyrite makes a wonderful energy shield, blocking out negativity from various sources. Some of its properties include:
* Overcomes inertia and feelings of inadequacy
* Energizes the area where you place it (such as on a desk where you work)
* Helps you to see behind a facade
Pyrite Suns
These delightful pyrite pieces contain golden rays in the shape of a rising sun! Pyrite suns were once thought to be fossilized sand dollars or lily pads.
Mineralogists now believe that they are pyrite crystals formed between layers of slate and coal that simply had no room to grow in the traditional cubes that one normally finds pyrite. Formed 350 million years ago deep in the coal mines of Illinois, USA, each is unique!
Healing with Iron Pyrite
Use this stone to overcome lethargy and fatigue. It increases the oxygen supply to the blood and strengthens the circulatory system. It is beneficial for the lungs, alleviating bronchitis and asthma.
THIS IS WHERE I COME FROM;
Amethyst Gemstone meaning
Crystalline quartz in shades of purple, lilac or mauve is called amethyst, a stone traditionally worn to guard against drunkeness and to instill a sober mind. The word amethyst comes from the Greek meaning "without drunkenness" and amethyst is beleived to protect one from poison.
Power Stone
It is used as a dream stone and to help insomnia. Put an amethyst under your pillow to bring about pleasant dreams, or rub it across your forehead to offer relief from a headache.
Protection Stone
Ancient Egyptians used the amethyst guard against guilty and fearful feelings. It has been worn as protection from self-deception, as well as a protection against witchcraft. The amethyst has long been used to open the spiritual and psychic centers, making it one of the power stones. It is also used as a meditation aid when worn as a necklace.
Wisdom Stone
The amethyst is known as the Bishop's Stone and is still worn by Catholic Bishops. The amethyst symbolizes piety, humility, sincerity and spiritual wisdom. It is thought the amethyst is the perfect stone to symbolize The Age of Aquarius.
Healing properties of Amethyst
Amethyst is a gemstone often worn by healers, as it has the power to focus energy. A healer will usually wear several pieces of jewelry with amethysts set in silver, especially an amethyst necklace. The person to be healed will have an Amethyst to hold while the healing is being done. The healer will place another piece of Amethyst on the area of the body in need of healing, the heart or lungs usually.
Amethyst is used for problems in the blood and in breathing problems. Amethyst crystal clusters are used to keep the air and life force in the home clean and positive.
Amethyst clusters, points or several tumbled Amethysts placed in a window that receives sun most of the day are very beneficial to use in healing and to heal negativity in the home. Place Amethyst clusters, points or several tumbled Amethysts in moonlight and everyone in the home will be feeling calmer. Using an Amethyst as a meditation focus will increase the positive spiritual feelings. Amethyst helps overcome fears and cravings. It also helps relieve headaches.
----really?----
u
laughter n sin, laughter n sin,
rebel,
still
still
hear
oh, what memories....
charming, charming.
u remind me of me... when i was a little girl.
"i know that one of u is a warewolf!"
just found him tho... got him pinned down to the bed... he cant move its pretty fuckin awesome.... i mean he knows i dont want him to so since its my bday maybe hes jsut not,,,, for me,,,, u knowwww,,,,, but idk.
im trying to figure it out too... but i love u
this is what IVE BEEN CRAAAVING! watch!!!!!!
$5.00
Pyrite Cube 1/2"
pyrite cube
Pyrite Cube
Iron Pyrite meaning and properties
The resemblance of pyrite to gold has made it a traditional symbol for money and good luck. It's sunny golden color associates it with the sun, and with fortification and strengthening of the mind. The name comes from the Greek word meaning "a stone which strikes fire".
Iron Pyrite makes a wonderful energy shield, blocking out negativity from various sources. Some of its properties include:
* Overcomes inertia and feelings of inadequacy
* Energizes the area where you place it (such as on a desk where you work)
* Helps you to see behind a facade
Pyrite Suns
These delightful pyrite pieces contain golden rays in the shape of a rising sun! Pyrite suns were once thought to be fossilized sand dollars or lily pads.
Mineralogists now believe that they are pyrite crystals formed between layers of slate and coal that simply had no room to grow in the traditional cubes that one normally finds pyrite. Formed 350 million years ago deep in the coal mines of Illinois, USA, each is unique!
Healing with Iron Pyrite
Use this stone to overcome lethargy and fatigue. It increases the oxygen supply to the blood and strengthens the circulatory system. It is beneficial for the lungs, alleviating bronchitis and asthma.
THIS IS WHERE I COME FROM;
Amethyst Gemstone meaning
Crystalline quartz in shades of purple, lilac or mauve is called amethyst, a stone traditionally worn to guard against drunkeness and to instill a sober mind. The word amethyst comes from the Greek meaning "without drunkenness" and amethyst is beleived to protect one from poison.
Power Stone
It is used as a dream stone and to help insomnia. Put an amethyst under your pillow to bring about pleasant dreams, or rub it across your forehead to offer relief from a headache.
Protection Stone
Ancient Egyptians used the amethyst guard against guilty and fearful feelings. It has been worn as protection from self-deception, as well as a protection against witchcraft. The amethyst has long been used to open the spiritual and psychic centers, making it one of the power stones. It is also used as a meditation aid when worn as a necklace.
Wisdom Stone
The amethyst is known as the Bishop's Stone and is still worn by Catholic Bishops. The amethyst symbolizes piety, humility, sincerity and spiritual wisdom. It is thought the amethyst is the perfect stone to symbolize The Age of Aquarius.
Healing properties of Amethyst
Amethyst is a gemstone often worn by healers, as it has the power to focus energy. A healer will usually wear several pieces of jewelry with amethysts set in silver, especially an amethyst necklace. The person to be healed will have an Amethyst to hold while the healing is being done. The healer will place another piece of Amethyst on the area of the body in need of healing, the heart or lungs usually.
Amethyst is used for problems in the blood and in breathing problems. Amethyst crystal clusters are used to keep the air and life force in the home clean and positive.
Amethyst clusters, points or several tumbled Amethysts placed in a window that receives sun most of the day are very beneficial to use in healing and to heal negativity in the home. Place Amethyst clusters, points or several tumbled Amethysts in moonlight and everyone in the home will be feeling calmer. Using an Amethyst as a meditation focus will increase the positive spiritual feelings. Amethyst helps overcome fears and cravings. It also helps relieve headaches.
----really?----
Sunday, February 13, 2011
A More Beautiful Heart...
Fairy Tales with fairies, no joke.
What's 222 mean again?
its worth the wait...
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...have faith everything is gona be alright don't worry about anything as the situation is resolving itself beautifully for everyone involved...
have fun.
<2
that's an even more beautiful heart to me too.
What's 222 mean again?
its worth the wait...
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...have faith everything is gona be alright don't worry about anything as the situation is resolving itself beautifully for everyone involved...
have fun.
<2
that's an even more beautiful heart to me too.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Happy Valentines Day!
Sexy time! Dinner, wine, rose petals... Valentines is supposed to be FUN! its a special day to get creatively romantic... finally I have a boyfriend to share it with! <3 <3 <3...
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