Rainbow Tambo...

The repeating patterns

I can't control.
I don't want to fall in
To a boogie trap

I see them and I don't see them
My eyes play tricks on me

My instinct foggy

I know what's right
I know what's wrong
I still step in
To test the waters

I don't understand

Nothing makes sense when its there
And then it's gone

I wish upon a star
11:11 always on time
333 prevent me
Knowingly I make the wrong

Business minded need the knowledge
Have the inspiration
Creative I spit
Just want to make sense
Of the days that pass by
The seconds don't wait
I sit wanting wishing
But things don't come easy.

The wrong idea
The whole time.
Who's fault is it?
No no not mine.

So naive n so pure
So puzzled with wit
Begging for answers
Telling my story
Cuz so reassuring

Then comes regret
And then I see lies
Cuz the truth I once told
Is told in disguise

No one to lean on
Too strong to agree upon
I knowingly make those mistakes
Ok agreed on

Facing the fear
Fears that grow worse
Each mistake a stone thrown
A bigger pile
To live with

Taught myself to never let go
So here is the trouble I'm in idk

When feeling pain
I said remember this again

Cuz I saw how I forgot
And it's only important to remember
What's pretty
But pretty I love
Pretty is ok so I let it go
What sticks is what's not
Cuz I think about it more
When repeating a thought
Makes an imprint
Did u know?

Distorted in fact
Holding on to sorrow
Bc at that time I held so tight
I wanted the same feeling tomorrow

When words are a story
And hold each other together
Complicate your life
What stupid ideas
To remember what's wrong
Now look at the punishment
It's imaginary walls
U belong

Let it go
Let me live
Pardon me & forgive
Speaking my thoughts
Don't hold them hostage
Let them pass
Like clouds in a storm
The rain, then the sun,
Rays of light
New life after

An Installation piece ..

Classroom desks in a big circle
Rows of them beyond if so..

In the circle center gold coins
Sacks of money

A grocery cart that goes around it full of recycled bottle and what not.

On each desk is written a message

An interpretation

You can write what u want too

U can push the carts around in a circle
Or change anything about it u rather see
Like stacking desk eventually
Or using what's there to create our utopia from what we were given

Just no rules but what I first envisioned bc the goals r all screwed up and the fear is on the streets in the foreground of a chic store

Don't wana sound negative,
Just an idea waiting to flourish

Maybe just turning the desks around makes enough of a concept

I want to make something beautiful

That's not it.

Been on vacation...

Did NYC for about 10 days, now in Florida and Tom I'm headed back to LA.
I have so much to say but tonight I just want to post about some advice I took of things I should write down about myself...
I went over my "good qualities" and made a list. I recommend u do this too!
Then a list about "what makes me a good partner" and supposedly you should repeat this list daily so that's why I want it on my blog so I can come back and add to it as I feel and repeat it...
I wrote that...

I'm fun to be with
I'm easy going
I get along with all types of people
I'm adventurous
Passionate
I like challenge
I'm interesting
Caring
Loyal
I give good massages
I'm beautiful, smart & talented.

Then I had to make a list about what I want to change about myself...
I wrote that I am...

Short tempered :(
Want to be more kind bc I can say hurtful things :(
I want a consistent rhythm of life
I want to do more thoughtful things
I want to love more deeply
I want to be more of a woman.

So I'm supposed to tackle all that!

Do this for yourself to find where you need to improve and set some goals to change or know your worth.

TAM

The Love Channel...

Barneys $5,000 shoe contest...

Shoes... The ballerina flats to walk the puppy, the boots to travel far out bound, Wait! Those darling stilettos, I dance around. Even once they r off they look so precious thrown around or on the shelf. Sounds like thats all I care about but they can make a girl happy! I complement another all the time and look at so many while online. Loving almost every pair I'm a 7.5 no Cinderella shoe size here, I swear. So many of them fit me, tons and tons to choose from., but when a girl finds the perfect shoe, it's usually Barneys where I'd choose them. ;)

Just practicing Italian when I thought I forgot it...

Questa notte... e una colaboazione di tutti a favor di la famosa TAMBONATION... ella e una ragazza estranna niente, io non posso con quella perque io sono tan tan come en altro mundo... ela e especialle multo especiale, dificile 'explicar' (e una palabra espanola) no lo so come se dice en italiano, perque non lo so explicarlo en nincuna manera, nungun idioma... io solo posso intentalo, e bello parlare di questa ragazza incomprenible, si o supiere dicilo en francese,,, ahora,,, questo minuto, seria el minuto para cambiare,,, pero,, alora, mio primo,,, ehh..... come se dice! Cusano alguna cosa, eh iguale al espanolo, capito? "non capito niente" ahh! alora,,, comenciamo!... QUE CAZO!?! fuckin bloge di merd American bullshit people all americans r so stupiiid! They dnt know anything they r all uneducated retards w no education, no manners, no understanding of the future!!!! The wars are wrong! They are stupeed. They have to be stopped! Well, this is not fair?! What n how will u stop them? Well Idk I cant it takes many its like skipping an add on youtube they r children who like destruction. Firenze grazie! Tamara