Thump thump

Having a hard time knowing what I have represented myself could be interpreted the wrong way. I've just wanted to rebel against containing myself as if that would in any way get credit for something somehow but what does that even mean?
I thought about how ppl had to be a certain way for their career, coworkers maybe even family. I just wanted to show how one could be honest like I was gona show myself as the worst example? What was that trying to accomplish? I guess it wasn't worth spreading the unnecessary energy. Now it's like what a fool I have been to be so public and dwn right embarassing to myself cuz who else to blame or who else to feel it. Then it's thinking of me too much again but not worth it. Ppl might be mad at me for it, or def not what I was wanting to throw out there. What a rollercoaster I have been and why so proud to be myself? I am like all of u guys, trying w both feet and hands and mind is blocking my heart too much. My heart feels like it needs to be loved, for what it is. I am here, I'm always here thumping for u to breathe, the more u breathe the better u will feel.

Some Beautiful things I came across...

The Blankets...

I love what I'm seeing, just not so much what I'm feeling. Something makes me feel trapped, like trapped together all of us. We need to pick up the blanket that we are and make this big new bed of Earth we are on. A little fresh air underneath us, to blew away what's trapping us down. That would be a nice like jump and some energy and some hope and some new beginning shit! Whoop!
I'm happy because I'm making sure I'm happy. I might be unhappy if I thought I was though hahaha...
So hard to keep track of everything but that's who we are, what we all do, how we relate really and why we should understand we are all on the same team!
Bc even if not, we are.
I hope things begin to brake all barriers. And that they r accepted for what they are... We need NEWNESS! We need ppl to create new love, new forms of love, to show love, to be love, loving. And the rest will be to make the love look even more lovely.

(-I didn't want to go to that anyway-)

We should go only where we truly want to go, we should be open to knowing where that leads us... Or we will never know

Lets try our best more and find out...

Looking DOWN...

I would like some silence, so I can think. I would like to write down my thoughts. My dog is growling at me... she must be trying to say something aslo. I want to say something too... Im supposed to write, Im supposed to write down my thoughts., thats what Ive been trying to do always,,, so that i can see what i really say. I realized something=I dont say much but its bc I dont read enough... I listen to a lot of ppl TALK... I read bullshit, magazines, blogs, things of interest and not enough time is spent on reading something that takes my, thoughts away, to another dimension, to realize something that will elevate me, us. that's the best thing. But then I think about what we miss while we all look into our little devices... our phones. We are always looking DOWN. we are always looking DOWN. we look down and miss anything that happens UP most of the time... those visiting our planet are lucky we are so stupid... only if we all looked up, the fact that nothing out there would ever slip us by! Well, we all look DOWN. We all look DOWN. We are all always looking DOWN!!!!!! Love u, Pls look up more, Love, TAM

I am the very wonder of life itself...

Well then..

U just might have it covered

Truly Tams

Laying in my closet, like some strange girl might do not in a bad way but def a strange way... All this clothes, it must cover up the simplicity of life.. We got ourselves here but boy do I love to wear the right outfit and no the same one practically never; that's me. It's almost like a fashion blogger except I look like shit most of the time ;) well I'm a lot like u, I'm normal. I'm lazy, I'm about comfort... I have an idea... A way to control the speed of songs on our iPhone like a DJ would... So u can make any song correspond to what mood u need, what pace ur walking.. We deserve it all at our fingertips. I also need a dispensary for the dog food and a timer drop into the dog plate for Roxy to have a scheduled life I get over songs bc I listen to the one I love a million times. I don't even know why I have a blog, who cares.
I'm never alright I guess if I keep being like this cuz this isn't who I Wana be but it's not an internal problem, it's an external frustration I think. I've wanted an advisor or a mentor but never got one, imagine. The song playing matters so much cuz now it's CutCopy and I feel like I'm ok again... It's all so superficial.. Shooting spring summer in December and acne patients taking acutane and Botox to freeze your forehead and thank you sorry excuseme it's all very time consuming so yea maybe we should look inward... But the stuff is all created by us supposedly to help us too not just to make money but to become an expert and have the option for the things u may want or need and it's all about finding out who's best, who cares and and not ripping one another off by selling antibiotics to cure a disease but by giving the proper advice and maybe it's about knowledge but then it's also FREE TO BE THE HAPPY YOU.. Like the beach and hiking and eating raw and then your glowing so u get hired anywhere u want cuz it's all in your head. Your head is a compass I've always said. Your head is a compass not a thermometer cuz it's not about what temperature u like its about where ur headed so u sacrifice the now for what is best to get u then there but pls eat a cupcake (my god or nobody will like u) it's a "zag" they say Tony _______ and he also recommends colonics LOL. I can't say it. I'm still in my closet. Went to Yoga yest. TAMBO truly <3