I was living in a moment where I had a complete and total mess of my passwords, of my basic needs, of the technology that was moving faster than even that of high speed... and i looked good like I was keeping up bc I was, bc I was in the timeless illusion where in some time I spent endless hours just simply even just doing THAT... and that was able to be quick, like some times it just is, cuz if directionally your challenged, or persisting, gets us close enough and something rude says to post, you think its just like a receipt unaware of how to feed, all the ones u wish u could, if it would then we would drop concern. the greater than and less than symbol to take the place of the #s and so now a scatter design screen saver & a hacker option to make the keys upside down or backwards. or as a design option pixels in the form of these keys at hand. like a huge EAR and the hashtag as an earing, an oversize comma, an X * ... exclamation point earrings in fine gold designed by a tattoo artist... thats what I'm talking about... a cool party w complementary tats in keyboard styles. % percentage pants, fwd and backward symbol on a T means twirl, pause pants! best pants ever. to me its more about what tape you use... I think the stapler could be an asterix, at least. tough tinfoil, i wanna be that person, i know its not right but dimensions are everything. lets wrap a rock in it!!!!! GET IT... RAP & ROCK !!!! come together.... The apple logo isn't ok on my desktop like i don't have to announce that I'm on Facebook! like, just like that, is that ok? Hansel and Gretel dropped some food on the path to be found... I still like the idea of something that hangs and is a light fixture but is also your jewelry holder or accessory holder per se.. and lets even say a vase somewhere out of respect for who u know is coming and who you want around and who else is even missing bc i know I'm missing somebody! when you buy a lighter it doesn't say how many times its supposed to bring u fire... if u knew you would value the LISTEN.... i want to be heard, I want to hear soon after... Your not allowed to chase after this fool, you can skip that chapter... Your a capital letter to be able to pause and breathe, to be able to stop and think, to be able to shift direction that that you see... bold lettering, prefer this thinning... symbolic powers appearing... hashtags italic since the very very beginning, i don't know why i notice but this is fwahhahaha but wait hold up...!!! THATS WHY I loved these ppl who designed characters out of computer designs.. like CASETTE PLAYA lol "but we like it when we are spinning in his grin..." thats a crazy weird great song... loopk at her??? wait,,, but thats... idk i mean im not that self consumed,,,, really I'm not im not tho... when we feel... feel oh uncomfortable we don't need the wheel... if we can pick it up... and carry it... and drag it, perhaps,... u know.... the way u might need to... sometime... u might need to... at the airport... i always thing of that place... how we are trying to get somewhere I AM SHOWING THE SOFT>>> like like like like is so soft like pillows like pillowsssss IN ENGLISH... We don't say much of what... well, we repeat words... we repeat words... its ok... SBTRKT should win a Grammy. The tacks that go into cork... they are something else... so is the cork... the tape... the double sided one... that... if we can make lighters... oh my MASTERCARD Tape feeling pretty equipped Ya'll.... you know what? cut corners... make use of whats already here...the tacks for the cork... make backs for it... i want for my leather jacket... make make make it,,, lets go ppl.. tape... the nails... Im OK I dont wanna let this thing cut me off... u know? have u been to jail? have u been thrown off Twitter??? Have you I agree with ASRA... Sara, Asra... its typo chang well,,,, soon.... life si too short! and the opposite of IS too short is SI... SO IM RIGHT! Life is too short...

Take Care...

I just videod myself talking for say 20mins... It's cuz writing would be way too much, way too much. I wouldn't wana put u through all that LLL. Instead of LOL I might just say LALALA :) looks more refreshing and it's understandable! 

I can't believe how time slips away... I can't! I guess we are living in the future but I want kinetic energy to charge my phone already so I'm in my idea of the past still LALALA  no, that didn't work. Lol

Spent the night with my mom at a Jazz club Monday nights at the Sofitel is pretty special with Grammy award winning artists like this one dude was insane... Sadly I forgot his name but u can find out... I know u can. 

Taryn Manning was there, I found some dude she was with' phone bc I sat in a 'RESERVED' chair which was huge and covered in velvet, it did feel too good to be true, totally... But I saw her way later and she was with the guy... Who cares anyway, I kinda want to mention the part where I should have introduced myself and given her my card and told her I would customize her a bag... She is a celebrity... Just when I looked at her while she was singing, she closed her eyes and kept singing... So I never felt to try again... I'm shy in a way... U know what? It's like ppl on the st don't look at each other... It's a think I did in NYC to give ppl their SPACE! And now I'm interpreting it differently altogether, it also happens when I'm vending!!!!!! So I'm vending my bags, the bags! Our bags! The beautiful TAMBONITA bags!!!! Handmade with so much love from an artist collective!!!! And I notice that sometimes pls eyes are just looking for what they are looking for! So say, I need a T-shirt to wear tonight... My eyes will scan the streets and only look for that and leave everything else which is allllll hard work for all types of people, artists, brands trying to get your attentions. Etc! And you are just going to draw in what u have told yourself your looking for! That's why being aimless and getting somewhere is in response to your inner core alignment unfortunately it's not always a pleasant outcome! But sometimes with setting INTENTIONS!!! U MANIFEST!!! What u are REALLY WHOLEHEARTEDLY LOOKING FOR! I hope we all find ourselves and the life we wish become REAL, it's almost there... We just have to embellish it and support the things that are! I made a super long like 20min video of me talking which I would like to create a good SETUP for in my house to do more often... I just want to talk sometimes and I really do find comfort in writing... I have a lot to learn and better richer more fabulous things to say but underneath it all... When u have nothing left at all... When I had NOTHING left at all... I saw beauty in what my desperation was and my ultimate dream for myself and this world really stemmed from that... I went to the bottom. I described what the dream was from THERE... And then it happened, just like that... One foot in front of the other and that's the reason how everyone and everything is wherever it is. I'm an independent type of girl that really loves people and being a part of stuff, I respect ppl, I love ppl, I contribute, I don't mean to really hurt anybody, I act out of impulse maybe too often but I do it bc I can and its fun... I think life is too short! I think the days are getting shorter and time keeps on slippin' so I don't care about making a total fool of myself bc their is way more good that outweighs the bad in me, believe me. It's bc my parents are great, my brother my sister, my grandmother sososososo my grandma! All my grandparents were GREAT! My dads grandpa worked in marble... I love rocks and healing stones and he was an architect! I think I got a lot from that visual creative part, my dads mom Bita was a piano teacher amoungst many other things... She was so good with children, me, I spent so much time laughing and singing and playing and learning Spanish childhood games with her... And my cousins. My brother is so intelligent... He's a Gemini... I love him to death and just want him to soften for ME, for me only and whoever his wife;). My sister so full of talent is a wonderful mother of two now, her kids go to show who she IS, her determination, discipline (I'm lacking some) her in the kitchen! She is perfection, she also needs to soften up. My parents are high strung, passionate, political, open-minded! They have taught me so much! I am the one who is softest, right in the middle! And then others think I am the one w hard edges? To me that's funny. I am super soft, I am feminine, I am silly, goofy, full of flaws but NOT! Everything can be fixed... Should we fix it all is the question??? Lol! 

I want to pour my love into the world so it's so full it bursts and it pulses with harmony! :)

Oh, good night. 

Take care ok?

Take care.

Holy Mountain...

http://youtu.be/ugoWnwGoxiI

Let us be...

The Angels are trying r communicate with us all... We are sitting in our cars in traffic and it's just not right... Let us pray! Let us run through the grassy hills under the sun and lay happily under the moonlight with nothing to say. <3 Let us play for peace, let us love ourselves enough that it over flows onto others, let us speak the truth with only words of bountiful beauty and wisdom, let us be happy with little and having it all by sharing, let us come together as one, let us learn who we are, what we need to be, and shedding our skin of the past, let us live in the now and step our next foot gently knowing what grace is and keeping balance on our exquisite invisible crown. Let it be.

Hello Hello Echo Echo...

It's almost midnight and I'm almost asleep...sometimes, many times, this was too early for bed... I'm getting closer to who I want to be. I put a minted clay mask on my face as I lay in bed and pet little Roxy, it's like my fingers are always tied to either work, driving or of course this phone. I think she's started to give me the eye every time I'm on it... Like as if I've been her in another life and I remember what it must feel like to be a dog and always see your stupid owner typing away at thei little device and I prayed she'd get off it LOL. I have an evil eye necklace staring down at me hung on a wall next to my bed that my Godfather gave me, I hope it's working. Sometimes I can feel other ppl quite strong, like feel people's energy wo even having to talk to them. I know it's possible BC it's been quite coincidental. Like I imagine something BC I feel it and it turns out to be right on point: I already know what ppl MUST think of me BC all they have to judge is what I literally put out there... Sometimes I wonder just how much they know. It doesn't bother me, it's just interesting to wonder about things. Like everyone has their own perspective but judging doesn't really work BC one day can be good and another can be bad... U can't say I'm good or I'm bad. I'm both! Lol so Are You! I've been drawn to being happy, to just go on my direction, that what I'm doing is my calling, that at least I'm doing a lot and that I like what I'm doing I just need to pair up with somebody who believes in this as much as I do. "It takes a village" Still no ticket in hand but I'm determined to make it out there because next year I need to make an installation piece for 2016 and I envision it so MAJESTIC! Like everything about it is going to be beautiful... I'm just having a little problems with choosing my exact materials. 

This year I'm going to be camped in the outskirts and going to create my little haven. I'm bringing my car, tent, an area rug, I have a chandelier made of old mother of pearl looking circular shells some of it already broken from rattling in the wind of a flea market. I want to bring a piece of my chain art and will probably get some help from the artists as a piece of art they helped create for the 2015 Burn! I have to jazz up my car too somehow. I hope my brother makes it, I don't know what he'll think of it and my prancing around in costume but he'll just have to see it to believe it LOL. I have nothing to hide, I just want to find the connections that make life worth living. Ppl you appreciate and to be appreciated  is all. Classes, worshops, TED talks, ART, hugs, weather changes, bike riding, I'm for it all... I'm just more experienced now and I will take what I want, leave what I don't, leave the place better than how I found it and make sure to contribute to the greater good of humanity by actually being me instead of somebody else. 

Endlessly grateful for the listening ear, if I yell it too loud it echoed and bounced back at me... So this way it's silent and only a thought and once a thought is thought it's like a purge is it not? We'll see... Love always, Tammy

It's going to be OK...

So the friggin merge of everything like a soup, what's it lookin like? I'm talking to the all seeing eye which is us, what do we think it looks like and how that affects us... 

It's really bad, it's really bad I know... I know I know I know... I can't think about the past now, not now... But so why is that how we find truth in a story? We say well it all started like this... Bla bla and make a point to pick a side. The side we pick depends on the whole story... What if the whole story ... What if U knew these ppl before U actually "got to know them" U didn't have to go through that bc it was something that U could see already happen like in a movie... Movies are pretty amazing, painting pictures of stories in our heads like that. But my pictures mine and yours your bits a pieces of the full spectrum. Hmm. I'd consider myself bold. But not bc I really really AAM bc you can get to know that I'm kinda soft but can be mean I guess and love people like all this is like a puzzle, I am a puzzle U r a puzzle we are a puzzle and all the pieces are everywhere and we start constructing ourselves out of this mess in order to clean it up and make sense of it like as if every single letter is out there in the sky to choose from and I'm typing these very ones... That is so weird to me and that I am writing as I'm actually thinking and that I have shown U my ugly thoughts even. Like who does what? Who would like think it's ok to like let go and let go LOL like leg go... I saw I missed spelled let go and I fixed it then wrote it for U again... So that yes U can see that leg go fits in a bit too. In deed it does. Feels like we just climbed a mountain bc it was a mountain of truth. That's all I'm ok about lol. That sometimes that's the fundamental part. And then to remember that we all pop in and out of here... Of each others presence. The best is that person whom U never want to leave their side. I feel like I'm 2 ppl and w ROXY we are like 8 total... Up at 9am tomorrow I had that strong coffee again! And I'm just pumped about life being more of a game now lol k catch YA later lol -)

Revolutionary IDEA...

I think I have come up with an idea that could save the world! Ok so here it is.. In our own kitchens we have a trash, sometimes two one for recycling and sometimes even more than that. I think it would be cool to have a trash machine for each type of material such as a plastic trash machine that when U throw away your plastics it melts it and also is the material you yourself can use when 3D printing something you need for your home such as plastic utensils or plates let's say so the same goes with the aluminum section of machine where the aluminum melts to be able to 3D print anything for you in your recycled aluminum! Same with paper! If u recycle all your junk mail and paper work it can act as the recycled paper U can then print your new files on! If homes, buildings, communities did this we would be less stripping the Earth of new materials and creating less overall waste. We will continue to buy new but it would allow us to live in the future where we can 3D print our own designs by companies and continuously melt and reuse our material waste. Like compost with food but also for glass and all the forms of materials so that we can be free to print necessary objects on a daily basis without leaving our home by simply buying online and using the material that we have collected as waste to re-use. Amen!