Done with Dat...

When ppl come to me with a problem I'm going to just say "don't worry, I'm sure you can figure this out" I don't want to enter into their drama and give my opinion over and over again. People end up doing what they want to do and ppl don't need to TALK SO MUCH about it! I SWEAR! I find myself very comfortable in the silence and it just feels better than talking about stupidity. I want to and love to work things out, I actually like hearing somebody's story and I do come up with ways to solve things but I'm getting really tired of it when so much time and energy passes I'm just starting to see the difference between a conversation that is going nowhere vs. one that can come to a conclusion and then take action. I want to make things happen and not really waste time in other people's issues bc I have better things to do with my time. That's all I wana say for now. Save it for the birds! Lol xoxo

The need to write...

Before saying anything I just want to say that lately I have been feeling quiet, not wanting to say as much and realizing how much ppl talk and don't ever let silence come in for long! I started to notice it and I really feel a need for quiet time and this has been totally different for me but almost a higher self knowing to shut up and it feeling really really good, powerful and not even needing to say anything! Like I just magically was touched at my chest and hushed. I have been asking others to hush with me and they think I'm being rude LOL. It's a time for ME now and I'm choosing to sit more with my own silence, which some call it meditation, I find myself meditating for no apparent intentional reason randomly then as a cleansing and content-ness deep within. 

I do not look pretty when I'm

Sad but I don't look good when I'm TOO TOO HAPPY either... That's fucked up. Lmao

I'm kidding 

"Keep her in mid range" Lmao

I can't wait for all the wonderful things that are going to come :D

But so, I'm asking somebody to do what they DO and they come back to ask me "what's your budget?" But I'm the friggin artist here! I have no budget! I don't think monetarily I just know what I need to do and once I hear a price I then look online & ask friends if that's a good price, I investigate on what price they gave me. I am looking for a better price or to read between the lines of what they are of course offering... It's also who your goin to deal with, you want to get a good feeling from this person or some sort of conveniency. Ok so now once we are past all that... I come back to the guy and say YES or NO. It's simple. If you convince me that your great from the beginning I might just go with you right away and pay you BAM! Out of mere impulse and again, conveniancy. 

It's right there/do it now type thing. But now I always think about it.

Anyway I just wanted to explain that. I think it's weird to ask ME for MY budget... "Well how much is it?" "How many hours?" This is all then gets finalized and going through for approval by the ones paying for it but bc we are not stupid and want to make sure Tammys taking care of business correctly... It's all getting the final word of approval by the investors of course! I'm not the one with the money to make those decisions but I'm the one making all the other ones by what I buy when I'm buying materials and who I'm working with and designs and such. Now I'm not even paying people like I was before. The sourcing of materials Have been the things I have been able to maintain at a level where I have been completely 100% trusted to be spending correctly. I have done my best and it feels good to be trusted. 

-Tomorrow is super planned out with lists that are prioritized and so is my entire LIFE until Aug 4th right now! And to think I'm supposed to plan this other magical trip I'm taking end of Aug w a camper I hoped for this year but with who? It's not even clear and I need to know now... Can I sit this one out? If I say I will I could easily slide in home base somehow. That's the thing lol. 

Exhausted but what can I say sometimes I feel the need to write. 

Time to rest,

Good night 

Meryl Streep inspired...

Together Forever

I feel like people aren't taking good enough care of their own, their own space, their own bodies, their own plants, their own things... We have to take better care of our own selves and surroundings, our home as our sacred space. I'm not saying I am perfect nor pointing fingers I'm just becoming aware from observing that I'm drawn to places that are well kept, bodies that are healthy, children that are happy, and all just well cared for. So each, we can do our part and together it will be a better place for us all. With Love, TAMBO

Peace on Earth!

If only I could really feel the stars and tell u about the energy I mean I really think I do... I really think I feel it! I feel something. Do u feel something? I feel something. 

Wait SiriOusly....

I feel like theirs this new world I'm going to cross over into and that I don't care if I end up losing things that this world finds value in today cuz tomorrow it will be of no value to us... What we will always need is each other and so talking shit about one another is wrong and conniving! It's not Uplifting! We all need to be lifted, even me, HELLO, I'm not perfect and u know it cuz I show u cuz nobody else what's to ... Well we all end up showing life with our RESULTS.. I'm always trying to find myself and express myself in times of difficulty, darkness, I make mistakes and yet I don't, I think we learn from our experiences. I'm a curious & interesting girl, the other doesn't always realize that til a lil later. I'm just saying cuz I'm bored. I'm also so bored that I could do stupid things or go to sleep. Sleeping is my fav thing. I think talking at all makes people look. I'm like in a dream but I love u but your not even there. 

I know me too.

No idea

Looking for the beat of my drum, and drumming, looking for the beat of my inner feminine sweet side that's filled with love, an over abundance of love to fill you with it and heal you with it almost instantly! Like VOILA! JUST CUZ! Mmmhhhmmmm hahaha omg I'm not saying I'm a channeler but I will say I'm pretty ridiculous sometimes and I know better so I don't know why I do stuff to just do it and go with it and post it right away cuz I can't contain myself lol. Im just like me really and it shows like I'm not being smart about this at all at all lol. Im sabotaging myself left and right always and forever but for what? I haven't the clue. But I'm admitting to it, something that is again stupid to do and say and unnessary and so why again? Right. I have a million reasons for my reasons of reasons to reason and reason is reasonable reasoning to me u see lol 

I'm a pretty chill person in general I just like to talk about something even if it's nothing I wana talk about something. I really wish I could bless this world with like the cleansing from the power of nature to take control of the situation and to just observe and learn from it and respect it and to use its natural resources wisely like mature adults that are aware of the repercussions that any damage would do to our Earth, even the slightest. And to intuitively know and allow freedom amongst us all. That we live together happily and with each other as alibis from the simple fact of survival and to live in Peace as peaceful warriors and humanity . 

I went crazy at the AT&T store a little bit ago and seriously made a huge scene and yelled bc I couldn't wait longer for the dude to get back to me... Can u imagine that ? I am listening to neighbors yell some heavy metal and now it's quiet and I'm feeling like an idiot for EVER YELLING EVER BITCHING IF ITS NOT FOR LIKE UMMMMM I HATE THAT I COULD EVER LOSE MY TEMPER AND NOT JUST FUXKING LEARN TO KEEP IT COOL BRO. Why u Gota go and do dat love huh? Lol. 

Gotta go! Bye