Airing out the Vents

Inventory was always a word I had trouble remembering. Just a word I couldnt retain. Id say “whats it called again…” it was just that kind of word for me. So now I think of going in and airing things out, doing a count of what really counts. And whats the story behind everything and how it got here… making some groupings like collections so u have some similarities, and some rarities. Whats got any worth, how can we clean this stock we are holding onto and how can we move it. Get some opinions from others we value their opinion. Maybe they can help see something we arent. So its what every biz does and what we do for areas in our lives as we grow and move and go in and purge. Its a good life sweep to do but its also full of old memories and time consuming and can take so much to just face and get over with thoroughly. Sometimes we need the grace of devine timing to come into our lives and move us to. Everyone has to follow their own path and do the work their own way. God Bless You All for being here esp those who are doing it well. Well come to the next level of You, U man y T. 

Affirming the Shift…

 I am a Star!

Here to Inspire Greatness  & Guide humans to heal and find their most abundant, Happiest selves. 

Surrounded by Abundance, Love & Support

I stand strong empowered, in my truth and living my purpose with passion.

I am dedicated to my evolution, confident and open to all that is meant for me and for the greatest good of the planet. 

I am a highly intuitive, compassionate Zen Goddess who receives with ease, wonder and grace, 

Love You Too Thank You...

 All righty then... Im missing my... never mind. no for real, never mind. I am here w jagged lil nails that are catching on shit. I needed to do my nails few days now not phew I got em done lol. Im so funny, I miss myself. I love u too. I had a flop of a day... a plan that went side tracked,,, it's ok, just saying. I will recover. I need more than one hug right now lol. I need 12 according to Google and go chat w GPT what an informative riot! New Orleans, what's that? a Beaver making a Damn... and so much else. My Dad needed me today, I remember he said that I am like doing circus things. he said Yoga is like Circus. I think that's pretty funny, he doesn't know how important that is... it's his perspective. he was always avant guard but recently he is showing himself to be who he is today. I appreciate his perspective no matter what it is. He always means well, he was always right now he's always right for what he believes. I wish I was there today for him but things took a diff route. Mom you too. I Love You All. Good night. Tamtastic

Yummy

Feeling delicious in my bed all snuggly, just turned the fan off bc its actually chilly in South Florida, its so nice I LOVE this weather! February in Florida is my favorite, its actually cold but bareable. I went to a free yoga class in downtown FTL and the breeze blew the most beautiful breeze right at my face at the end of the class. She was good, Carrina, I liked her flow a lot. Ive been going to Bombay Yoga w Michelle shes really excellent but tomorrow I will be at Zen Vida hot yoga class at 8am. Its another full day! And so much more to do that I cant even get to, its always like that tho! Ah! The move is still affecting me. I have to take out everything from my closet and do a whole new review to donate/spring clean soon! Im in my new lil apt, its perfect size, the downsize served me well. im much happier w less space to clean and worry about and no roommates… just was crazy w the whole warehouse bc so much stuff, there making my art but how can I make art and sell art? No seriously, explain that to me? So I just pivoted and said Fuck It! Ive done enough of this! Im an expert at this and if its not making money like it was Im gona learn some new skills and take better care of my own damn self … AND WHA? Lol. Im so glad I did. Ughhhh! What a relief! What a weight to come off me! My whole worry to servive just suddenly dessipated I was like wait, u mean im still gona survive without working my ass off like a slave? And Boom! There I was suddenly in peace like learning new ways to live life all over again. Learning how to care for me FIRST, learning how to love myself and my things and who the hell I am. Just learning about my desires for Gods sake! What do I really want to do? How does that look like…. And then having an interest in others of course…. Thats part of my healing too! Community Service at Salvation Army and Voices for Children and pulling weeds w an elderly woman for no hours, many things for no hours!!! But I did them anyway bc I knew helping others was filling to my soul. Me asking for help and nobody serious enough showing up in Miami, so unreliable I tell ya… just so over it! I started helping others bc i knewww what it felt like to be in need of help and how it feels when someone good actually helps and I did it for friggin free… and thats not how it went when ANYBODY helped me, I compensated. But it feels good to have changed the course direction and switch it up a bit. I love myself for it. Ive really bounced back. I even bought a bird! Never thought Id get a bird but I did, shes my new pet and I love her. Her name is Paloma. When I was young like 4th/5th grade I had a friend named Paloma and we got along like w side pony tails and big Ts riding bike in Cocoplum LOL, its like I forgot about her but thats how u say dove in Spanish so the white peace dove I got is a symbol of where Im at… i originally wanted to set her free now Im just still deciding… bc I think she might need me. Shes in captivity… wings arent clipped. I let her fly around my apt the other day and maybe not a good idea lol. I was warned. I want her to fly tho! Then I learned that they grow back if u clip them. So not sure. Paloma is by the window w a great view, a mirror too, a couple perches and I added some card board bc I learned some about Pigeons online and i even leave her birds on TV for her to watch while Im gone. Still so much to learn! They are used to release at weddings and celebrations and that I thought would be cool til someone said she will not survive if I let her go. I dont want her to suffer so they might be right… i picture her getting eaten by an aligator lol, not funny but its just what I picture. Poor Paloma! Shes a Queen! Mi Palomita. Wish me luck w her! We are really happy, just the two of us. Xoxox

A Woman’s Way…

Through the 12 steps. 

Btw this is an actual person not Ai speaking and Ai is abound! So please 🙏🏼 My word, my oath… I will say and credit Ai if I were to ever use Ai. Im not opposed to it or ChatGPT but I am thinking and using my brain and thats what I like to do… even if u havent seen anythin Yet! Im here writing in hard times here bc those are the times I need to try to express myself. It is an excersise. I dont like it myself… I do what I do bc I channel and I am literally looking for my own ways to help myself… remember this started before I found AA LOL AA Ai … hahaha Tamara …. Is AAAAAA LOL not bc im a riot or a narcissist bc u insist LOL no!!!!! NO! Bc I AM TAMARA AIDA DIAZ and it has that many A’s in it… 6 yes 6 the amount that says I care… bc I do… like a pregnant woman about to have a baby does… thats me even wo the baby! (I still do want a baby i think but thats just extra… im looking for the right baby Daddy!) anyway, 

Writing this on my phone bc its been a while I havent said something decent here LOL Im doing “A Womans Way”, “The Artists Way” and Reading the NA book Living Clean, 8 steps to Happiness, next up The Prophet. 

Do Good…

This exact time of year is always stressful for me. Stressfree is what I want it to be… the pressure comes to squeeze me in and also be forgotten on the most important day I have… i never get the proper attention… but its just stressful for so many so even if I had it good Id feel it for those that dont I think, how weird is that? Why am I like that? Like, Do i do it to myself? Do I enjoy that? I dont want to. I just think its weird to enjoy inconsiderately… which I do at some point, i authentically do a real good time but for a moment like now I just wana mention how so much of it is actually not that pleasant…. Like its really about who u r with in the end not so much what you are doing. So who do I want to be with? Looking…. And doing the best we can is great… i like traveling but it can be uncomfortable at times and shit fuck, i know it very well… its not all ig postable perfect. 

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