common sense... con tambonation... lol

and I was supposed to go to a meeting today, i shouldnt even publish my life, who is this r., no. im strong... im brave for GODSSSSSS SAKE.... plsssss, fucking respect the truth,,, u havent gone through shit,,, ur nobody,,, ur judgemental!, ur judging me.... u should know im a pat of uuuu, u should see,,, i dont want anything but the truth told, so that, we can move fwd,,, like acrobats, like our routine, u dont let it affect the rest of your moment in the OLYMPICS MOTHER FUCKER...... my mother will be mad i cursed,,,, i dont wanan curse!!! why did i do trhat??? idkkkk? I wana jump off a cliff take my socks off lol make a fool sure why not lol im just a HUMAN BEINGGGG hi :) no im not fucked up... im ALIVE... im ok tho... lol like HELLO like im not selling my body like im not somebody im not im actually happy im actually GOLDEN so i only want GOLDEN PPL around me :) .....heeeeeej common sense

Ball of Love for you.... to HOLD!

a HUGE LOVE BALL.... BALL OF LOVE! 

illusional ? lol

When all is good, aint it? omg like a mask!.... but not!... im BARE111.... i hope to hold u.... i love i do i love all the things the good and bad i have no bariers... perhaps ur right,,, soooo much to learn """"""" ummmm hmmmm... Im here... I am. I wish u were w meeeeeeeeee........>>>>>>> I wish i was INVITED JODERRRRR\ que putada! eres ignorante... me estas dando pena, me estas... dando mierda... sola voy sola llego... sola sin discreto... bitch move.... BUT I DONT GET OVER SHIT LIKE U THINK>>>>>> u think im stupid? i think.... i think whyyyy.... agaian and again... i think..... i say FUCK U PAIN.... i dont want u anaway.... i want to THINK WHYYY.... u think ur right>???? nothing to be right abaout.... and FINE u r.... FINE! do u feel better now? my feet r stinking!!!!! they never have!!!! LOLOLOL i laugh.... bc my sister bad that... its a weird contageouis thing... nothing more.... like u can rub them w menthol and it will be fine... u know? i dont care! i will always be here for u/.... u /.....uuuuu.....rrrrrrr.....an,,,, illusion .... :)

IM OVER IT :)

Pretty thoughts

Having my regular anxiety attack disguised 

I've blown up and I Wana shrink or even explode into tiny pieces that morph into a confetti piece w nothing to say. Not to try to keep any thing in cuz I want it out I can't even find it! I'm supposed to be different but what it is is what it is and besides "thank u" it's about a deep need to apologize for myself and it suddenly overwhelms me to feel how not cool that is and how trained our mentality could be. I have dreams that take constant work to make happen, a never ending creation that lives off love as fuel. 

The pain and sadness needs to go away entirely off this planet like are we even allowed to act like this? Like can't I be that graceful responsible woman? It's pretty to be correct. The music, attitude entirely. So many things gone out of wak from all angles and me too! I'm feeling like I can't see anybody and I want to hybernTe and I'm so tired of trying and behind or a like let down... These are my thoughts tho and I wish they weren't. I should try even harder I see and it's hard to say cuz it's retarded to think this should be said when it's not. I'm gona try to rest and feel the love at least I have for myself and wish u were here to help and I  will keep trying to be a light in this world.

Love is home ... Home is Love... Eye Love>>

Home Work is really all about LOVE, to care, to caress, to try to impress, to try and comprehend, to know that your the home and not the I am having fun being me and noticing that my wishes are all here and tru like urs are, just notice and accept that your like a dream come true, u can dream and it can actually take u there on a space shuttle and transform into what vehicle u unconsciously wanted to ride... but then I know how things happen and they are far from what we wanted or what we least expected... How do u explain that? I love some parts of the inexplainable! like things that were necessary bc what is right before us doesnt show instaed we want results, we want to be better than our neighbor and we wana be succeeding like a competitive microcosm, w delicate existance nobody there to catch if such fall. who falls anyway>? we r the Super People of the future HELLO! Nothing wrong w me, less is wrong w u. I like positive reinforcement too.. i hate cigarettes actually, i like drinking but its like im so over and on to the next but its just a bed that u sleep on, u rather sleep on it that sleep on the floor, nowhere else to sleep like nothing else to do but drink instead of anything.... NO NOTHING... no other option,, no bed,,, the FLOOR,,, get it> ? thats what I think. Im not negative tho, im not stupid positive either, thats really boring in fact, i like solutions to problems not problems and not no problems i guess bc i believe their is always something to improve on, always a "problem" or LETS CAUSE A PROBLEM! what ifff.... lol and just talk about it LOLOL. we wont ever get to that anyway LOL but its like an example to find a solution to what is happening... finding a simile or an antonym... is interesting, its only a brain and its only a thought and its using it rather than not. i am quiet a lot. I am trying to create the contrary to something all the time bc like if we think everyone wants to shop online then we r NUTS LOL the opposite to that is going someplace for the EXPERIENCE,,, and i'm referring to DAY TIME. I want you to be a part of MY team... not just someone who will steal my ideas and try to make them theirs.. When will it begin?

im being a total bitch right now whatch out... TAMBO

lesssons in life are endless huh... golly, what a long thundering rainstorm its been, Earthquake? shouldnt that be more normal to feel? like everytime we made a mistake like a sign from God, it nods a shake right under our feet, like a city maybe but even individually... but its only cuz THEIR IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG... but we all know whats closer to right and further from wrong, right? well its not only that that it is, its a system and depending on your own free will the outcomes merge together to form what ISSSS.... im not even on drugs actually, not a druggie, never really been, Has anybody REALLY done drugs w me like IM THE ONE w the problem>? No. cuz im always there to regret outspokenly FIRST LOL like a Human Being.... im not anything but exact experimental science its answers in the air, that's the only point. I am not better than u, i am not as good as I want to be even, i am being honest and wanting more is why I make a good prospect for what is about to happen, (dont only look here pls.))) I want to sell everything and live in the smaller room in my apartment. I may need a safe storage for what I do use for styling but I dont want it in my sanctuary. I want it to be shared by other stylists that wana store their things w me... we can begin a storage unit w ppl i can trust to use whatever style they need, i dont want to be the only one w this stuff!!! us it PLEASE! and thats my idea for the night... i dont wana talk to ppl who dont value me enough and YES thats u BITCH!! #bitchin