Being early is not being on time.

Your not the only one who needs an update

Why don't updates happen on their own?

I guess that wouldn't be a date then would it

I didn't question it

It's the platform we are pouring our hearts and souls to and how the freedom we desire is pixelated

Warped in a fog we are trying to mold the perfect future with thousands of hands they don't know better so the new ones squash it to just get a feel and the rest of us have to allow them to and watch the masterpiece constantly morph in a rhythmic backwards and forewords 

We later allow

Where am I now in all of this?

Are many of us just taking a backseat?

Seeing the grand performance 

With no move your surely safe

Needing more leaders, I've tried to be one..

My voice camouflaged in the ohm

No ending is near I just need to find someone. But how if i don't see, and how if I set sail without looking back I'm a love in the wind.

I'll Be Back...

O what fun...

My computer was all messed up for a while and I used the time to catch up on other things... I was doing well actually... for a moment really well and today the doubts rolled back in but the good news is that Mercury is getting out of Retrograde tonight... or already did... so I wanted to write again. I am planning a long morning bike ride tomorrow morning :) with two other friends. I have SO MUCH to tell you. My God. First of all another Public apology for anything I might have said or done wrong in the past... Its just me really trying to clear the air... I don't know why Im SO Apologetic! I don't mind it, for me its the truth of how I feel... apparently different from most other amazing people of TODAY. I have so much to be grateful for and so many great attributes that I do know I am OK, I do feel like I finally like who I am in a different way, like the woman I want to be is really in there and that Im just discovering what she's like and who I want to be. I like who that is and I can envision her and she will only come fwd and alive if I make some huge decisions... Really huge... I think I have to really really change and the thing is, I have been changing and all for the better and yet so much more to do! Im going to have dinner now and come back to writing tomorrow :)

Dibble Dabble

The tug of war to try again.

The strong belief that you can win

But the letting go to play we give and take

Like a buried treasure with no name from who

Like a plane that flies and never needs to land

Like 10,000 spoons but all u need is a knife

Like 4am and feeling bug eyed.

Like zip lining in your imagination

Like somebody snoring with no particular pattern.

Like quick sand that doesn't sink, instead boots u up!

Like something programmed to be hot yet cold

Like a Mary Poppins purse of thoughts 

Like clouds when grey it rains

Like learning a new language, lost in translation and new generation

Like slow motion butterfly

The typical thing and then what isn't 

The winds direction suddenly changing.

Life while wearing headphones 

& Soup in your belly.

Chick...

Healthy Chick Pea Salad

A can of chick peas, rinsed

Power greens salad

Chopped half onion

Shredded Fennel

A good amount of parsley

A whole lemon squeezed

Splash of soy sauce

Olive oil/ Udos oil 

Splash of balsamic 

Hemp seeds

Chai seeds

Flax seeds

Handful of Walnuts 

Sliced white mushrooms

Avocado

Dream

I feel like I love you guys and I'm so glad that in whatever way this IS, we r connected... that I'm happy this exists like I'm happy that drones are for our own benefit at this moment and that I'm outnumbered when I wana speak my mind and that I wana talk to you guys and that I'm here wondering sometimes maybe why the heck is it like this and why am I always shocked and somehow sometimes not happy bc I'm ok, I'm happy I think as a person but I'm also dealing with the same over all pressures u all are and how I'm just gona keep trying my best... well I just wana say thank you all for being involved in my life and if your not it's alright bc thank you for not. Thank you anyway for whoever you are and I will always accept you.. don't worry ever again... nothing is ever THAT worth getting down about. Be floaty, be free, be happy easily... #winterblossom #dontworry #behappy #love