Trust Harder...

 This whole way about me is not exactly how I expect life to go. I think it's hard to find someone to truly connect and be with for the long haul. I say to myself how I love ppl, I send my sincere love out to everyone involved, from my angels and ancestors to even yours. To be playful and honest is not my next version of me anymore so much. Im really more intro than extrovert I think. I rather learn something than be misunderstood by you and trying to prove anything. I don't feel the need to. Im not valued by everyone and Im yet aware of my value. Im really more ok w me than the rest of you. how would I know you really care for. me, believe in me, want the best in me? I don't know the truth. ppl are really holding back instead of being honest. Do you feel the same? do u like u? lets just start there. things need time. Im not a bird, I don't speak bird, but I try. do u even see the birds at all? I am proud of all of you for everything we have done. what r u planning for next? I think we are all family. I know we are. we're all somehow connected. I want to just show my respect for it all. how should I do that>? I have an opinion. maybe it's ok to keep being myself... be a light so I can find you. love all trust harder. 

I haven't written on here in a while Crocodile...

 I drove in a crazy rain storm. It wasn't normal. I will tell you that. I am super happy by the way, I kinda look at my phone too much, yes I don't want to but I used to be SO busy I never had time for that... so now I do... I think Im actually really lucky LOL like to be able to learn so many things... I rather read but its so hard to w the phone... Im addicted to Tarot card readings... I don't care about much else ... except Gaza. I do care about that but then U KNOW WHAT? I care about CUBA. We forgot about CUBA.... So YES Im pissed off at allllll of Yalll for disturbing the peace.... Good Luck To ALL The Cubans. Dont forget It’s the Cuban Link!

Religious

They said “deny yourself and pick up your cross” and I disagree. Whats worked for me is to actually pay more attention to my own intuition. To treat myself better likeTreat myself in this world! Instead of work so hard that I ignore myself. I cant believe I did that. Always for whatever had to be done before me. Before myself. I wasnt in “need” of a massage. Guess what? I so was. It changed me. Things like that changed me. I just want ppl to invest in themselves more. I was so busy, too busy to think of my own needs. It always was a catching up kinda feel. I felt smart like a surfviving rat but never prioritizing my own life, needs, desires. I have a deep hurt inside me. Its there. Bc i know something most ppl cant even imagine. I love that about my persona now. Im not you. You cant be me. You are something I wnaa know more about… I wana be your friend. I wonder, will u. I am always wondering. I want us all to be friends. That means not do wonother wrong. But mistakes are welcome. Can we just be friends like human family first. Idk if u can. I want that. Do u? Does anybody hear me? Im so lost if not. I love this whole thing but I dont, if not. I just cant even do it… if we cant have that baseline. We are human. We have done so much. We are incredible beings. I am so proud of everything u have done wow. I am one of u. I am just one person. I want u to know how special you are in my life if u are here still now… im speaking to you. I am speaking from my heart and solar plexus… I am you. Do you know how much … you are Human… you are Priceless. I am your motivational manager LOL kidding idk but im always here just for u to know that I truly love u … all. I am. God is. You are. We will… forever… and always… what? Be. I think its be. But we can do more than that. We can be here for each other. I dont wana be here if we dont. I cant understand the seperation. Segragation. Thelost. Iam here now. That should be enough. Hi hello. Yes I am reaching out. I want to say I love you, even tho I might not even know u. But I do. I trust that u will do whatever is best… not just for u… but for all of us. Thank you. I cant thank u enough.

Pry

Vacy. Meaning not vacant. Very unavail. Private. Keeping 

My dog Roxy sat on my wire that was charging my phone while I was texting. I take it as a sign because I see their faces their eyes. I see that the dogs know something that we don’t know you’re trying to tell us to get off of our phones. They want us to be more present. They’re upset that we are looking on our stupid phone so much they are sad by it. They are so sad by it that it’s actually a situation to be acknowledged. Our dogs are our best friends and we love them so much yet we are so infatuated these stupid technology dopamine machine. and they are suffering from it. They want us to know that this is not the way and yet I do admit I still love my phone and researching and looking at things because there’s so much to do on it, but our talks are present time. They are the gifts of now. They are here too give love unconditionally and they’re all we have really. there are best teachers. I am so sad that I am one of those humans who is addicted to the phone. I am addicted to the phone addicted to learning addicted to feeling good addicted to whatever is the next thing that I can do I have such a hard time stopping to just feel even though I have exercise that thank God thank you to the programs that I have signed up to be a but I am definitely not perfect. I struggle with that. It is something that I have to make extra effort intentionally to do just to just even do correctly incorrectly. It doesn’t matter as long as you do it. I believe the dogs are right I can feel that they know something we don’t know. so hard to not at the end of the day going down the rabbit hole. I so much appreciate all the things. All the signs. Leo and Roxy are here with me now and they can’t speak. They can’t say this, but I know what they’re feeling. I know that they are wanting more from us in a way as doggy parents perhaps it’s just so many things might be. Their food I want attention we give them their outdoor activities. I don’t know, but they also do appreciate us for grooming them and loving them the way we do thank you for listening.

Kismet

Hello Beautiful Souls. How was your day? I might get more water now and read some. Meditating has been hard to do but I danced a lot. Listening for clues to all the things Im doing. Tamara la Shamana I know that might be a lil triggering for some of ya but Im feeling the call to be involved with this side of things. Just helping how I can and the direction of how to live life with ease and plant kingdom as a helpful ally. I pray to God and all the higher powers, to help the people on this planet that we share this land with, no matter the country or religion or race, that we all deserve peace and love and food to nourish and respect and care and all their needs met. Basic needs and a life worth living  full of support from all the people of all nationalities. All better friends. Enjoying life. All, each and everyone… a happy life, a hobby, a sport with a team, traveling, learning, a free feeling supported and loved, guided by God and giving yiur own two cents in. Everyone kind like our name says, loving our neughbors, we know now how much that is going to be a better way to play your cards. Its all worth it, each a peace of Peace on Earth. Know how u affect it. I had to look at myself, my ill ways, parasitic like a clown. Its time to clean up our act and face the truth. Sfop whatever needs to be sfopped. Just let it go. Start again w one step and smile in a positive way, pause it… see the mission and world wide hopes. Youre free to feed the rest of us. Love your planet, worth! Earth pause for paz. Frequency check. Heaven inside your body first. I love u unconditionally but please do your best. Kisses… 

Intuition TAMBONATION…

Rivers of tears from my heart to all the people of this planet. Blue Oceans blooming my heart open, the explosion. Preying on you, while Im praying for u. Hope like the Pope, words out my throat. Devine growing our stories way, breathing gratitude and peace, I have to. 

I see a 3 pane fan that needs to be turned on, its Peace. It needs to be activated. We all deserve this piece of it, easier breezy light movememt freedom, we should be able to roam and travel wo any borders and permissions from people who want to control us. Picture us, finger print and stamp on us. Like the air, free, like the movement in water that activated oxygenates and makes LIFE. R u deaf? Old paradigm sucking and leaching from one of us. Or the nature itself. It belongs to all of us. Abundant ants piling together, organizing themselves, systems like solar systems in all of us, energies that energize us! Moving in motivation, money the moon and stuff. Connected to elevate us. Love us, giving, freedom, the real things, in time. 

Stay Great Full my Friends.

I think so.  

Grand Rising Free Writing... this one is inspiring.