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Fighting off or surrendering some lower back pains from traveling. My luggage was overweight bringing TAMBONITAs for my cousins to wear in Vegas then they made me carry the extra luggage so I did and I wish I didn’t. When your hurt the airport sucks. I dream of the day we care enough about one another that the design for everything feel that way instead of crunching numbers and square footage w heavy doors and things made to fit a budget when I believe the small differences to be sometimes better in the long run. I mean a foot? What’s a foot now to a comfortable returning customer. I’m just sayin guys! It feels like just squished to my limit and so it’s a bit pushing my limits and I know I’m not the only one. I hate cheap ppl lol. WHERE was I going w this? Oh and btw they never wore the TAMBONITAs bc we got that busy, well u know, priorities or choices. It was a busy week and I had enough w the events planned, I wanted to hit up the spa and it was closed at the hotel lol, try try try again LOL. I was in bed before midnight every night which is not the usual me but when I do go out it’s prob going to lead me out a while. I wanted to go to Terrace the last night well morning in town but didn’t go in the end. Lots of shows and things going on there. I need a sleep boost to catch up. The key got stuck in my lock when I went back to work, had to get the locksmith to cut the lock which set me back a lot bc I was pissed I was gona miss my yoga. I really wish I could monkey through those trees right there lol… like fewww out the window and like my arms be my ride… SUP! Lol. Sit down on the branch there, hang, u know. Oh and I need my phone to find me when I lose it. I’m over looking for it. I don’t need u! I’m better wo u! Lol. It’s a blessing when I forget u. Noticing the amount of negative trash talk w celebrity tabloid news like what a bunch of venom junk for Ppls ghetto ass heads! Basura! Y Basta! 

This monkey needs a chimney slide from the roof… idk why I’m a monkey now lol, never thought of myself as a monkey but guess what! I had that monkey puppet that I would velcro the arms around my neck… I was not even over it quick, that’s so funny. We are apes guys! We r herbivores! So eat more fruits and veggies and lemon water and stop killing animals!!!! You are contributing to the pain and suffering of these innocent animals and to that of our world! Let’s do this! Let’s seriously let ALL ANIMALS BE HAPPY & FREE!!!!! I love those Irish hills, I’d love to be a cow there on a sunny day. Fuck! I loooove Cows! I want a cow friend lol. I saved a huge monarch butterfly that got caught in a spider web in my backyard. Without hurting the wing I had to get her out and she was orange and Huge! I realized why I had to be exactly there at that moment. When I got home later that day I was greeted by a rat, a cat… like looking in the eyes LOL. I’m like ok I guess I’m popular now w the animal points or something, cool! But seriously Cinderella vibes. 

Have I mentioned that I can’t just hook up w random dudes rn and that I’m so picky I don’t see guys I like maybe one in 10 years! It what it is, protecting my energy idk. I just don’t want to hook up w random dudes or date from apps. You find me and u work your magnetic power and talk in person. I’m old school. Don’t be asking me stupid questions on a first date that everyone can hear us on our first date… I CANT. I WONT. So basically to even be seen in public w u now has its levels. I don’t have time for all the weirdness I need shit to flow. Please leave me alone and let me breathe and help me shine. Watch out for me, be my friend, get to know me… it’s a process, but I’m open to getting deep, ask me something good, teach me something, I’m testing 1,2,3…too. Gota get the astrology out of the way, I don’t have time for any more mistakes unless it’s a beautiful mistake maybe that’s ok cuz life is that. Don’t hurt me. Don’t think your gona use me. Or get money out of me. You are taking this lady out and let me not even notice the checks coming. I have paid for men my entire fucking life. I have never been w a truly successful man. I’ve had 5 pretty solidly serious relationships for diff reasons of growth and stuff. I’ve never been the type to chase money. I wasn’t trained like that. I didn’t know that would be an issue. Men have not been good to me. It’s true. Men have not been what I needed or deserved or dreamed of. They smothered me or cheated on me or complicated my life, or just weren’t for ME, usually fine w letting me pay. I rather be single bro. Sorry. No shame. Ppl say I can have a baby and don’t need a man… I do need a man! But the right man for this right woman is the only thing getting through these heavenly gates. Ppl are theives, ppl aren’t quick and aware enough, ppl have immoral values compared to mine or like to laugh at ppl getting hurt or destruction… no Thank u. What is the point? Of it. I need clarity… what do u really want from me? I want to know if I can do that and for the guy who makes me feel excited and loved and safe and seen and protected… am I missing anything? It shouldn’t be this hard LOL. 

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Hard Rock! Ok so, it’s the smell, it’s the caresses, it’s the breath, it’s the horario, tu ritmo, tus deseos, am I treated like “babe going to go be w the boys” and ur just going after the next best thing… I’m not. I’m asking for a lil RESPECT. What does that mean to u. Bc I want to respect u. I lose respect and that’s it… it’s tarnished. That happens usually from bc I just see that I don’t want this anymore! I’m like MY TEAM IS A TEAM LOL. Like tie your shoe and clean your car and get your shit together. That should A never happen and B you do it and it doesn’t happen again and C hahhahaha THE NEXT GUY CANNOT DO THAT BC THATS A BAD EXAMPLE BUT U KNOW WHAT I MEAN. That was a picture I painted. I need ready, slick, smooth, easy, moving, stoping, loving, enjoying, going, inspired, happy, proud, appreciative, sincere, sexy. 

This is a lot I know but I think he’s out there somewhere. I know I’m a catch just missing my other half. 

I’m busy btw, things will take time. We need the time to learn and grow it’s the challenges that bring us closer together. I need to know u. And all this time that we don’t have we better EN JOY. 

Ayayayyyyyyy

Quiero conocerte y eso es quererte. 

Adios!