Celebration!!

Its been dreamy!

Walked around downtown like a robotic soldier like the rest of the strange folks there, i even took the monorail for the first time... Bought sunflowers from a guy and they had a hell of a contrast with the escalators. Have been skimming the newspaper headlines and boy do we got problems.

My BFF is moving to a new apartment! So happy for her and her amazing kids that I LOVE so so much.

My Mom just got back from Spain where my Dad is but shes going to California for the weekend to my grandmothers sisters Birthday there which would have been really nice to go to

BUT

Monday is Valentines Day!

AND

Tuesday is my Birthday!!!!!


This calls for a celebration :)

I want to go on a boat this weekend!!!!

Rag n Bone DIY Project...

idk...

so many things have been created... so much is great and our preferred topic...

but we also have these phone chargers that are all different all this "gobalization" separating us... the companies themselves creating things for consumers to consume extra to keep things running... things that should instead be ELIMINATED.


THE ELIMINATION is what will bring us together, what will save us all time and money to get CLOSER to one another... soooooo SOOOO MUCH TO DISCOVERRRRR!!!! we are pathetic.

things will die faster as a result, anger will spread, competition will be evil, ppl will revolt... things wont be pretty... its OUR FAULT.

so what about having clean running water!

isnt that BEAUTIFUL? shouldnt we say thank u and protect that type of stuff???

should we be picky about how well done our stake is or should we get off our chairs and protect this planet and feed the hungry by having an organization that picks up our uneaten food and delivers it to the homeless shelters from the restaurants... do u know how much food that would be for the starving??? if they choose not to eat it then we can be more confident in letting it go to waste, right?

i hate to be a preacher... i mean, who am i?


but i wish things could be better... comes from a simple thought at first...

strawberry fields arent forever bc each plant needs love, the ripe strawberries are hopefully picked off or then u have bugs feeding off the rotting ones... no? hopefully
hopefully
hopefully you like strawberries.

or if lots of ppl love em and u dont care for thm then... better for u, i guess.

It's Like...

It's like we are creating a world for ourselves...

...wake up to bed time...

BIG NEW DAYS

(I wrote this all in a journal but I think its worth sharing)...


Out on the golf course to unwind and we discover a hill on a lake in a place that doesn't look wild whatsoever... its cleanly groomed hills of perfect green and little paths and little scattered flags we could not even see... we reached the most perfect hill by a lake where I envisioned Europeans enjoying as families on blankets and tanning as we would... a beach in the middle of their own town...

we rest on a red blanket and suddenly the sprinklers go off all round us!! We freak out at first but then soon realize that we are not even going to get wet!!

we laugh

and decide to stay

but then we also say that if they "will" reach us that we would enjoy it and then we could run together

.lol.

We go from me feeling suddenly like UMA THURMAN to being approached for a "ballroom dance" Mozart on the iphone and all...

on a hill amoungst sprinkelers by a lake in the middle of Miami Beach


We later leave by getting lucky that they stopped.

When we catch a cab for sushi we are reminded by a painting which i mentioned where two people are dancing on a beach and their maids are holding up umbrellas for them as they danced,





another strange coincidence.





I walked the streets of Washington Ave holding up signs with pink hair n while wearing a tube top and small shorts it looked like i was walking naked "BROKEN DREAMS" "MADE OF LOVE" "ONE WAY" "THE CLOCK IS TICKING" "TOXIC"


:)

Learning

I I I I I... dont want to talk about myself as much anymore,,, Cairo is making me wana mummify myself into a past... took my insides out already, they are laying on the counter beside my torso... all the precious jewels will go with me into the next life after I am gently wrapped up tightly... they created a tomb where my body will rest inside of, finally a chance to rest that chaotic brain of mine... those sore limbs to rest... ive beat myself up in every single way possible.

The peace comes from within... my heart will sit in a jar next to one with my intestines... and my name and address and a short story... perhaps a simple symbol which envelopes it all. Nothing much to me right now... just a code for "others".

I wish it wasnt told so simply... I dont want everything I am to be told in a squiggle with a line through it... bc details are what moves me.

I am looking for something in these days... im trying to figure out what EXACTLY makes me tick... why i get upset , what upsets me , what is that moment that makes things change for me..

(PICTURE THIS- a beautiful woman with a swimmers cap and a 1960's one-piece bathing suit slowly gets into a clean swimming pool and swims a peaceful breast-stroke across the length of its rectangular shape... shes graceful... she swims by a dead dead body and pretends not to notice and turns around and pushes off on her way back towards the other side to pass the body again,,, the "dead body" is alive... wide eyed... maybe he didnt want to be noticed.)

Dont Push me.
Decide.
Dont wait for me, go.
Dont ask me THAT.
Dont say THAT like THAT.
Dont u understand?

Dont wana be like that.

Dont want to lie.

-T-

Thats what Ive figured out in a few days, filled with lots of special moments.

Who whooo the fuck is Jack Herer?? LOL

"he's alive, he's holding his breath"