Anyway

It sounds in-fucking-credible right now. Literally uhm just heard the BIGest Orgasm Of mY Life!!!!! LOLOLOL it had to be fake and on ecstasy BC it wS a whole neighborhood entertainment thing for what felt like N hour but was maybe 30mins from peak. I'm serious... Super crazy but wow! Wonder if it's normal for her... Jk... What r we talking about? Lol seriously I forgot and I just wrote it all I know is that it was about an orgasm.. And we were like in it BC she was soundtracked as the sound. Anyway super funny either way Anyway I rather it would have gotten Trippy like just a night to think. I didn't want to be in her movie.. Sometimes u can't help that! Wish whatever I was saying right at this moment was gona make u feel ok... LOL

I better shut up lol but Hey! I'm in a fuzzy pink sweater... I feel like I'm on a dock by the water, I'm right next to a mountain I can climb. I am trying my best, I'm staying very busy, & I should read good books! Let's learn to always be kind w each other ;) I'm just talking to myself guys here btw ;$ lol zzzz... Xxx...

"Guide To Being Alone" ;)

Lets Communicate...

You have earphones to hear better but also to block you from hearing what you dont... what you dont want to hear BUT also what u dont GET to hear... like the random sounds I enjoy while walking down a city street, they are filled w sounds you cant, whats the word, they surprise, and along w it all, a mashup up realistic mistakes... they create the OHM... the unpredictable OHM we live in! Why dont we think of it as OHM more often? like the OHM we agree on in Yoga class... its just a comfortable way to agree on EVERYTHING... why must we be comfortable? Well, Hell! its gone be easier on uuuu... to find an understanding. I dont aim to be understood completely... bc its not about ME. its about US :) its about WHY, its about all the millions of things we have! We have SOOOOOO many amazing things to open our eyes to each day and things to do and bla bla bla that we WANTED!!!!! We initially wanted all this crap :) We still want MORE??? Really we do. Yes. LOL. we never stop wanting bc we never stop CREATING! and creating happens through a collaborative "want" and its not a bad thing... its supposed to solve problems instead of create disasters... BUT the greedy evil eye took over the 3rd! The puzzle is upside down and the Rubix cube isnt close to being solved, its actually multi dimensional and the size of the planet :) the people are the the little squares and the like and like need to get together and the opposing opposites need to sit across the table from one another to have a LONg conversation. Not like and like across,,, but opposing ppl SOOOO whoever is in charge of the seating chart SUX. Your Fired. Whata dickhead.

In the eye of the storm...

For years I have blogged w no content. Literally, just exemplifying myself and those around me as these misconstrutions (not a word) Just feeling empty and feeling to escape and then lead astray and to a place where I was then angry and everyone or life itself not being better to me. Like, knowing I DID a bunch of good work for a long time and then when Im at this Big tipping point or even before that I was just gona rather throw myself on purpose to fall and roll down the cliff but you know what? I always knew I was gona be ok. Sometimes I put myself in places that are totally in every which way unbelievable... for a girl like me. I am brave. I am showing my own foot as I point my toe and watch it drag across the line or that when u cross, its really alright... Maybe TOM FORD said it best... its just kinda like plain and simple "bad manners to dress ... bla bla bla whatever it was... YES its completely rude in society to have roots growing out and chipped nail polish etc and then THAT was what was interesting, was it not? like Punks spitting or somebody kicking a trash down or graffitti, or whatever else its a lot of RUDEass shit going on. Pants dropped, just MUSIC is a JOKE!!!! get it? cuz I dont care if you do or not bc I already know it is what it is... I am a member of this society. This thing that we all throw into and it echoes out back at us lets say... its the FOCUS that we got lost in... you hear what you wana hear, you go where u wanan go, u like what YOU like, you can be who ever u wana beeee.... YOU are part of this whole thing w me and everyone who we are driving along side w on the roads and crossing paths w on the streets, the bathrooms are all being used by as all, the food coming from the same or similar farms, and the small circle has a bigger circle around it and a bigger circle around it and so forth. Im not better than you. Im not as good as I wana be yet either... Im actually in nowhere land compared to what I expect of myself and others... yes including u. So, its life! we share a rhythm, we all piss and drink water and are effected by bigger things than us like the shared knowledge. I am gona try to relax like its my obligation... im gona enjoy what I have said and good or bad just let it go as YES proof we are all idiots LOLOLOL jk omg... and Im gone hate going to sleep right now bc i dont feel like it. I was trying to HELP ppl all night ... thats what I really do when Im feeling good and my true self. I just want to be in that place to do what I do... I have a lot to do before then and life is going by too fast for me I must be having a good time ;) I want u to Help me out here lol

Shift of Consciousness...

I'm becoming more gentle and more closer to focusing on what makes me happy. It's so imp to do what u feel will make u more whole or better by not only instant gratification. There are versions of yourself and UR life's desicions impact that! Take any equation... it's just results like how u care for a plant... How u care for u has it's similarities if u na mean. So, I'm not a total genius, I'm just like u, I'm just wanting to write lol. It's not to do harm... It's not really for anything other than the "being" from a human... 

I don't have as much bullshit to say as I did... It's less BS for sure, more context, more fortunate, more awareness, more experience more diving into things for the chance of something great... If I don't do that I will never know. So it's experimental yes. I can get really excited about all these things I wana do but to actually do them, follow through... It takes a major devotion to UR idea and choosing and sacrificing your immediate a for a bigger bang u gona get as much as u put in. Put in your heart & brain and u got yourself a definite :) 

I'd like you to also try it. 

Or wherever u may be in life to be accepting to that place your in BC it's the results of your fortunes and misfortunes from the past that led you there. It's a blessing in disguise always... It's just humans that create these other things that are true sadness.. Not God. 

Don't blame the Universe!

The universe is just an equation of your together outcome geared by thoughts. So thoughts matter...  Energy keeps flowing and maybe changing... Don't believe that BC u did say something when u were angry that was negative and bad energy intended for a moment that it can't evolve when it's bounced around by positive... It's majority wins... A positive world w no problems isn't real... It's about solutions becoming tasks to accomplish. It's just trying your best to be a light in this world. It's even the little things! It's peace. It's laughs. It's creation, meaning, future capability for everything we do now will affect later... But accepting yourself if u do make a mistake... Mistakes aren't bad, they are the perfect lesson u needed to go through for a bigger plan. We should be less self centered but I never thought I was self centered at all... I have my ways to back up my nonsense since I'm not even sure where I'm going w it, it's kinda pure, it's the most realist thing I can offer of my existence... Many times not saying anything when so much else goes on. What are we supposed to do about the wars? Why can't they just get OVER IT? Why can't some body step it up and cross the border or break the wall and start hugging every person on the other side just out of straight sorrow and love for it's the only way to just make a new start... If they came together they could just stop seeing the line that divides them... They could become neighbors and show the world they can beat this never ending battle wo any combat. Somebody start the LOVE WAR! The sharing, caring, gifting, loving way of LETS JUST MOVE ON CUZ ITS THE WHOLE WORLD WATCHING a situation that is like brother sister fights when UR LIL LOL. Why? We have the power to stop doing all that we do just an easy shift of consciousness. Xoxox

Once upon a time... NEW RELEASE! rr.ink

the crazies are on the loose... NOT EVEN FUNNY.

So this is an important day. It marks the day of my new beginning... I am letting go of some harmful people that will become a part of my PAST now... I am taking my life into my own hands and making moves that I decide and that nobody can influence me back on. I want to apologize for anything that I have said that has made me seem like I am a hurtful person or anything like that. I am going to remove the layers of whatever it is, whatever people don't serve me for good and just walk this tight rope though invisible when your eye is on your goal and target you don't look down at your feet. your eyes are looking at what you most want and your heart flutters and your body reacts in a chemical reaction of LOVE for what you really really really do want and then all this stuff in the immediate vicinity disappears and u realize it was all a bunch of distractions from what you really do want and feel u deserve. Well, I am going to do that. Of course Ive tried to do this is a way but it was like my vision was impaired and I could only see what was right in front of me. I am here now and I am making this declaration. An honest and determined one. I just want to be alone. I don't want a boyfriend, I don't need any more bouncing around and people who TAKE TAKE TAKE! I am like lost from my route and then I am thankful bc its brought me to this other place where I am changing what I thought I was aiming towards! Its incredible. Its like being a model doesn't last forever WELL, we all get to change careers cuz nothing lasts forever and even if it does you might feel like what your doing isn't what makes you feel fulfilled. I am getting BOMBARDED w texts as we speak so I gotta go... Anyway, I am fine.