The Hierophant -Tarot-

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What Ive recently realized…

Its the defining moment, the time to decide… what ever we decide will need to be clear and concise, remembered, spelled into the great conciousness mind and echoed into realization. It is there, all there but our choosing will make it whirl it into power w our desire, the feelings we have of having it mixing in with our intention… like a record repeating in a whirl wind it Will! And so now is the ticking time to say it, know your power, be so sure! Be 100000% sure after all your off kiltering, swaying side to side getting familiar w the diff forms of feeling off balanced. Feeling so sad after being so happy,,, remmeber the bigg balance… the pendulum swing, the Universal Laws, and the Covenant agreement you made before this life of treasuring this vessel body you were given. The way you use your body, the ways in which you love your body, the thoughts you have sent your body, the way you dress it, the way you hold your posture… and how much you have improved!!! Realizing that this body is the way for a better world! The covenant you hold, the secret contract, the U that U are and the inner child you have inside, the relationship with yourself and with all sentient beings! All the birds can feel your energy! All the trees and butterflies and if you look at the air itself its filled with all sorts of energy and pollen and life and spirits! Look! Dont worry about looking cool, worry about how devinely connected we are so much so that we are in a delicate play of energy w every single movemnt we make! Affecting and rippling out into all sorts of other! But really to take notice! Awe Awareness! Like opening the blinds on your whole soul and seeing all the signs and when you see one, you see another one and another one… just ask! Show them that u can See and they will show you more. Ask to see messages of LOVE AND KINDNESS and WHATS BEST FOR THE GOOD OF ALL and the “voices” may not need to be quieted but gifts of whispers that you can just decode and decide if u will let guide u. Love surrounds you! We are asked to stop and notice! The animals help, for me the birds really do. Did I tell you how an Indian Man told me to feed the birds and that they will protect me… where is that man and what was his name? He even gave me one of those Goddess names and back then I didnt pay enough attention… I wrote it down somewhere… but idk if I will ever know. So that is an example to paying better attention bc if u do u will live so WELL-THEE! You will see the abundance! You will dance in fact! Moving will become a dance, dealing w ppl and your whole entire Life a dancing prayer! Rotating and Meditating. So even I cant live only as a dancing writer but it will be part of what I do. I enjoy expressing whatever is needed for the moment. Its all a process of transmuting and transforming and channeling. If i am in a better place I will write better things, if I am agry, sad, etc I may channel dark or heavy energies… yes! This must be seen! I am not a robot! I am an emotional expressive being and these are my brush strokes! They are worrds and they have human kindness and meaning, both. My tattoo on my back is of 3 dandelions to make 3 wishes… its to remind me that I believe we can always make 3 wishes! Everyday! Every moment! A way to check in on what u want! Knowing that firmly is a great advantage and puts gas in your vehicle! Your heart like an engine! Your mind the steering, your gut perhaps practically the wheels w food and water fuel and the air oh the air…. Thats what we cant live without most! Water is life! Notice your mood change when you eat and stay hello hydrate! That is the difference between a Ferrari and a Jeep for example… shushness … idk im just kinda joking here… u know, i do that. Not following a yellow brick road making my own unmarked path from having digested others yellow brick roads and here I go making mine… but what do I want? I dont have a boyfriend, or a husband right now… i dont have any babies, i have a dog, shes like a cat and she is really easy, my Mom just got a puppy and he is BIG BIG LOVERRRR BIG! ❤️ I want to Fly! I want to see amaxing things and meet amazing people and Yes I would like to fond (freudian slip) find someone yes I am Fond of and can Bond with and who is intelligent, successful wnd has a sense of humor please. Someone I have an attraction towards and we just have a great chemistry and make a smooth team. Yess!!!! So Im working on organizing my deepest deseires and I hope we can all do this, of course we get to come back to the drawing board but just to inspire the new Earth… find your intention and be the best you can be! You will see that you can! You are a star! So shine your light! I really do love you. Xoxoxoxo 

THIS IS ME.

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A Fallen Drunk…

II think I want to be a dancing writer and all at the same time. Rich Right Spirit, native, world traveler, the curious kind, free, Joking, A network room for growth, the reach above, i love you so much, 10-A-plus! Flying white dove highlight. Starting bright beginnings, swaying visions like vice. (I do that) devide why? Multiply. Stop what cement wells when dry. A greener grass across this path. We stayed in the lodge wake up and prepare to die! Colors are lieying lazy melted together murky waters loitering together…. Entering a fire dance, a range of blues. The wisest why? Blessed yes, knowing otherwise. Looping language repelling regions of thought. Lost for words we dial in numbered secured. Cured. Suddenly, sun burned. Staring at the start we imagined the entire route. Inspired we live out more ways than the one we go about. Flights of feelings, wired w words, wind down in spiralling stairs elevating my perfect soul somehwere. I guess I can kick it, take the cerebral way into my heart. Following God sparks, inspiring my internal spark for more parks wolf clubs dont need Grooming or fruitful tree routes. Re-route! Almost F-Out! Lol or stay and help me to bring in a new lasting Happiness when lost, we have easily been able & found. Finally facing my enemy and even a seeping peace of sound. Owe. It hurts. My little peace I hold. Please can we talk? Who are you? One of my own. Free to fink, free to find, that only an open mind, is the one worth my skills, skull a prize- on. Awarding #888 for all! Breathe the union wise and slow, lightning speed available. 000 un twisted faith festered. See w 3s ups and downwards 🌀 spirals of 8’s in exponents. Bathe in mathematical bubble baths. 

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Alchemize...

 This journaling exercise helped me realize some things and I wanted to re-write it here. 

I was asked to recall an incident that got me mad and that morning just before then I was quite frustrated by an incident I had to wait over an hour to be seen and was going to be late to my next appmt. I had to put my foot down and stand up for myself bc this was not right for me and I said I would have to come back. Well, I was given ultimatums and fear mongering and still left bc I knew I was doing the best for me not to mess up my next meeting. I was somehow able to get the meeting on zoom and go back to wait for the appt. I chose this incident bc it just happened to do the exercise. I am leaving some details out bc it is private and unnecessary to share. 

When thinking back at this once it was in the past I was first proud to have dealt with it by standing up to myself and my boundaries and my sense of self respect. I made a huge effort to be on time for my zoom meeting and I did the best I could given the time was overlapping. I was originally there at 9:22am and my zoom call was at 11am! I thought I had plenty of time so next Monday I have to be there earlier, Id say 9am. 

I felt good that I was able to go back to my house and having done all that could eat lunch at home w my Costco purchases from the day before. I felt confident, strong and grateful. I knew those fear tactics were wrong.  I was happy to be free, past that difficulty, that I was 100% sober and clean and doing everything to my best capacity. What more could I or anybody else want from me?!

Then I thought deeper into it and realized that the reason why I was 100% sober then was bc I had to be for Probation That was a BIG awareness,,, I might have not been if it wasn't being demanded of me. and then from there it turned into gratitude. I was grateful for my situation and the gift of making me a more aware and clean sober person for my dog, my parents, my community, my zoom meeting, for my path to a better version of me. I realized that was a huge thing to be grateful for. So from being "bothered" I alchemized it and realized how Grateful I am for all of what is happening right now and dunked it in sweet LOVE. 

Find an Agreement.

The only way to win the game is to win ppl over! How? With kindness! You dont force ppl to agree with you, you have to care enough about them to be curious to learn and grow and find a way that is not only beneficial to u but to them as well! Its called an agreement and its like a lost art these days since some person of power says the word and ppl just have to follow it, this is more like a trade deal, a negotiation! Its like wanting to be popular and keeping your followers engaged… you win w them following and liking and commenting on your pics… how do they do that? W your engaging w them… making sure they are getting something out of the relationship, being concerned about their end of the deal not only what YOU GET. This is a huge piece of why things work and why they dont. This is the secret sauce to success! Their goal should be of interest to u! Things are non sensical and worthless wo growth! Keep ppl happy! Its a mixture of what they want to hear and what keeps things interesting… can we do this wo a catch? Can we help each other find our own ways and accept the differences? This is freedom! Letting ppl be w a structure of manners in place. Life is to be ENJOYED! Its better we make JOY than anything else! We all can love each other if we can see each other for who we are, less competition and more family. A restaurant w one table that everyone sits together at, have conversations w your fellow community instead of so seperated and detached isolated yet longing for connection we are. When u meet a friend of a friend you feel u can accept them even if they are not ideally your type of person. All these beings are here for us to get to know and learn something from. Hearing from your same bubble isnt going to bring in any new points. PROGRESS Congress. We are all just lovely human beings trying to survive, programmed to act and think the way we do. Forgive us for we are here to wake up and realize that we can choose a better way and find a peaceful way where we can all live in abundance. We can have more this way. We can be wo fear. We can feel supported in the unity. This is powerful. Everything is sacred and everything is family here on Earth. Whoever doesnt see it is blinded by trauma, by pain, is lacking love, is manipulated by money, will need some time and needs Love to Heal. Forgive. Hold each other. Say nice things to each other. Help each other. W this new mentality we wouldnt need this system, its up to us to stop being too busy to help each other out and hear one another out. With Love all the rest is over. Be well, love all! Live in Joy, Enjoy! I see Bliss ahead! 

Into Positive Self Talk... Switch ON the Neuropathways

 I just want to express how proud I am of all the people who are doing well, living life happily. I am doing the same but it's time to look out into the horizon and move into a new level! My grandmothers are here and I am so happy to hear that bc I need their love. This year I need to give myself some special attention, I will exercise more self kindness! I need a good nights rest tonight before I leave to the Moon Dance, I may do a beach stop on the way up. I haven't been wanting to eat, Ive been juicing a lot. 

Tamara, You have been doing incredible things, you give everything that you do your determination and focus and don't cheat yourself bc you spend your time reading, planning, doing, such impressive choices, I am very proud of you for who you are and how much you give to others and try to help others. You deserve love, forgiveness, amazing friendships that accept you and are excited to be around u. You deserve  your dreams of a peaceful healing sanctuary, a life of adventure, exercise, community, fun, and creativity. ppl will follow you and your bliss. Let's begin by writing about your wins, meditating daily wo forgetting. This time you have for yourself is everything you can ask for! I am here to gently help guide you back to a path where U can be your best you yet. You are adored by many and so necessary here on the quest. You are more powerful than you even realize and yet you are humble and kind to all types of people and strangers you meet with ease. keep doing the best you can. Love yourself more, as present as u can. Please get serious about this year and program and all that life offers you, the opportunities will come and you must take them with a beautiful attitude and a ready/responsive/responsible vibe. You are truly the best, I enjoy having the chance to try to help you reach your next potential. Don't worry but do rest and say your prayers n be in nature. I love you the mostest. 

Let's work on Relationships and Conversations this year. Punctuality, precision, business talk, Shopify, No harsh criticisms, Its like you're our VIP client, we attend to u, maximum service, You are the most imp Project now. Your NEEDS are #1Your emotions must be felt with so you can be at peace. You are so appreciated, loved, safe, you have felt uneasy dissatisfied and sad bc it was leading up to this, learning how to give it to yourself. You just got a special 1-1 coaching where nobody was there to accolade you (you are enough!) There will be daily progress and so much love and laughter and sweetness in your new life. You will have time to read your new books, have your team at Bizcraft and Coachery cheering you on and sharing the magic.