My phone is about to die

I’ve learned … what???

Ive let everyone GO!

Its not a question…

I did

I love u. ALL. I just had to….

Idid…

My phone is about todie…

Im ok tho…

Surprising

Headphones on Bonobo

Good to be rising with a smile on. Years of time went by and Im doing me well thanks for asking. Its amazing how much is out there for self help and healing. Its a lot of similarities, rarities, reframed a new way. Im the same boat w wanting to share my findings w all that. I do have a pretty unique story though and all my set backs have taken the form of devine amswers, gifts for me to really realize me and learn from. I do need to apologize for things, I wasnt myself and Im a work in progress. Im really happy to be taking this journey tho, i have to say. My gratitude is immense it cant be easily expressed w words, it shows on my face now, my true nature is back within me. I forgive everybody. Im not done w this whole work im doing. I have been so rude to be so self consumed w my bullshit. It was what it was, im glad I got through that. It needed to be fully healed to attract better things to my life and its still doing its thing. The thing is, i want to help ppl and those that need it, if they are attracted to me I want to let them be able to get some attention from me. The thing is they are not there for that, they think they might have a chance. Im not available like that easily, its like a chastity belt. I do always kinda say the same thing here, my lil life dilemmas. Life is great, im doing all the things demanded of me. I am so in awe w everything. The palm tree in front of me swaying its perfect V stripes, my name means palm tree Tamar, and love in action passionately does come out. I pray for all of us, esp those that I love come to mind but I need it actually, Its near the end of all that but thats why its so imp I am meditating and praying and not missing anything. Ive grown up a lot this year, tight schedule, being accountable, i consider myself reliable, i did what I had to didnt let my mistakes well, I take that back, remembering some things that I could have done better on. Slow down thats all. With lots to do its hard to do that. 

Good Morning Green Wood Snake for 2025

 Welcome to your most magical life!

Im a wood rat by the way, this year is the year of the wood snake and they said green for some reason. The Lunar calendar is based off the moon so pulling the tides of water, our blood, our emotions. I did some research and Im going to write some free writing I wrote from it... you can look at how it affects you by your animal in the Chinese zodiac and the break down of how this affects and intermingle. Obviously a snake eats the rat but for some reason I didn't hear anything on that through my findings. So feeling good about that. Plus the snake has to eat but there are many rats in the sea to pick from and they eat lots of other critters as well. I heard about events entertwining and that reminds me of the woven TAMBONITA bags,,, coiled in a spiral the snake is the ribbon through the chain links. 

Main thing here is to shed our skin and let go of the old ways that don't serve us and moving into a new way that the world needs. Shedding the past to rise. The snake is not a representation of evil like the Bible wanted to exemplify. It is the opposite, it represents Kundalini energy and ppl who are connected to the Earth. St Partick got rid of the snakes in Ireland and that meant the Druids, the people who hold the true power, they ground in the Earth, get the suns powerful rays and this is their real true power and fuel. Connected to their sexual and sensual both physical and creative power. The sun can power all the Earth, don't let them convince you otherwise. That is purely for the capitalist system we belong to today and need to move away from.

Snakes are so adaptable, this is about connecting w your feminine energy, we all have that. Slithering The Earth as it does, so close to the ground, able to hear the vibrations and frequency from the grounds, this animal is so sensitive to know what is happening around, so silent too, not making a sound but a hiSsss, and tongue in the air like a radar for information about who is there. Can we learn how to be in tune and survive from our Earthly home which provides. We are disconnected from her. 

When will we move? Play in the sun, Touch ground and climb the trees. Letting Source Energy Rise from Through Us! Taking Snake brakes, laying and resting, balancing and twisting our spine strong and agile. 

The story that snake tempted Eve to an Apple from a tree, when cut in half an apple shows a pentagram, for the 5 elements, trees are wisdom, a round of Applause! 

Sir-repent, Sir-vive, Live Life Healthier better than the Lie, the mystery, she's asking "Do you miss me?'

No fake snake news for Gods sake, Dialed in Kundalini, calling in all to partake in the energy healing!To begin again out of the knot we are in, vertebrae verdaderamente, verde, Ver de Ana mantra nueva, sin manos, gusanos, Mujeres sexuales flexibles, in spine all Devine, feeling the ways intuitively,Tales at the end new stories assured so spent. Enough is not that Rough, as supplies last, blessed, flexible, able to move throughout Sir Peculiar System. Try a tantric Liberations the turn on! 

Wood you regrow, One bite Bit coin, twisted cities w snake shaped piping systems, here the stems, roots channel ways, the organic gain, we take space from snake as a race. 

Direct line to source w breath through spine, our inherent sense of freedom. healing so profound, Dream on! Now we finally Realize the lies. 

The Infinite Spiral.

Love always,

The clever Rat

222 and 123

Im one of those ppl that cares about the number and looks up the meaning and those coincidences and things speak to me. Its a thing. Its 2:22am and found out my friend is in jail and i knew it! I had a feeling… and hes got 3 kids! A 7 month old too! Gosh. All my friends have like 3 kids! So weird. Pretty cool, ppl have such interesting lives all working so fucking hard for the man to be taxed so that they can be complete jerks to us and speak to us in degrading ways and make our lives a challenge when I think we r supposed to be having a hell of a lot more fun than we currently are. This shit sucks. All this control when they clearly have to solve the problems w the homeless epidemic of zombies on drugs. Pennsylvania WOW. Dtla WOW. Detroit WOW. San fran WOW. Get going guys! U have some major shit to figure out ppl have completely given up on themselves. All they wana do is get high on a drug that paralyzes them i mean that is seriously SAD. What is going on here? Yet u wana come after all kinds of petty other mistakes ppl make? Let some of these go! Where is the compassion? Where is the love? There is little hope. I am shocked at the system. Make it a better sytem, do us that favor, make it flow, make it work, make it work for us not just u and some. Get real about realizing u are one of us. You are not better than us. Help us! Help humanity! Be kind. If we will make mistakes dont think u are perfect. We are seeing the imbalance of power u will see it too maybe soon maybe now maybe in the near future. Care about ppl shackled in front of u. Care sincerely about each and every one of them, even tho it can be hard. It can also be hard to like your own wife on some days, so let us have dignity. The cells should be power washed. Just a little warmth goes a long way. All Gods Children. He is watching and we arent the only ones sinning. Its not only one way, remmeber that. Your way could be the wrong one. Make Heart. Educate. Respect. Love your country? Then love its citizens. 

It doesnt suck!

We say “He sucks” but have you ever heard the saksophone? Have u ever been to Saks Fifth Ave? Lol 

Im just, u know, joking. 

Ok so I just went to see MOSE at ZeyZey and bought my ticket as soon as I heard like ifk a month ago like the only thing I cared to do over Art Basel events this year even. Im so extreme sometimes like I like what I like! I LOVE. Well, it was lovely… but anyway this one part I wana share… I went there wearing a beautiful blue flower w feathers… i bought this sunflower and white Goddess headpiece bc SUNFLOWER IS ONE OF MY SIGNS W GOD… i am like a sunflower. I wana go take poctures in a sunflower field so bad, i love seeing ppl who take pics like that… they are SO POSITIVE!!!! Anyway I lost my blue flower which I didnt wana lose it but if u think about the story its amazing… do u get it? 

Its like goodbye to the blues, the blue days, sadness… being blue… and evolved into wearing the sunflower goddess headpiece and its about THAT its exactly how I feel now in my life. Doing all this work on improving myself and been on the journey of cleansing my soul and going towards the light… i love myself finally like really and truly… i love spending time w myself, what I think, what I do, the way I do things (like balls to the wall lol sometimes) im pretty chill lol but I mean everyday pushing myself like monumental efforts of keeping up w the things OMG I am so … really GOOD like I practically am wearing a Halo idk if u guys can see it on me but I know its there LOL 

I love my Halo, I love my heart, God doesnt care what u Do, he cares about your heart that its loving!!!! So open your heart. Make sure u follow pretty things and watch spiritual or good things like its going to be YOUR VIBE! Do the homework!!!! So Thats what Im doing… and thats all I wana say. Oh & I love you. ❤️ 

Righting

I was up late and put a lot of very needed energy into the TAMBONITA working area. Feeling like I know where everything is and that Im inspired to make some new ideas. I realize I start things and then push them to the side bc a new order comes in or something so its a bad habit of letting things sit unfinished and then I have a bunch of projects that Im working on and arent finished so it looks kinda cray cray and I gotta get better at THAT. I need more hands really and together we can make the projects take less time and get finished. Its a real thing but in biz its not good biz! I would like to have this great TEAM in place that w samples we can agree on a collection, on new trending fabrics and color combinations etc. (thats the fun part) then have great eye and helpful ppl that want to see this thrive be the type that moves and shakes it to happen. Someone that has this experience and that can see the value in these unique works of art. I got some time to myself to explore a bit more focused and on my own doing my art, making my mistakes, which is easy to do w this. Its not easy to know what will emerge til u really try it. It is what it is, its not like painting, its a specific way of order structure w its limitations and w its availibilities and it has plenty to work with bc I keep creating new silhouettes and designs like belts, bag straps, spiral notebook covers, home decor, jewelry, bikinis, dresses, keychains, tree ornaments, and whatever else… i realized I missed it when i stopped and that I do want to continue making things w the brand for some more time bc im not yet finished. I feel like its been just explored and now I have become a better expert and would get things really right from now on w it. The mistakes are not needed anymore plus any “mistake” w this can be re-woven and recycled into something else so its a blessing to have something like this to keep working in a time where sustainability is important and ppl r now more mindful and aware about those things. 

Now, I was just looking at the trend reports for f/w 2024 and even spring 2025 and its showing a lot of basic, proper, serious, grownup, non pretentious, not edge or bold or out of the box. Its very respectful. Elegant. Plain, clean, but good materials and a lot of thought going into the outfit to look subdued and professional. This is like the opposite of TAMBONITA but it makes an excellent backdrop for wearing the bag. 

So its a time to go in and do what Im doing which is internal work, moving, re-start, get organized, work on projects online and in the work space too, these custom orders are good but I need to move the stock I have. Next vending event might be Dia De Los Muertos Nov 2 and I was looking on Temu and found things I wanted to buy to see if I can sell more at that event. Its risky but I need sales that are more accessibly priced and just a price you cant turn down bc ppl that go to these events have money and they wana drop some! That is how I am too! So 10,20,30,40$ priced things are a potential sale but a $400 TAMBONITA bag is not as common. I also wana start painting other things, I want to make art that is like a dance to make it. I want to dance and make art and also use words and poetry perhaps. Idk but im a lil scared like thoughts of not sure I know what Im doing or dont want it to look too messy or amateur. I want it to be something ppl really love, simple, but works and money comes in, ppl are happy, i am happy and love making what I make… everyone is happy and it evolves. I have some ideas, nothing major. I made an art piece bc couldnt wait and its ok its not finished but im not like wow i can paint and i love my painting skills lol i actually never really did, i could see the talented ppl who I liked how they painted and I didnt feel like I was good enough. It takes practice and if I did it a lot I could do amazing things for sure. My medium is usually mixed, collage, i like scraps, i like inspo of mistakes, i love a lot of things but realize it doenst all look good together on the same painting lol well, yea, i want the final result to be a vibe that I like. I want the movemnt of the eye to keep u engaged and for it to talk to ppl, id like it to heal, i want to be very intentional but at the same time let what happens lead the game of patience and the mystery of what it evolves to become. Open to the subtleties. The master of color. But i dont want to be over bearing. I want to be inspiring, feminine, graceful and maybe jolt, soft but strong, know when to stop and say its finished (not an easy thing to know) I would like to take things that arent usual to use and incorporate them into my paintings. Like feathers for instance. They are so light weight and spiritual, remind me of angels and birds, and dandelions blowing in the wind! Ballerina ribbon brush strokes, landscapes maybe, interiors, scissors cutting patterns, sun dying, sling shotting, sewing, idk. I would like to take u to a place of texture and wonder and illumination and embellishment, remind us of beauty. 

My Vision Video...

https://animoto.com/play/U0k9SLAzKcKDVfrb3fh5xg

I feel like I can keep working more on this. I forgot to mention I want to see more SUNRISEs and SUNSETS and I want more ppl to be able to see them too. For Society to be healthy we need more places that offer this. More architecture that allows everyone to see the sunset and sunrise if they wanted as a basic human need be met. 
 

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