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Truly Tams

Laying in my closet, like some strange girl might do not in a bad way but def a strange way... All this clothes, it must cover up the simplicity of life.. We got ourselves here but boy do I love to wear the right outfit and no the same one practically never; that's me. It's almost like a fashion blogger except I look like shit most of the time ;) well I'm a lot like u, I'm normal. I'm lazy, I'm about comfort... I have an idea... A way to control the speed of songs on our iPhone like a DJ would... So u can make any song correspond to what mood u need, what pace ur walking.. We deserve it all at our fingertips. I also need a dispensary for the dog food and a timer drop into the dog plate for Roxy to have a scheduled life I get over songs bc I listen to the one I love a million times. I don't even know why I have a blog, who cares.
I'm never alright I guess if I keep being like this cuz this isn't who I Wana be but it's not an internal problem, it's an external frustration I think. I've wanted an advisor or a mentor but never got one, imagine. The song playing matters so much cuz now it's CutCopy and I feel like I'm ok again... It's all so superficial.. Shooting spring summer in December and acne patients taking acutane and Botox to freeze your forehead and thank you sorry excuseme it's all very time consuming so yea maybe we should look inward... But the stuff is all created by us supposedly to help us too not just to make money but to become an expert and have the option for the things u may want or need and it's all about finding out who's best, who cares and and not ripping one another off by selling antibiotics to cure a disease but by giving the proper advice and maybe it's about knowledge but then it's also FREE TO BE THE HAPPY YOU.. Like the beach and hiking and eating raw and then your glowing so u get hired anywhere u want cuz it's all in your head. Your head is a compass I've always said. Your head is a compass not a thermometer cuz it's not about what temperature u like its about where ur headed so u sacrifice the now for what is best to get u then there but pls eat a cupcake (my god or nobody will like u) it's a "zag" they say Tony _______ and he also recommends colonics LOL. I can't say it. I'm still in my closet. Went to Yoga yest. TAMBO truly <3

dont read this pls...

Tired of myself even though that sounds negative but its who I live with and she has a tendancy to follow her heart in search and so she searches and really never finds anything bc its within. not one thing goes wrong but it varies and functions like a burst of letting free and nothing shows she found happiness bc that only fades and shes back to the hunt. I dont want to be negative, i dont want to annoy you, i dont want to sound repetitive or maybe I do cuz I am trying to find a way to live in harmony like all the rest. I appreciate and have manners and some how I show others the other Tammy that isnt even me but she is the interesting one for me to figure out. the battle of who to be is basically to just be who u are effortlessly and thats exactly what i do but it gets me in trouble when I later regret since their are endless possiblities of how to live your life, but even tho id feel proud to be a morning jogger I guess I need to live in the right area and blame it on a pal to go with. its like a great thought without sharing it. I just like to write and i havent in a while,,, it really hasnt helped me much other than proof of the train of thoughts i have, though they mean well, too honest and full of fear perhaps, they are senseless bc they are lost in the evaporation those clouds got thirsty or doing their job.

Making life happen is full of chores, i realize that... i dont know, I see my family and they are so good to me, I love them all so much but what must they truly think? I hate to upset them with who Ive became... so many in fact cuz i act so righteous and bitchy sometimes I drive myself mad too. the good days, so many of them and then when mistakes come its a drawback and i feel so overwhelmed, so strong yet so weak. I see what could be better and it does have to start with me, im way too wild to respect and dont ask me how its not done. I meet ppl and not sure who they are, all so private and difficult to really see. Yoga would be good soon, staying busy... Oops this is me.

Star

It's never ending, be better n better, improving, I want the dream. Dnt settle be like metal. A jewel in the sky is not alone, amoungst other diamonds she shines, your not the only star.

Be Happy...

LittleRed

Fashion girl...

I dont knwo how to put a .GIF on my blog :( Its another tech issue I need a solution for. Anyway I have a story for u... Once upon a time their was a girl, she was very very pretty, she had light brown hair and light eyes. Her name was Maria. Maria became an independant woman, she worked very hard in school and got good grades and always did her own thing. She felt a little different from the other girls. She came from an island where other girls lived that were all very similar, they were all very pretty and very lonely in a way. Something about this island was cursed for their own GOOD. All those lonely times at home allowed them to grow, they spent time lonely at home where they were safe instead of going out with friends and getting into trouble. Thier lonely days consisted of them getting creative in their homes doing things like reading, playing board games w their families and watching lots of movies. Her life was thought to be sad until one day she moved to NYC... She studied so hard that she was offered an internship one summer with a fashion magazine! This was any girls dream! This meant shoes and clothes and colors and parties and more shoes! Maria being a pretty little shy lonely girl stood very loyal next to anything they told her to do. She was like a little toy soldier, her emerald eyes glistened to the sounds of anything fashion. She had a passion inside her that needed to be awakened. It was her against the world in NYC and she had a serious passion to make it unlike the other party girls. The city was filled with energy, abundance, all ages, inspiration, furry! The yellow Taxis zipped by while leaving splashes, the subway trains under the sidewalk trembled the ground beneath, pigeons in the parks ate crumbs thrown by an old lady, the elite bought designer shoes from a high end retail store while Maria watched from the window in the rain. The city was full of opportunity but not everybody had the same opportunities... Til one day, Marias boss at the fashion magazine was fired... The staff told Maria not to come to work the following day and instead had a meeting amoungst themselves to discuss who would be filling this next very important position. The options were very unlikely since nobody knew exactly what was demanded of the job, nobody other than MARIA that is... This dream job for any girl became Marias job and she filled this position of selecting shoes and accessories for the pages in the magazines bc she was filled with knowledge from all the books she read and movies she watched etc while being a very boring girl back home on her island. This was all the reason why her luck got turned around, so many nights, even days she spend lonely suffering! Nobody thought it would happen to her but it did. Eventually she met her prince charming and stayed in the big city working in fashion but what nobody really knows is that her life staying oh so boring, it was the only constant thing that kept her from losing that job. So, while all the fun girls dreamed of having such a career, Maria kept her secret oh so dear bc she never knew what it was like to have real fun anyway, yet fashion and shoes can tame a girl any day. ;)