Moving scenery

A lovely gathering of thoughts in a junk yard w too much past.. So it falls like falling in a sea, ur skin untouched un scratched it shows ur new, ur so untouched, it's not even funny. 

One Direction?

How come I feel like I could say anything to this thing that I'm saying anything to... I wouldn't talk to u like this! Ur right when u said to speak nice to say it anything to say it in a pretty way if u have something to say... I just went and spoke to anyone like anyhow and in anyway... Maybe they were there supposed to be having a party and they weren't... They weren't so u went to do what they needed. Lovely. Goodbye. One direction. Lol.

Seaweed

If we were all one then I'm not impressed by much anymore just feel it from within of course but if we are and have all been one then I have already been all them things that are interesting to me.. Just met ONE DIRECTION... They were NOT REALLY one direction... At all... They were spacey... To be they were there to have the answers to the questions that they were trained to answer... So I thought they were just a bunch of blokes from London really... Instead of being into their look alone I thought they were wackier than they even were... I thought they were human... Why would a human act so human towards what was not a human apparently? No fucking clue... Everything I have done or anything is or was probably tainted... Especially now that I say it could have been but look also I'm HERE TO TAINT THINGS IN A WAY... But u know that in a good way... This is writing where again? We do love one another tho we do ya, Ya like I don't like this really like this cuz I want to talk to the world wo a script kinda ugh I can't even believe the things I would say if I was in the future and could make sure it's OKOKK to say ... I keep seeing errors and making sure that their isn't an error in what I am saying now... Makes me feel like who cares to know? Who cares... I gota practice my story, but I also gota practice how to keep my story to myself...:)

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5bUwPdt_ebU what do u guys think? I think id be ready to depart into the next level after contributing such :) honored to have ever even heard this song.

Lavender Lullabye

So supposedly I have to be honest w myself... I wish I knew the question I needed to answer.... I would seriously try to answer it head on and honestly! Im not even scared... I think I can do anything I put my mind to... if u think so too then the next step is taking the next step toward whatever that is. I guess I have never felt I wanted to find that still point inside me... I like the run through thoughts and when I dont like thoughts I have been raining myself to think of what I wnt but I still gota find the still momemnt inside more often and get lost in that a bit, it deserves to be explored :) I am gona be honest about how I feel about myself... so I procrastinate, I do it pretty much everyday about something... what I want gets shoved over to the next day and then a week goes by and its still wanted. Im super independant, love to be alone and then love people also very much but when im alone i dont have to do anything but what i want, how i want it when i want.,,, and ppl always let me down... i hope i dont let ppl down I just wana be aware of what I do wrong more than what others do wrong to me. I have to focus on improving. resolve issues :) not playing the mind games. like feel it and see and let it go... notice the energy when its around u or inside of u that ur feeling... if u stay there w bad thoughts for a while u can feel the enrgy it starts cooking inside u lol and it affcts u, affecting others as well. the waves of energy are like all we are and a whole world of invisible treasures exist there. So when u feel good, grateful, happy, u feel that energy and notice the difference between the opposite the unhappy bad feelings and allow urself to realize u have control over this as soon as u can see it and change it eliminating the thoughts that dont serve u any longer... releasing them from the cage of ur insides... and free of it! its never ending and I can get ticked off over the littlest thing but I laugh at myself soon after... but sometimes mistakes are HUGE and cant be released that easily they keep working their way back in ur head and u keep feeling that vibration and it really doesnt serve u any good,,, u become HEADY and not HEARTy... so ur there for as long as u need to be. I love u :) learn to love yourself like lavendar... lavender is a shade of purple... purple is one part red and one part blue... lets say hot and cold, instead of good and evil... and together we are this Purple color that changes shades as we project our thoughts and feelings as a combined Universe... the lavendar bc it has more light than darkness... thats what we want to look like, at least.

Light a candle in my name...

Im not a fashion blogger obviously, not on this platform anyway, I think Im just too interesting for that. Fashion and art to me are my passion but thats not all I am. I wanted to share that I went to a Psychic while I was in Miami and I was really happy this time with what I heard :) She read my Tarot cards and had some insight on the side about how next year would be a better year for me! I know we have all been waiting for this blog to turn more positive LOL. I am super positive lol I just analyze and share the difficult moments for they atre where I find interest in learning and happy times are happy so why would it be a problem? I dont have time to write about all the happy things that happen... I have way too many ;) So, the lady told me things that she knew like that I had gone to have some issue be resolved and that I never followed through with the procedure. She was totally right! I had gone to a woman when I was completely distraught and asked her to cure me and she gave me some steps to take and do where I would get some water from the ocean and some seaweed and some rose petals and blah blah blah take a bath and then bring her back the seaweed but it sad in my car door for days in a paper bag dry and then I said forget it, I just felt weird doing all this. I paid a lot of money too! So this time its been like over 5 years now and this woman had all good news but she said I have a gray shadow over me and to pay her of course $250 to remove it. Why of course! Well, of course they want $ first of all and second of course I have some gray fucking shadow over me but I am doing now better than ever! Maybe I am used to the grayness LOL. gave me her card, i never went back. Then TODAY I literally get stopped by a lady who says she can feel such a strong energy from me, she was in a silver mercedes w a man and she literally asked if she could talk to me and asked if I had ever been to a Psychic which now looking back I wish I asked her what she felt from my energy FIRST instead of tell her that the other lady saw a grayness! Bc that was like biting the hook for yes your grayness... bla bla bla lol I honestly laugh at these things but I kinda like them lol... I like spiritual stuff and all that bla bla bla w crystals and bla bla bla... im bla bla bla, we are all living in the bla bla bla LOL. so anyway, the lady pulls out huge crystals from her trunk that I noticed werent very CLEAR and clean so I got a bad first feeling about her... dont show me ur dirty crystals woman! She also showed me a Chakra candel with all the colors it was really big but she said for me it would be a bigger one and not one but three! past, future and present, OK. What I first noticed is that when she first looked at me putting a grocery cart back in its place she was looking at my shoes and they look like designer but they are actually from Target! Im aslo wearing a pretty blinged out crystal necklace! CHA-CHINGG $$$$ dollar sign eyes another words! lmao. the guy in the front seat was fat, very fat, she had terrible skin, and I really think this one might be fulla shit and she said her price to remove this would be $375 and I told her that the lady in Miami said $250 and that she COULD do it by phone! Now I wana get this done by a professional and none of these ladies. The lady then also said that if I dont do it in the next 3 days that my Chakra will CLOSE!!!! ummm why didnt anybody come to me in the past 10 years??? This is not the right timing and I thought I was doing great lol??? I do know I have a gray thing on me,,, my heart in my chest feels tight and squeezed at times... she said Im not loving like I can and that I dont even know what it is to be happy yet, um Im not. but Im not sad anymore so I felt like I could carry on... turns out she told me this is coming from a MAN... my eyes got big. The other lady said I have somebody near me who is very jelous and a woman... obviously these ppl could all be a bunch of balony phonies and probably are but now I want to go to somebody GOOD and have this process done for real... so tomorrow is my last day of finals... I need to be focusing on that but just wanted to get this BS off my chest ;) >GRAY GET OFF ME.< light a candle for me. love, Tammy

Creative Short Story... "Finding Rainbows" by TAMBO