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Sunday, December 22, 2024

It doesnt suck!

We say “He sucks” but have you ever heard the saksophone? Have u ever been to Saks Fifth Ave? Lol 
Im just, u know, joking. 
Ok so I just went to see MOSE at ZeyZey and bought my ticket as soon as I heard like ifk a month ago like the only thing I cared to do over Art Basel events this year even. Im so extreme sometimes like I like what I like! I LOVE. Well, it was lovely… but anyway this one part I wana share… I went there wearing a beautiful blue flower w feathers… i bought this sunflower and white Goddess headpiece bc SUNFLOWER IS ONE OF MY SIGNS W GOD… i am like a sunflower. I wana go take poctures in a sunflower field so bad, i love seeing ppl who take pics like that… they are SO POSITIVE!!!! Anyway I lost my blue flower which I didnt wana lose it but if u think about the story its amazing… do u get it? 
Its like goodbye to the blues, the blue days, sadness… being blue… and evolved into wearing the sunflower goddess headpiece and its about THAT its exactly how I feel now in my life. Doing all this work on improving myself and been on the journey of cleansing my soul and going towards the light… i love myself finally like really and truly… i love spending time w myself, what I think, what I do, the way I do things (like balls to the wall lol sometimes) im pretty chill lol but I mean everyday pushing myself like monumental efforts of keeping up w the things OMG I am so … really GOOD like I practically am wearing a Halo idk if u guys can see it on me but I know its there LOL 
I love my Halo, I love my heart, God doesnt care what u Do, he cares about your heart that its loving!!!! So open your heart. Make sure u follow pretty things and watch spiritual or good things like its going to be YOUR VIBE! Do the homework!!!! So Thats what Im doing… and thats all I wana say. Oh & I love you. ❤️ 

Friday, September 27, 2024

Righting

I was up late and put a lot of very needed energy into the TAMBONITA working area. Feeling like I know where everything is and that Im inspired to make some new ideas. I realize I start things and then push them to the side bc a new order comes in or something so its a bad habit of letting things sit unfinished and then I have a bunch of projects that Im working on and arent finished so it looks kinda cray cray and I gotta get better at THAT. I need more hands really and together we can make the projects take less time and get finished. Its a real thing but in biz its not good biz! I would like to have this great TEAM in place that w samples we can agree on a collection, on new trending fabrics and color combinations etc. (thats the fun part) then have great eye and helpful ppl that want to see this thrive be the type that moves and shakes it to happen. Someone that has this experience and that can see the value in these unique works of art. I got some time to myself to explore a bit more focused and on my own doing my art, making my mistakes, which is easy to do w this. Its not easy to know what will emerge til u really try it. It is what it is, its not like painting, its a specific way of order structure w its limitations and w its availibilities and it has plenty to work with bc I keep creating new silhouettes and designs like belts, bag straps, spiral notebook covers, home decor, jewelry, bikinis, dresses, keychains, tree ornaments, and whatever else… i realized I missed it when i stopped and that I do want to continue making things w the brand for some more time bc im not yet finished. I feel like its been just explored and now I have become a better expert and would get things really right from now on w it. The mistakes are not needed anymore plus any “mistake” w this can be re-woven and recycled into something else so its a blessing to have something like this to keep working in a time where sustainability is important and ppl r now more mindful and aware about those things. 
Now, I was just looking at the trend reports for f/w 2024 and even spring 2025 and its showing a lot of basic, proper, serious, grownup, non pretentious, not edge or bold or out of the box. Its very respectful. Elegant. Plain, clean, but good materials and a lot of thought going into the outfit to look subdued and professional. This is like the opposite of TAMBONITA but it makes an excellent backdrop for wearing the bag. 
So its a time to go in and do what Im doing which is internal work, moving, re-start, get organized, work on projects online and in the work space too, these custom orders are good but I need to move the stock I have. Next vending event might be Dia De Los Muertos Nov 2 and I was looking on Temu and found things I wanted to buy to see if I can sell more at that event. Its risky but I need sales that are more accessibly priced and just a price you cant turn down bc ppl that go to these events have money and they wana drop some! That is how I am too! So 10,20,30,40$ priced things are a potential sale but a $400 TAMBONITA bag is not as common. I also wana start painting other things, I want to make art that is like a dance to make it. I want to dance and make art and also use words and poetry perhaps. Idk but im a lil scared like thoughts of not sure I know what Im doing or dont want it to look too messy or amateur. I want it to be something ppl really love, simple, but works and money comes in, ppl are happy, i am happy and love making what I make… everyone is happy and it evolves. I have some ideas, nothing major. I made an art piece bc couldnt wait and its ok its not finished but im not like wow i can paint and i love my painting skills lol i actually never really did, i could see the talented ppl who I liked how they painted and I didnt feel like I was good enough. It takes practice and if I did it a lot I could do amazing things for sure. My medium is usually mixed, collage, i like scraps, i like inspo of mistakes, i love a lot of things but realize it doenst all look good together on the same painting lol well, yea, i want the final result to be a vibe that I like. I want the movemnt of the eye to keep u engaged and for it to talk to ppl, id like it to heal, i want to be very intentional but at the same time let what happens lead the game of patience and the mystery of what it evolves to become. Open to the subtleties. The master of color. But i dont want to be over bearing. I want to be inspiring, feminine, graceful and maybe jolt, soft but strong, know when to stop and say its finished (not an easy thing to know) I would like to take things that arent usual to use and incorporate them into my paintings. Like feathers for instance. They are so light weight and spiritual, remind me of angels and birds, and dandelions blowing in the wind! Ballerina ribbon brush strokes, landscapes maybe, interiors, scissors cutting patterns, sun dying, sling shotting, sewing, idk. I would like to take u to a place of texture and wonder and illumination and embellishment, remind us of beauty. 

Friday, September 20, 2024

My Vision Video...




I feel like I can keep working more on this. I forgot to mention I want to see more SUNRISEs and SUNSETS and I want more ppl to be able to see them too. For Society to be healthy we need more places that offer this. More architecture that allows everyone to see the sunset and sunrise if they wanted as a basic human need be met. 
 


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Saturday, September 14, 2024

Can I make a suggestion?

 ...Or Can I make an observation? 

This is the way to ask before giving out some advice. When advice isn't welcomed it isn't your place to give it. It isn't usually your advise that will be welcomed or wanted but better if you can guide someone to come up w the answer on their own... so they feel good about themselves and also bc it might not be your ego of thinking you know what is right for them who really knows anyway. We have to get this right... ppl do need each other but to be listeners and not for your opinion so much but ask more questions and listen and learn and really listen tho and let them talk more... keep asking them to tell you more... and then maybe they can hear themselves their own answer. THAT is really valuable "guidance" it doesn't need to have your advise bc its their journey but we need to be there to help assist and facilitate these growths and changes... growing can be painful and we ca feel lost when we don't have a clear answer. 

Make sense?

Not giving my advice is the hardest thing for me to do LOL. It is my love! but if I ask for their permission its like a glide in w a suspense for them to desire a new idea,,, its up to them...maybe... its not for me to dictate and say they MUST, even if they must its their choice, either they will or they won't, they won't die over a wrong choice,,, instead, it just takes us to more experience. its tied in with WILLINGNESS

UNWILLINGNESS can look like procrastination or unmotivatedness

"In any moment of decision the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing u can do is nothing" But What's The Next Best Thing!? RIGHT? Diff for each of us. We need to learn to feel, when we know how we FEEL we can find out what we NEED

Uncertainty is good, we grow!

Why am I here? -To Listen. (hear)

The more we stress ppl the more we entrench them in their addiction.

In our true nature we are Enlightened - totally open, peaceful, joyful, compassionate & omniscient.

Roll the Paradise

The Human Realm is filled w struggle & uncertainty. Humans are highly emotional. There is no telling whether, in a fit of passion, we might make some big mistake & regress. 

Have compassion for confusion.

Oh hey sis! = oasis... say hi

Genuine Compassion makes no distinction between self and other.

Anger and Hatred are the materials from which HELL is made.

Words of healing & reconciliation 

Delight don't Despair

One Step, one moment at a time to lessen the mountain of sorrow in the world.


I haven't shared anything about the 50 days I spent in jail at Key West... Monroe County

I read Books on Buddhism and had already signed up to study Life Coaching and get a life coach and I disappeared! Imagine! I learned about Bodhichitta and at the exact moment I was eating Cheddar Jalapeño Cheetos to it was like "tamBO EAting CHEdar chEE-TOS" hahaha and I swear its so weird how things like that happen LOL

Look it up! Bodhichitta <143

I want to add more of my notes here, so I will. <3




Friday, August 30, 2024

Right-Writing

Prancer! Dasher! Energy enhancer! …. All Dancers!!! Stare while I walk up these stairs elevating through doors and roofs as they have two o’s oo oo to look through, to peek a boo, at a peacock aqua, purple, indigo blue, I see you, sea side but not inside my soul Ray a drop of gold bind us stars by shines of 3 sistars sea stars our nighttime doves so bright, sit tight, lined up calendar like in formation in accumulation pattern separation, they stick out from the rest. For this is how a captains never lost looking through his telescope Pirate like 3.14 miles to land. Peeking, Dunking in ocean blues salty water like tears like a soup, made by who? Peppered by plankton glowing down your digestive tract track that result in your unrefused choices down the pipe. Oh Darn it Boy this calls forth the energy of gaslighting our very selves like change to our working machine washing u clean its a stream of conciousness paralled course paraguas-umbrella water of life sending circles throughout. In order of perfect design, sometimes I sigh and say what better signs to tell us. Be the you and I be the me its all happening wo trying, we can fall in trust w us, letting go of our story, one step at a time, footnotes, parent the thesis, or spiral in vortex. Choose your choices it is test ting intestines, detoxing what must die, just good guessing gestation governed by divine order, how it goes, we kill our elves we arent always Think King about transforming negative poison-us, by pausing the tention and setting an intention. 

Kindness generator, never ending tank of generosity unlikely to find in many other human beings unconciously thriving, walls created, bound-diaries ass tanks running on loworried and full of empty fear headed towards a The End they avoid w all their might. Barely operating Sir vive! Is your duty while alive. My God I heard to do that Gov says die trying. So we go crazy on one another trying to prove our different points, things like what I want to do and what you think I should do but we forget what does God want us to do. So we go crazy on one another arguing creating Grand Canyons from small oil rigs, The Drama we are a dick ted craving the theatrical call to the backstage … “We are going on LIVE!” Live and Death for who cant hear listen up, behold, on mute, off the hook nobody. Slow to God. Ten Fe! Feather… fe at her… gusanito adentro, yo digo Pio Pio Tuyo Tuyo espejito volteadito a ti porque se que dar es mas ganaza para todos que quedarme con todo sin ser generosa compartiendolo con todos otros generosa osita. 🧸 Ositos que damos a nuestros hijos, y lecciones de enseñanza insuficientemente explicatos porque no hay una forma en concreta y quieres que lo descrubren ellos mismos. La dualidad de malo y bueno ponendo encima injusto  justicio. Aver si aprendemos de los caminos de otros no tiene que ser todo aprendido de nuestro propio camino. Por eso necesitamos hablarnos. Discutir de casos de nuestras proprias expirencias. 

Osita ono? Es que ositos Necesitan amos y abrazos hay que darlos y darlas gracias y a uno a otros. Diosita Osita Orisha. Nadar en el Buen y en el Mar con ositos amorosos, todo sera con Fe, compartiendo sin miedo, mas miel, Rey-dio… we will leave the awful and head for hopeful, beautiful, a do able, agreeable Dream come be seen! 

Owl always love you, who? Who? Whoever you are its forever we are here together, if i listen I hear the channel, I surf di “oh”, rad. Promise you will call me to ask me in person so I can put my purse on. All right, bright, set, hike! Uphill will, down for the challenge! Not here on edge, it feels like im in the middle, feels round to me. North East Eye Feast, south west simply opposing place. With a mind of its own, My heart is concious of you, I believe it to be true. Battery powered to last a lifetime measured by choices, back choi, & from now on Choi (not made in china). Not even Shy-na! Be courageous, speak and share to learn from each one of a kind you mans. Bound by lifes unique spectacle! Get together hear through the heart, now wake to meet greet and get deep. Time to care parenting like Moms for our family, siblings, excusing, advising, demonstrating love allowing the other to choose their path. Sharing wo expecting ppl to need to take the path you think is right allow everyone to take their way fairly! Healthy choices heralded! Hoorayed! Honored! 

Writing our wrongs, the ups and downs to better understand what works for our selves. In motion of learning by Gives and Takes no such thing as mistakes really mostly free will being used in choices. Give ppl control unless they allow otherwise. That is principle, a law of the word freedom, free will, allowing to choose, comes w suffereing consequences, so does a marriage ring, and a telephone ring… all have a result, and all results can be more pleasant. The gravity is here to hold us on Earth, we dont need manufactured suffering on top of living life we need to pay a system to make things easier for us instead. To tell us the truth. To know what is right from wrong if they expect it from us. Warnings are given, we dont need more wars. We dont meed the wrong type of profit. The way to destruction is necessary for creation but we should evacuate places properly all lives matter. We dont need a poll to vote for the richest side to win, we know we want a working system that basically demands the same of us that u expect we want from you. We want the same things, we want to Enjoy our lives. We want to raise our kids and work 3 days a week, we want to explore this planet and contribute a couple days to volunteer. We wana be fulfilled. We are very happy humans who want to reach our full porentials and we want to have the option to live fully in TRUTH AND ABUNDANCE. 










Tuesday, June 18, 2024

Genie Rose...

 I am working towards creating and writing my 7year Vision next. Superwise Manifestation, Deprogramming to Re-program. I declare to be my best version of ME bc I AM POSSIBLE, confide in me. It's all a decision to my own self to be true. Everyday doing more tasks to get me closer to my goals consistently moving on my path towards a better, more evolved me that I am proud of. I am generous and that is a beautiful trait to have, generous with my time, my guidance, my healing, my light, my art. I am in a good place in my soul and in my core while everything outside of me is just challenges that make themselves out to be bigger than they actually are and as the Fires grow in California and the Wars and devastation continue ppl still don't know how to offer love and support to me in a rehabilitation program. Sad how ppl are treated in our own communities instead of building up they tear you down so that they can take credit for who you end up becoming. No, this is not bc of them, this is bc of what I choose to read and do outside of what I am told that I have peace and love inside my soul. I am doing my own homework with my thoughts, meditations, spiritual readings, and many more secrets that I have to offer people who want to come closer and find out, just ask. I want to help and be of service and you already know that. I am 40 now so I think Ive reached a place where I finally feel comfortable stepping into my power and offering myself and my expertise as a healer and hear you out, I want be HERE for you. We can go for a walk together, we can do energy work, Reiki once I learn more about U. I have questions about your story after and during as I listen. I offer advice only when you ask for it, that is bc it's better you find your own answers and we can discuss the options, perhaps you're missing seeing something that I can point out for you. I am here to HEAR you and I do a lot of it with my HEART not just my ears. I can see signals in mannerisms and in where vibes will tense vs soften. I feel breathing changes, and face expressions or simply in your thought processing towards individual desires, fluctuations. Do we have an allowing with our words and thought like moving of our wand or are we casting a web on our own selves w down play, not being able to take compliments and not allowing ourselves to dream big enough and play in the dream like its alive and in occurrence! It's just a Fun Dance after all and then we Die but at least we did it! So DO it! DREAM it with me and won't you take this dance called GIVE A DANCE, a water jug you hold in your belly. Shaking it with LIFE like the rivers, waterfalls and streams do, oxygenating, but inside YOU. Do it anyway you wish but do it as a prayer dance for the world, for life, for more flowing, and flowers, to do your part to the trickle you will pour of your water, the cycle, Scientific Terrific Sacred, no words, frequency contained in natures language, ARTS. With this wise Vision we see we must care of our movement, of our thoughts that it all goes back to you what you do. It's a Karma, do no harm ma. even with a hammer we can hit it better, we can sway as we walk, we can be cautious, mindful of our claps and our slams and our zooms and all the put downs. Each gentle step a gift to the Earth, filled w emotion, we might feel so good enough to fly! Light as a heather, glide, like a graceful spinning slide. the wind helping you where you need it, working with the things, the moonlight your perfect flashlight. Anything better than the Television. Tell us your Vision! it's everything organic and perfect size. Why would I life to you? That's exactly wise. To Notice the other person is even there is first level respect for each other. Nobody better than another, they are just more asleep or more awake that is the trouble, potential yet no intuition, didn't pay... attention that is it lol. Pray for them, they the sinners. May we all know how to create human heat like fire, through dance, through love, with our bodies, how do you think we survived the Ice Age? not only from the actual element of fire but by movement, the healthiest way to spend our time on Earth, the best investment of ourselves for our mood, for longevity, for the rest of humanity, bc alongside nature is where we belong not in a gym but with our skin in the sun and exploring the unknown trying things you have never done before expanding with new textures, sounds, sights, people, combinations you will download. Follow the good feelings of bliss from your curiosity, like this you are safe in the world and adored. With an openness you will, in childlike awe, just see all that you can be grateful for. be a breathing living aligned version of you and watch it all unfold for you. Participate you are a part of the master plan et Tammy show. ehem, Im not Tery Im Miss Tammy<3 

Friday, June 14, 2024

My Future in the Crystal Ball…

am a Ball of Love! So full of life! Transmuting all that comes our way with dismay into utter delight. Thankful for all the choices I’ve made to get myself united and to this place of Power. From purifying my soul and digging deep to turn darkness into divine abundance and gift of my light. I am so proud of the person you present yourself as to all the people you meet and greet, inspiring everyone you come into contact with. Thankful for being an Earth angle and protecting the good and sacred. My vision, sharp and panoramic like an Eagles view, I’ve kept my integrity and like a Goddess phoenix have exemplified strength and sophistication through adversity from a keen awareness and Birds Eye view. My heroine has steered us to Freedom, Joy and Peace through healing and by simply being. I see my family united and happy, children running through flowers and fruit trees one with nature. I see how organized and clean you like to keep everything. I feel the sunshine as we walk through this farm that everyone can enjoy. I feel everyone around me is healthy which helps me feel even more healthy myself. I see the overflowing of your love for everyone surrounding you and the interconnectedness of it all, including the animals. I see how graceful you are, you’re strong and you do it all in like a dance. Stopping for curiosity! Free to feel at peace! I am proud to be me, I AM. I am so excited for the seasons that change and the new ripe foods and spices it brings. Such respect for Mother Earth was lacking years before. It is amazing to see you working so diligently on your relationships, the giving and receiving never depleting, I feel your motivation! I hear so much laughter, the birds at play, beautiful music, instruments like harps, drums and tambourines with crackling of fire at night. I hear the angels and ancestors singing their medicine songs all around, drowning out the sadness with truth and wisdom. I taste the most magnificent healthy foods from the blessed ground we walk on, exposed, not under cement. I taste the elements in the winds breezing by, swooping through my nostrils and hitting my pineal glad with information of survival. I taste the melting snow, at an exact degree wind change, I feel it all and it is all love that I feel. I sit with my partner, soon to be husband, he caresses my face and puts the curl in my hair behind my ear and whispers something that makes me giggle. I feel so connected to be able to braid my daughters hair with ribbons and flowers too. That I get to read my sacred books of knowledge every night to fill my soul expanding my wisdom. That my life has become about spreading these wonderful secrets…a chain reaction of bliss. I am honored to empower my human family towards a better world towards a higher dimension. I love this beautiful planet Earth and our World Wide Web that has allowed us to take back our power from those with greed and we have turned it into a paradise for us all, every single one. 1111 Don’t stop making wishes Tamara Aida Diaz McVeigh A marvelous woman. Amar, to love, and we love you too.