Tuesday, July 29, 2014

In the eye of the storm...

For years I have blogged w no content. Literally, just exemplifying myself and those around me as these misconstrutions (not a word) Just feeling empty and feeling to escape and then lead astray and to a place where I was then angry and everyone or life itself not being better to me. Like, knowing I DID a bunch of good work for a long time and then when Im at this Big tipping point or even before that I was just gona rather throw myself on purpose to fall and roll down the cliff but you know what? I always knew I was gona be ok. Sometimes I put myself in places that are totally in every which way unbelievable... for a girl like me. I am brave. I am showing my own foot as I point my toe and watch it drag across the line or that when u cross, its really alright... Maybe TOM FORD said it best... its just kinda like plain and simple "bad manners to dress ... bla bla bla whatever it was... YES its completely rude in society to have roots growing out and chipped nail polish etc and then THAT was what was interesting, was it not? like Punks spitting or somebody kicking a trash down or graffitti, or whatever else its a lot of RUDEass shit going on. Pants dropped, just MUSIC is a JOKE!!!! get it? cuz I dont care if you do or not bc I already know it is what it is... I am a member of this society. This thing that we all throw into and it echoes out back at us lets say... its the FOCUS that we got lost in... you hear what you wana hear, you go where u wanan go, u like what YOU like, you can be who ever u wana beeee.... YOU are part of this whole thing w me and everyone who we are driving along side w on the roads and crossing paths w on the streets, the bathrooms are all being used by as all, the food coming from the same or similar farms, and the small circle has a bigger circle around it and a bigger circle around it and so forth. Im not better than you. Im not as good as I wana be yet either... Im actually in nowhere land compared to what I expect of myself and others... yes including u. So, its life! we share a rhythm, we all piss and drink water and are effected by bigger things than us like the shared knowledge. I am gona try to relax like its my obligation... im gona enjoy what I have said and good or bad just let it go as YES proof we are all idiots LOLOLOL jk omg... and Im gone hate going to sleep right now bc i dont feel like it. I was trying to HELP ppl all night ... thats what I really do when Im feeling good and my true self. I just want to be in that place to do what I do... I have a lot to do before then and life is going by too fast for me I must be having a good time ;) I want u to Help me out here lol

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Shift of Consciousness...

I'm becoming more gentle and more closer to focusing on what makes me happy. It's so imp to do what u feel will make u more whole or better by not only instant gratification. There are versions of yourself and UR life's desicions impact that! Take any equation... it's just results like how u care for a plant... How u care for u has it's similarities if u na mean. So, I'm not a total genius, I'm just like u, I'm just wanting to write lol. It's not to do harm... It's not really for anything other than the "being" from a human... 
I don't have as much bullshit to say as I did... It's less BS for sure, more context, more fortunate, more awareness, more experience more diving into things for the chance of something great... If I don't do that I will never know. So it's experimental yes. I can get really excited about all these things I wana do but to actually do them, follow through... It takes a major devotion to UR idea and choosing and sacrificing your immediate a for a bigger bang u gona get as much as u put in. Put in your heart & brain and u got yourself a definite :) 
I'd like you to also try it. 
Or wherever u may be in life to be accepting to that place your in BC it's the results of your fortunes and misfortunes from the past that led you there. It's a blessing in disguise always... It's just humans that create these other things that are true sadness.. Not God. 
Don't blame the Universe!
The universe is just an equation of your together outcome geared by thoughts. So thoughts matter...  Energy keeps flowing and maybe changing... Don't believe that BC u did say something when u were angry that was negative and bad energy intended for a moment that it can't evolve when it's bounced around by positive... It's majority wins... A positive world w no problems isn't real... It's about solutions becoming tasks to accomplish. It's just trying your best to be a light in this world. It's even the little things! It's peace. It's laughs. It's creation, meaning, future capability for everything we do now will affect later... But accepting yourself if u do make a mistake... Mistakes aren't bad, they are the perfect lesson u needed to go through for a bigger plan. We should be less self centered but I never thought I was self centered at all... I have my ways to back up my nonsense since I'm not even sure where I'm going w it, it's kinda pure, it's the most realist thing I can offer of my existence... Many times not saying anything when so much else goes on. What are we supposed to do about the wars? Why can't they just get OVER IT? Why can't some body step it up and cross the border or break the wall and start hugging every person on the other side just out of straight sorrow and love for it's the only way to just make a new start... If they came together they could just stop seeing the line that divides them... They could become neighbors and show the world they can beat this never ending battle wo any combat. Somebody start the LOVE WAR! The sharing, caring, gifting, loving way of LETS JUST MOVE ON CUZ ITS THE WHOLE WORLD WATCHING a situation that is like brother sister fights when UR LIL LOL. Why? We have the power to stop doing all that we do just an easy shift of consciousness. Xoxox