Sunday, January 30, 2011

squirrel talk...

laying on the floor on the staircase on my front door step, my boyfriend pinned me down with 3 tomatoes in his hand from the garden as we french kissed under the stars on the coral rock steps... navy blue and gold door, two columns beside us... the cars zoomed by... eye to eye...

"i love u forever..."
"forever. "

(more kisses)

"what are you thinking about right now?" he said
"about a little squirrel" i said


"you look like a squirrel when u smile" he said

"i know that smile" i said

I heard something make the bushes shake... thats why i thought of a squirrel :)

p.s. never seen a squirrel in my neighborhood its more like stray cats and racoons maybe a possom.

another day in the life,

i just smile at the thought of the space im eating up as i type ... i love to be reminded of the cross street in Japan where we all crosssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
(cross ur fingers, u perv)

om so over it.





and a halff aaaaaaaa.... and on and on and onnnnnnnnn

aerial circus maximus... ppl r not as flexible as life allows... they keep themselves ina box... for whatever reason... an i ask the same shit... that same shit ur askin... ur such a victim//// i like playing the victim too at times... i also think a respirator is funny... and shots r shots,,,, they shoot me up w so e shit that i will never say never and black swan UR MOM! myyyyyyyyyyyyyy mom is a ROSE. get over it.

get over

doves flying to ur left, my right....

ur not a black swan bc they just dont exist... they simply dpnt exist.

i was mad but now im not... a lot of things will melt and disintegrate and become inviisible..... r U sure?






i run thru royal radical exemptions. they say, "hey do u by any chance have a sharpened utencil???

these worries i have are the following...

1) where did the love go?

2) who do u think u are??

3) are u sure?

4) agency shmagency!!! lol

5) 600$?? fuck yea! duh

6) <3<3<3 angels <3<3<3

u r so worth it... cant wait.

uuu hav no idea...

listenin to FISCHERSPOONER gain... its been a while... "a kick in the teeth"

it may be the best thing.

familiar pain...

a comfort

from ......

lookin for a thrill..... something to ease my will... uuu.... u may not realize.... when its time

i, i, am looking for a pill... something to ease my will..

uu,,, uuuuu

but it may be the best thing....

slip thru...

dont u worry... i said HEY! baby i got ur money dnt u worry say HEY!

im tired but im

so many songs i love all of a sudden... this one has no name which sucks but that why i need SHAZAM at my fingertips... why do i need an iphone??? maybe just a watch or bracelet or headband that does that....

should i go to sleep??

i dont think i should but ur not alive right now since ur not writting ur crazy thoughts...

SEND ME AN ANGEL..... ooooowwoooohhhhhhhhh (thats the song) ((ur so jelous)) (((go find it i DARE U)))

u just youtubed didnt u....



SEND ME AN ANGEL>>>>>> ooooowwwwhhhhhhhhhhhhowowhiwhowowhoiwhoiwhiwh

right now, right now.

sorry if im not entertainment for u enuf...

hang up already.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

bring us together

i hope ur sitting comfortably... i mean, just for ur own sake, i hope u feel at ease with urself, i admire that in all of us. it would be nice wouldnt it? i dont have to take a hit of smething to feel good but i like to take something... i am a giver not a taker but i love to share... i love to learn most of all, more than anything i would rather share. i also like to go back in time! i like to think of that future we all relate to at this point. if we would all be closer and put our thoughts into one big pot of luck where we could pull out answers out of nowhere that would all bring us more n more together. id love to see ur face while i smile to make the world a better place... anyways, caught myself being silly again... that smile is still available... ur so sweet and when u smile u r sensitive and u shine! (others lurk in the dark lol) (stop laughing) sooo pickup ur chopstix or pin up that gorgeous hair, or write down that wonderful ideam or show ur underwear! nobody is judjing u yet everyone does care,,, ur the tingly thing thats invisible for now... u live within us all as i speak of the sensation that brings us towards faith and we believe in u,in us and thats what makes me happy to hang up, or wave goodbye but look above! at all that we shared, all the letters that r symbols for our feelings expressed...n say thank you dear history.... we can now cook raviolis w pesto & pineapple and cheese and spices and things from gardens grown from across the world... so maybe we are all closer than we thought ................. may we bless our food................ amen


Have a colorful historic day!

On my way to the Renaissance festival on Key Biscayne... I am dressed like one myself... flowers in my hair, long skirt etc... ;)
it means "rebirth" which is really cool ;) So lets take on this self-awareness and go back in time for the day to allow for an even better future!

P.S. I wanted to have pink hair again but been busy with things so last night i bought a pink hair spray... and guess what i found some old PURPLE Manic Panic! HELLO! PURPLE sounds good too! hahaha I was looking through the new pages of Vogue the other day and they have a new editorial w a girl with really cool BLUE hair! so now i want all those colors! AAAHHHH!!!!! why not?

Speaking of color... a new magazine came out... I think its called COLOR.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

That VOODOO u do!

My mysterious BFF!!!...

picture found on VICE Magazine!

Being, creating...

"The human spirit is like the dandelion growing in the garden. Chopped off at the ground, it will spring back up from a single hair root. The trick is to discover our hair root, to cherish it, that blessed succulent amputated little root that's searching for the sun. That's me, that.s you, that's us!" Gerry Spence, Attorney.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Listen and Learn...

At least we all have a soul... and our souls all pretty much come from the same place or are in a way connected. We desire the basic human things out of life, we want love, happiness, a fulfilling life, courage, health... etc... so we can all agree on something. I like to think of it as everybody holding hands. Everybody smiling together when they have the same thing in their mind... a unity... a wonderful invisible tie yet loose and u can go as far away from me as u wana go but we are still in tune somehow. Also energy. energies are what i said... and then some and when we learn how to use them better and their power and how we can make things easier and better and more positive and shine LIGHT around us instead of hate, chaos and darkness... we find a way of eliminationg the struggle.

So we can wake up like a "cactus"
or more like a feather with a

we can hear the laughter and feel the sunshine
or we can hear the construction site crashes and shiver

we can see colorful flowers and see a rainbow
or we can feel the soggy mud in our shoes and smell the b.o.

i can enjoy untagling the tangled christmas lights
or i can panic and grow a new pimple

i can loose reception on my phone
or i can call when i am in a better mood to talk

i can open a drawer full of new stationary to write a love letter
or i can open a drawer full of sticky makeup with powders and glitters exploded!

i can enjoy something bad and know that something good can come of it later
or i can sulk like a distressed dandress and rip my dress in my fuss...

i can count to 10 and breath a second and imagine angels and white light
or i can say fuck 20 times in 10 seconds and expect that to work for me

i might party all night and sleep all day
or i could sleep a good rest and go for a long bike ride and clean air in my lungs

i might enjoy popping the bubbles
or i might watch them pop on their own while catching a glimps of my irridescent refection and even wink to myself in it.

i could watch a birth
or i could look away

i could help a friend
or i could say nothing

i may say bye to someone who hasnt made me feel like i am worthy
or i could get off on being abused by them and convince myself that i deserve it

i could wake up next to a boy and kiss him gently and softly all over
or i could watch him and caress him and smell him
or i could tickle him
or i could throw water on his face
or i could wrap my mouth around his nose and blow air in it...
or i could smack him
or i could sneak away
or i could make him breakfast
or i could take a picture of him and post it on facebook
or i could put something in his ear
or i could sit and try to draw him
or i could jump out the window!

there are lots of things to choose from...

not one is right and not one is wrong...

i would love to know what u would do...

but i think its best to do something new eachtime if u could...

well, at least thats what i like.

no no never mind... just keep doing what your doing because i think its perfect, thanks.


Roarring around...

Went on a lovely bike ride on Sunday with some friends! Brett the fox and Nicky the kitty-cat which are a couple and my punky Panda and I are now too... we all met up and bike rode together... this wasnt your typical bike ride in the everglades! it was at a place by all the airboat rides called SHARK VALLEY and their were tonz of alligators! they were right there on our paths! you would not believe it ;) i have pics to prove it! It was 12 miles to a light house out in the middle of nowhere surrounded by a swamp! Alligators, birds of all sorts and who knows what else was in there!
While some gators were eating a bird nearly two feet away from me P and I freaked and I dropped my phone! It was really scary to almost b eaten by an alligator.
After that P and I went to eat our own dinner, at first we were gona do something cheap and quick but then P decided he wanted to do something different like a new place that we have never been before, somewhere we could get inspired from and watch kooky characters in their realm. We drove down 8th street and ran into a bouncing place called "Sonias Seafood Restaurant" (you can find her on FB too ;)) It was like a zoo! i saw iguanas, gorillas, snakes, and all kinds of other animals all drinking, dancing and eating seafood right from the canal! the place was lit up like a party and we found ourselves right at home.

Monday was Martin Luther King day which was a down pour of rain the entire day so we basically just snuggled in a cave we found that had lots of colors and prints and interesting things where we took pictures... that i will share with u...

Friday, January 14, 2011

important, persuing... my dreams, why not?

figure out the direction of the arrow, at least.

was i just cranky? im sorry... what else could i possibly say? i never turned my back on u... i just would love to float without feeling a thing... bc feelings can hurt... u know they can dig deep like an arrow would...

im not saying...

wait, r u saying?... that ur arrow wouldnt fly??? is that what it is???? oh come on!



oh come on. get off ur heavy feet... gallop! when u prance u create momentum... i promise... then ur like a child again. u know better than me. ur more than most ppl can handle, ur craaaazy energy. ur hard to miss... when ur there u satisfy us all... we cant help but feel that ...
can i just vent?> ?? thanks. im trying to figure it out too... dnt worry. i only say not to worry to the ppl i really care about.... its a motherly instinct... its untrustworthy in the large spectrum... lol.


do not do that in public by the way.



been wanting to reach u... been wanting to extend my fingers this long... to press these lil frnds once again... to remember who and where u stay and why and what is it that makes it all worth staying in that very place, is the reason for me to press more and faster on u all lol... my vision is different from urs... i guarantee that... but we speak the same language, thats for sure ;)) i will try not to forget u... i hope u wont forget me... i think ur amazing... but darling... dont let anybody tell u otherwise... cuz really... we speak the same language, sincerely...
and thats why i know u are fine.

love always, tam

p.s. my vision is different from urs.


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

way later.

wine wine wine.... wine is burgundy... yet i dont have a wining child like u... wine wine wine... wine wine wine... wine.... mmmmmm

burgundy it is... looks great next to u,,,, baby blue.....

im done with uuuuu....

see uuuuuu


Sunday, January 9, 2011

The telling...

Lots of time off from today on til next Thursday to create art, and unleash magic.
Adoring life.
Honest and open to learn.
Not ready to dance just yet... only soft movements and caresses.

Definitely dropping loads of material things behind to cleanse this air in surrounded by.

Reaching out more than grabbing to stuff inward.

Hope to see u in these days and that we can allow chemistry to do its things.. maybe sky dive lol

Everything brakes and is at some point lost but dont think about that and let it go.

Open your heart and let the light beams tickle those around.

We are huge when its more than just one... spread the word.

Let it echo...

Smiles are a great start...


spin in circles and create big shadows on murals of art!

Run, Jump, Hug, Kiss...

Bike ride over bridges and let the leaves slap you on your shoulder, maybe even forehead...

Walk the other way than the crowd...

create a current.

Thank the chrome twinkles and let juices flow absorbing the enemy, polluted.

plips, plimmpin... arange a concoctions to coincide with ... what we magnetize our bodies with and crave that special appetite we long for, never rude, quite polite... always attentive, generous ... grace is a fhythm... reflecting tentuous elevated circumstances... enchanting, neon.

self in dulgent luster... diluted in a prayer. Hocus Pokus.

hyper bubble
tremendosly and yet enormously benevolent

stimulates extravagance... never liberated while on a voyage... which reveals


peace when u can find a battle which will not be worth fighting for LOVING for is way more beneficial

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

The Invitation
By Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
And if you dare to dream of meeting
Your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
For love, for your dream,
For the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
If you have been opened by life's betrayals,
Or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain,
Mine or your own,
Without moving
To hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy,
Mine or your own,
If you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
Without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic,
or to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself,
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty
Even when it is not pretty every day,
And if you can source your life
From its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure,
Yours and mine,
And still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
Weary and bruised to the bone,
And do what needs to be done for the children.

It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
In the center of the fire with me
And not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
From the inside
When all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
With yourself,
And if you truly like the company you keep
In the empty moments.


Monday, January 3, 2011


Feeling calm and collected. Today my parents leave to Urugay to visit friends and my brother is in Brazil which means I have the house to myself and will be taking care of Camilo! Hes at my foot right now ;) so cute.
I bought a new planner for the New Year and I want to be more organized this year! Im gona get more SERIOUS...
You Can Do It TAMBO!

New Years was strange because I worked, then I stopped by the Electric Pickle ... we couldnt find a cab to go back to the beach for ever so we walked to the Pickle but then eventually we found one. I called in sick at work the following day and had a really great New Years Day walking around town, staying warm, laughing, swinging on swings at the park, writting poems by the bay, drawing on the concrete with chalk, playing hopscotch, taking pictures on the Pink Snails from ART BASEL, being on cough medicine and drinking wine had me loopy I asked if I had been drugged! it felt pretty god.

slowwwly but surely... ;)