Hold my hand...

 Its a beautiful thing to try to walk gracefully down this tight rope, to face my fears, be challenged, and make sure i do it not only right but well, & that I don't fall! So that I can make us all proud, so that the show gets a grand applause and a great Bravo! so that we gain your trust (in case there’s another show after this show). Its not only a deep knowing but a desire to turn the wheel, (can’t do it alone), from clockwise to counterclockwise and we do the directional direction, always checking if we r moving it right. (We don’t want to be a container ship clogging the Nile) - A tiny difference here is a huge difference there. Timing, speed, degree, uniform, The Alchemist comes to mind, a camel’s pace, its a different kind of recipe. The weight we let go to let us float. What you ate that day, how your feeling, the pace of your breathe, the diameter of your soul. Might make a difference. Not so much greater than and less than but the difference in what those variables are leads us to ever such slight differences of things like tiny details that I care about. because if the ray of sunshine touched your eye is one thing but that you opened your eye is another. whats it called, that part of my brain that might be listening even though i don't know if it is or not... seeping in like second degree murder... idk why i said that,,, for instance. Or those things that trick your eye to see... "fool the eye" yes like that. mix that in. so not knowing some of that gets translated along the way into your conclusions. Doesn't it make you feel more vulnerable? more able to be wrong, wouldn't u say its best to stay flexible? willing to accept that the most insane thing out of all MIGHT be real? the possibility of that with its fair chance and then respectfully swallowing the chance that you created this havoc? Ultimately the best thing u can do now is apply all that u know and be very aware that everything kind of does matter bc if u can make it better it could make a monumental difference. Each thing we use for a small moment, thats so cute and sweet but its not a thing w a disease now after. I was told that all the technology that is, is kept energetically in the bottom of the deep deep sea. So deleting things is important. I have to go and do some of that after my wild ride of exploration on a type writing spree. I believe it. I know you might not believe the same things I believe... I find it perfectly fine and hopefully reason to learn and discuss more ways that I can change. Seems like one day I may just get still again. I remember when I didnt talk, I was a shy girl and now if I go back to that, it seems like similar to when we play with the knobs on things we explore while trying to learn. The contrast of a photo or something, the zoom into a pixel, the any which way we go, the more or less and the choice to stay where we wish to place, we first might go see the more of it to know thats not what we want. its fluctuating light and temperature from setting, its own internal rhythms affected by these which allow us to enjoy more fully or be rushed and pushy. Or not? If not, thats not true. Even a girls shoes can maybe stop her from continuing but depends on the girl, depends where she is and depends who she is with! I was alone and I took a risk. Somebody else might not have. Was it worth it? I think so. Any experience adds to the experiencer. How can I make this all better? My goal is to carefully choose pretty things to say that add more value to this world, to make the energy nice, to make ppl smile, to help heal the world by expressing a beautiful vibe. Vibration is one form of measurement that has a pattern and bc of its variety over and over again it has a rhythm, a wave, a way that it chose to go. As the waves may go upwards from its horizon line, what does the opposite do? I guess steers the grooves in a new direction, the Earth spinning in one direction... what if we are supposed to make it spin the other way? the steering wheel, the merry go round, the use of your left hand, the contrast is the opposite color in the color wheel, As we find what must be done and as we dance w our paper, we explore the extremes and we can DJ it to slow it down, we can collage the choices and we can use tight tension or loosen it up, we can fluctuate the flow and there we go. When it gets a little loud or when we stomp a heel, only so very gently can we walk this tight rope. Focus or not focus, but calmly breathing, like when you organize yourself before shooting a gun. Balancing gracefully, knowing you have love and trust at your side. Desire to get it right, maybe falling isn't wrong but if we can elegantly walk on this tight rope we might make our next one blind folded. Heaven is near, have no fear, see it from my perspective, hold my hand.

Thank You.

 I can't believe Im here, that im human with these thoughts racing through me and the things im good at and the things im not good at and that im walking, breathing... that we have pets and that we sleep in beds and we piss and shit and food grows from cow shit in a garden and we eat it and shit it and we keep walking, that we wipe our asses with toilet paper and we have these weird chairs that flush water and all th e shit goes through pipes,,, wherever it goes. That we have oceans and all this trash we keep throwing away all this plastic and it also goes somewhere and its not gonna be good at some point. that we use a stick w clear fishing line and a hook w bait and can catch a fish and eat it. That the soil needs the earth worms and ants and Beatles and all the little creatures that fly, we even have ones that glow in the dark, ones that only live for a day and others that live longer than we do. That we trees speak to each other through their roots and day after day they are all growing and seasons come and go and the cycle circulates. That a little further up we can't breathe oxygen. That we created language like this now and we can now communicate. and vehicles to move us in, and entertainment to make us laugh and take our money lol. I just can't believe it. The colors. The symbols, the religions, the animals, the teeth in our mouthes we use to chew our food and also smile at one another with. The nails on our fingers grow and our hair turns gray. The temperature of our shower, the music, the flavors, the textures, the dreams we experience as we lay asleep. Im so happy I can see so much beauty!! I am just beginning to truly understand the mystical gift of this life. The birds chirping in the early morning, they lay eggs, the sleep in a nest they made in a tree, and it rains on them too. They hunt their food, the sing their bird song, each breed a different unique shape, song and color. Thank You God for Everything. Thank you to all my ancestors who got me here and all the rest of us too. I am honored to be here and experience this miracle of LIFE FORCE energy and its all LOVE. Thank You.