Religious

They said “deny yourself and pick up your cross” and I disagree. Whats worked for me is to actually pay more attention to my own intuition. To treat myself better likeTreat myself in this world! Instead of work so hard that I ignore myself. I cant believe I did that. Always for whatever had to be done before me. Before myself. I wasnt in “need” of a massage. Guess what? I so was. It changed me. Things like that changed me. I just want ppl to invest in themselves more. I was so busy, too busy to think of my own needs. It always was a catching up kinda feel. I felt smart like a surfviving rat but never prioritizing my own life, needs, desires. I have a deep hurt inside me. Its there. Bc i know something most ppl cant even imagine. I love that about my persona now. Im not you. You cant be me. You are something I wnaa know more about… I wana be your friend. I wonder, will u. I am always wondering. I want us all to be friends. That means not do wonother wrong. But mistakes are welcome. Can we just be friends like human family first. Idk if u can. I want that. Do u? Does anybody hear me? Im so lost if not. I love this whole thing but I dont, if not. I just cant even do it… if we cant have that baseline. We are human. We have done so much. We are incredible beings. I am so proud of everything u have done wow. I am one of u. I am just one person. I want u to know how special you are in my life if u are here still now… im speaking to you. I am speaking from my heart and solar plexus… I am you. Do you know how much … you are Human… you are Priceless. I am your motivational manager LOL kidding idk but im always here just for u to know that I truly love u … all. I am. God is. You are. We will… forever… and always… what? Be. I think its be. But we can do more than that. We can be here for each other. I dont wana be here if we dont. I cant understand the seperation. Segragation. Thelost. Iam here now. That should be enough. Hi hello. Yes I am reaching out. I want to say I love you, even tho I might not even know u. But I do. I trust that u will do whatever is best… not just for u… but for all of us. Thank you. I cant thank u enough.

Pry

Vacy. Meaning not vacant. Very unavail. Private. Keeping 

My dog Roxy sat on my wire that was charging my phone while I was texting. I take it as a sign because I see their faces their eyes. I see that the dogs know something that we don’t know you’re trying to tell us to get off of our phones. They want us to be more present. They’re upset that we are looking on our stupid phone so much they are sad by it. They are so sad by it that it’s actually a situation to be acknowledged. Our dogs are our best friends and we love them so much yet we are so infatuated these stupid technology dopamine machine. and they are suffering from it. They want us to know that this is not the way and yet I do admit I still love my phone and researching and looking at things because there’s so much to do on it, but our talks are present time. They are the gifts of now. They are here too give love unconditionally and they’re all we have really. there are best teachers. I am so sad that I am one of those humans who is addicted to the phone. I am addicted to the phone addicted to learning addicted to feeling good addicted to whatever is the next thing that I can do I have such a hard time stopping to just feel even though I have exercise that thank God thank you to the programs that I have signed up to be a but I am definitely not perfect. I struggle with that. It is something that I have to make extra effort intentionally to do just to just even do correctly incorrectly. It doesn’t matter as long as you do it. I believe the dogs are right I can feel that they know something we don’t know. so hard to not at the end of the day going down the rabbit hole. I so much appreciate all the things. All the signs. Leo and Roxy are here with me now and they can’t speak. They can’t say this, but I know what they’re feeling. I know that they are wanting more from us in a way as doggy parents perhaps it’s just so many things might be. Their food I want attention we give them their outdoor activities. I don’t know, but they also do appreciate us for grooming them and loving them the way we do thank you for listening.