I’m feeling weak, like I should be in a better place w decision making. My life needs more structure. I didn’t get enough sleep last night and I’m dealing w what it does to me emotionally now and admitting that I could be honest and admit to how I desire a better over all, normal life and I’m not normal and it’s gotten to me now, it’s pulling on my reality. I don’t have anybody I Wana tell this to but I have to say, I can’t continue to allow this life. I’m not living in my full potential and the vibration has brought me to these circumstances... I want more from life. I need to allow love to come into my life but at this point it’s far from happening. It’s where I need to be but instead I’m not there, nor looking for that, should make some steps to improve but fell off like i do. Need to be taking better care of myself, eating nutritious meals at the right times of the day... it’s not ok to be literally barely eating and barely sleeping... this is the result. I’m ok but I’m putting it out there bc it’s not something I want happening... I mean that and I need help! From friends, family, everyone! I’m not Gona pretend it’s easy when it’s not bc every once in a blue I fall off the deep end.
Wow.
So now my parents came and brought me all this medicine and soups... then a bunch of my friends texted me like they love me and stuff like that and I’m like shocked bc how did all these sweet things just happen? Did somebody say something? I feel like ppl might think I’m suicidal or something but I swear to God I would never do that. I am love, I am just stupid sometimes thats all... and I need your help!!!! I want to be better and I want to succeed and I want us to be happy, awesome, healthy, making things happen that we want and love. I hate feeling like a Debbie Downer! I’m going to have to make some moves... it’s this feeling that I can’t accept mediocre and be happy. I gota take better care of myself and others and apply my talents... I hope I can do what I say, follow my rituals and take control of my life. I need to find my way and I miss u guys. Thanks for everything, unreal the amount of love I just got. I’m in shock and I love u guys sooo much, u know who u are.