My middle finger

Burns’s but it’s my thumb instead. I’m worried it will be a whole blister… but idk! Ugh! I hurt it so bad! The hot water I poured it wrong all over my thumb. My sour sop … so emphasized! Hurting so SO much! Gosh it’s such a pain I have to absorb but burns don’t get absorbed they kinda feel worse. 

Way Up!

 I have to come and write. I can't sleep tonight. I really tried. I had a wonderful beach day hours in the sun and swimming and g=doing yoga and  even got a sunburn. I needed it. sometimes I want go and the day gets by me and I spend way too much time on my phone. like listening to Tarot cards like its really weird how much I do that now. I realize I do it a lot and then go back to playing music. It's like a weird addiction I have to say. Not feeling the best today. Like ppl are weird again. I have some new things happening but I guess it's been tough w Holidays, driving from FTL is annoying! Im all alone like in a car for a while and Im a lady, you know? Im not a lil 20 something like whatever.... if Im going to go somewhere it's gotta be worth it, gotta be like up to my standards. I have a lil taste and standards Honestly... So, Im a lil annoyed LOL ppl with their Bullshit, dirty ass places and crap I mean... Im just over dealing with a lot of it by now. LOL. I have this feeling in my soul like why aren't better ppl here yet who care? but so I offered myself... to help... the things needed sometimes happen to be what Im exactly good at. I think Im a writer. I don't care if you think this or that... it's important what U think of yourself and what you are ok with for U. Im definitely not ok w a lot of it LOL so I find I have a smaller group of friends but Im really ok with it. having too many "friends" at least for me was strange bc they weren't all my friends anyway so your trying to figure out who really is and I was just a very trusting person and wanted the most best for everyone... and if I was EVER snarky or whatever I was so just a hurt person w a pure soul underneath that. I am doing way better now. I am still trying to make the boo coup bucks without selling my soul like everyone else lol. I'm keeping my standards high and hoping u can just settle your lil ass in check mother fucker... I mean it. I can be cool but don't cross me hmmm Im holding it down. Im here to stir things up a bit. I don't have any problem with that. :)

I am happy to know you care. I am happy u got a chance to meet me hopefully and that I made a positive impact on your life. I am here to make real friends and be real with ppl and get creative I guess... I don't know I am deep, I have learned a lot and I value you and your opinion, believe it or not. Wana know what Im also a Dancer, a Healer, a very Intuitive Friend, Community Member, Visionary, Athlete, Independent Woman, and Writer,,, Im a Writer.... bc I like to write.... and never really thought I was that good enough to say "I'm a writer" but I am bc I am someone who feels... as an artist and I love words,,, I love learning, expressing myself and understanding this weird ass journey of life bc let me tell u... I wish I could just be soaring free somehow like a bird like Jenny wanted to do in Forest Gump... I said I felt like her... I don't want to end up like her. I want more for myself than that. I am going to be careful and I don't want to partake in everything. I have to follow my hearts call. I have to say OK you wana be like that... go ahead.... but I am like this and I will do what I feel is right for me. IS IT NOT>? Thank you for letting me say this. It is really important. I already feel SOOO much better. I need nature and that's about it. LOL I am nature! :;

The spy stuff is also kinda getting to me. Im really grateful though. I am. I have to go to India!!!!! or Japan!!!! or Istanbul!!! or soooo many placessss I can't wait to... please go wherever you want to go. I am the light.... please let me shine light on your path. I am not jelouse of you, I am happy for you, I am here to help you get to where you want to go. Be honest with yourself. I went to places and had to tell deep dark secrets and I went to 3 rehabs. Did you know that>? not my choice! 

Let me explain, First time I was taking pics of some "illegal immigrants" making pizza!!!!! I just thought I was taking a picture at a pizza place next door to a club was it called Rock Club>? I swear I can't even remember where I used to go bc I don't care. So upstate NY and when they tried to take my drink and phone away og=hhhhh it was a David Lynch movie. scary.

Then it was Jupiter Beach a place called Beach House that was for an incident in Key West... ugh what a nightmare. I can deal with a nightmare, I can. I just don't want to. I don't chose to watch those Investigator Drama mystery shows they all like. I do not like that!!!! I like spiritual stuff and creative stuff. 

Then again, outpatient for the same judge Judge Wilson, ughhh he's really extreme and cookoo doesn't get me... only understands who he himself is I guess. bc it was not the me me me he needed to see. So I moved to FTL, PS never wanted to but gave in to it bc of my father.... bc I don't care for the material world anymore... it's liberating to not be as into it as they want ... I did it,,, trust me I know. 

Some people will never understand... are there Billionaires new rich? study that. not trying to hate on anybody in a good place... but are they??? with that power... are they? since the system can be corrupted like IT IS... anything can then I guess. So it's really up to us to know better by now... not by ONE POINT but by a good amount of fuckingLIVING LIFE THE WAY that is closer to freedom ok? (I love this song) ((TEMPLE by Love Pass Filter))

Anyway, I want to say it isn't something to be proud of! I am like embarrassed that I had to do the stupid shit I had to do for a lot of shit actually. I wish not. don't. So I wanted to say I was only up for ONE NIGHT not a bunch of nights like everyone else.... I wasn't like other crazy friends who are AMAZING pppl by the way!!! I think that says a lot right there. & if not for u, it does for me and I don't care what your beliefs are. they shouldn't impact me like this. I am a very good lil soul who can finally say WOW OK YOU SUCK LOL to a lot of what she has seen. Not a problem... I have also seen So much that has molded me and shaped me and that I can feel inside of me... like that neighbor I had in London and the twins in Madrid and the project I won at Central St Martins, and so many special ppl I have met along the way. Real ppl. or that time when Im at a table dancing and Leonardo DiCaprio comes to the table... I pretended as if nothing LOL... and he was dating Gisele! its just like stuff like that... if I was a bad bitch I would but I don't have the need for that type of stuff. Or like Ralph Laurens son David picking me up at a Sony party! I mean... talk about dreamy stuff... I'm not kidding. I love stories. I love true stories lots. I don't have much time for fake ones at this moment in my life. I am here for the ride, with you my Ppls. WAKE UP!

Lost Beings of Hearing

To be

Los seres humanos

Losers no body to be thee!

To be wonderful humans its the plan aint it? Plant yourself pretty flowers…

Seed sprout above it

Be above it all

Graceful w bright pigmant 

Be, ser, se, eres, here it is.

Through whiskers in the sky or not

You are full of being you in your element 

All u need to do is do that you you do.

Tantalizing aromas pollen powderful

So many hues of yous yet each one of a kind.

Blues and Greens need your warmth 

Arousing demure. Surprising pop like spark 

Candy to the eye

Books written about u, bouquets of your relatives for centuries gave life to the dull graphite. Gaining wonder from Gaia mother organic organizings energy lightning. Loves you even if it falls on not. where art thou? The flowers? May Allows us & Maybe even all of us. Eden-tually oddly not to take after the mothers loom of blooms and give a hand to her at that. Wild Love to! See hue soon! Another place to look besides a book, the look of life, nature our neighbors, learning to love Earth and knowing her worth is pleasing Earth. A Moving Peace with her dances through time la vie devine, ohm mama mia. Telling all truth through ooze. Her fate greatfully appreciated finds a way to keep our faith like exclamation in a relaxation. Dont say more.

What to sei I spell it like that bc

I think its what I wana say. Oh what a night! I wanted to go so I went but cant deep end w light weights which is my free style selection! Great times are good and good times are easy… im looking for a good for me good time that is Great and masterful, no TAM wasted… its a pro grace… progressing w no sins whatsoever bc those are judgements, beliefs and I dont have the same ones as you do. My ones are a number that you dont need to know, neither does the government. They are clearly wireing us to show us that it may happen and the good ole days will be officially over. Freedom is dumb to count on like that. They are accountants and we are being insected on, is it not? What on Earth? We dont even all agree this is a ball anymore? Its a frisbee? Ok… so then? Why not? Free Be it so be it? Please ure Earths wings… fly the frequentcy with your vibration… adding in beware! We are being A way and make it your blest blessed boastful authentic way. I do as much as I can. I still get pressured, feel doubt/fear (rarely), simply want more from the world bc I dont see it all in a fair totality, I see what is given to live with and THAT is what Im talking about queens, not the real mellow drama. Vibe with me. Wherever u are I want u to be where u are bc you chose it, and to sit there w it til u realize a better way, and that nobody helps u just like me bc it sucks and it strengthens u, u eventually have to do u not bc anybody said so but bc ur nothing without knowing who you really are and who is your friend for real and your sence of ur own worth and more is for u to get closer to get clearer on… bc we love you and this journey we get to take with each other. Its ok to use tools to numb here but your not the same sane you. Your the other one and its not that Im trying to take that away from you… Im trying to simply be here loving my life living fully, incorporated with hobbies and my health and less war king 5-9 better CAUSE, si! No? Ha. Ok whatever I say must be done and so let it be so. Bada bing bada 💥 link ping damn pink pony Bruised… what a tale. Made it here no edit… fungi. 

Trust Harder...

 This whole way about me is not exactly how I expect life to go. I think it's hard to find someone to truly connect and be with for the long haul. I say to myself how I love ppl, I send my sincere love out to everyone involved, from my angels and ancestors to even yours. To be playful and honest is not my next version of me anymore so much. Im really more intro than extrovert I think. I rather learn something than be misunderstood by you and trying to prove anything. I don't feel the need to. Im not valued by everyone and Im yet aware of my value. Im really more ok w me than the rest of you. how would I know you really care for. me, believe in me, want the best in me? I don't know the truth. ppl are really holding back instead of being honest. Do you feel the same? do u like u? lets just start there. things need time. Im not a bird, I don't speak bird, but I try. do u even see the birds at all? I am proud of all of you for everything we have done. what r u planning for next? I think we are all family. I know we are. we're all somehow connected. I want to just show my respect for it all. how should I do that>? I have an opinion. maybe it's ok to keep being myself... be a light so I can find you. love all trust harder. 

I haven't written on here in a while Crocodile...

 I drove in a crazy rain storm. It wasn't normal. I will tell you that. I am super happy by the way, I kinda look at my phone too much, yes I don't want to but I used to be SO busy I never had time for that... so now I do... I think Im actually really lucky LOL like to be able to learn so many things... I rather read but its so hard to w the phone... Im addicted to Tarot card readings... I don't care about much else ... except Gaza. I do care about that but then U KNOW WHAT? I care about CUBA. We forgot about CUBA.... So YES Im pissed off at allllll of Yalll for disturbing the peace.... Good Luck To ALL The Cubans. Dont forget It’s the Cuban Link!

Religious

They said “deny yourself and pick up your cross” and I disagree. Whats worked for me is to actually pay more attention to my own intuition. To treat myself better likeTreat myself in this world! Instead of work so hard that I ignore myself. I cant believe I did that. Always for whatever had to be done before me. Before myself. I wasnt in “need” of a massage. Guess what? I so was. It changed me. Things like that changed me. I just want ppl to invest in themselves more. I was so busy, too busy to think of my own needs. It always was a catching up kinda feel. I felt smart like a surfviving rat but never prioritizing my own life, needs, desires. I have a deep hurt inside me. Its there. Bc i know something most ppl cant even imagine. I love that about my persona now. Im not you. You cant be me. You are something I wnaa know more about… I wana be your friend. I wonder, will u. I am always wondering. I want us all to be friends. That means not do wonother wrong. But mistakes are welcome. Can we just be friends like human family first. Idk if u can. I want that. Do u? Does anybody hear me? Im so lost if not. I love this whole thing but I dont, if not. I just cant even do it… if we cant have that baseline. We are human. We have done so much. We are incredible beings. I am so proud of everything u have done wow. I am one of u. I am just one person. I want u to know how special you are in my life if u are here still now… im speaking to you. I am speaking from my heart and solar plexus… I am you. Do you know how much … you are Human… you are Priceless. I am your motivational manager LOL kidding idk but im always here just for u to know that I truly love u … all. I am. God is. You are. We will… forever… and always… what? Be. I think its be. But we can do more than that. We can be here for each other. I dont wana be here if we dont. I cant understand the seperation. Segragation. Thelost. Iam here now. That should be enough. Hi hello. Yes I am reaching out. I want to say I love you, even tho I might not even know u. But I do. I trust that u will do whatever is best… not just for u… but for all of us. Thank you. I cant thank u enough.

Pry

Vacy. Meaning not vacant. Very unavail. Private. Keeping 

My dog Roxy sat on my wire that was charging my phone while I was texting. I take it as a sign because I see their faces their eyes. I see that the dogs know something that we don’t know you’re trying to tell us to get off of our phones. They want us to be more present. They’re upset that we are looking on our stupid phone so much they are sad by it. They are so sad by it that it’s actually a situation to be acknowledged. Our dogs are our best friends and we love them so much yet we are so infatuated these stupid technology dopamine machine. and they are suffering from it. They want us to know that this is not the way and yet I do admit I still love my phone and researching and looking at things because there’s so much to do on it, but our talks are present time. They are the gifts of now. They are here too give love unconditionally and they’re all we have really. there are best teachers. I am so sad that I am one of those humans who is addicted to the phone. I am addicted to the phone addicted to learning addicted to feeling good addicted to whatever is the next thing that I can do I have such a hard time stopping to just feel even though I have exercise that thank God thank you to the programs that I have signed up to be a but I am definitely not perfect. I struggle with that. It is something that I have to make extra effort intentionally to do just to just even do correctly incorrectly. It doesn’t matter as long as you do it. I believe the dogs are right I can feel that they know something we don’t know. so hard to not at the end of the day going down the rabbit hole. I so much appreciate all the things. All the signs. Leo and Roxy are here with me now and they can’t speak. They can’t say this, but I know what they’re feeling. I know that they are wanting more from us in a way as doggy parents perhaps it’s just so many things might be. Their food I want attention we give them their outdoor activities. I don’t know, but they also do appreciate us for grooming them and loving them the way we do thank you for listening.

Kismet

Hello Beautiful Souls. How was your day? I might get more water now and read some. Meditating has been hard to do but I danced a lot. Listening for clues to all the things Im doing. Tamara la Shamana I know that might be a lil triggering for some of ya but Im feeling the call to be involved with this side of things. Just helping how I can and the direction of how to live life with ease and plant kingdom as a helpful ally. I pray to God and all the higher powers, to help the people on this planet that we share this land with, no matter the country or religion or race, that we all deserve peace and love and food to nourish and respect and care and all their needs met. Basic needs and a life worth living  full of support from all the people of all nationalities. All better friends. Enjoying life. All, each and everyone… a happy life, a hobby, a sport with a team, traveling, learning, a free feeling supported and loved, guided by God and giving yiur own two cents in. Everyone kind like our name says, loving our neughbors, we know now how much that is going to be a better way to play your cards. Its all worth it, each a peace of Peace on Earth. Know how u affect it. I had to look at myself, my ill ways, parasitic like a clown. Its time to clean up our act and face the truth. Sfop whatever needs to be sfopped. Just let it go. Start again w one step and smile in a positive way, pause it… see the mission and world wide hopes. Youre free to feed the rest of us. Love your planet, worth! Earth pause for paz. Frequency check. Heaven inside your body first. I love u unconditionally but please do your best. Kisses… 

Intuition TAMBONATION…

Rivers of tears from my heart to all the people of this planet. Blue Oceans blooming my heart open, the explosion. Preying on you, while Im praying for u. Hope like the Pope, words out my throat. Devine growing our stories way, breathing gratitude and peace, I have to. 

I see a 3 pane fan that needs to be turned on, its Peace. It needs to be activated. We all deserve this piece of it, easier breezy light movememt freedom, we should be able to roam and travel wo any borders and permissions from people who want to control us. Picture us, finger print and stamp on us. Like the air, free, like the movement in water that activated oxygenates and makes LIFE. R u deaf? Old paradigm sucking and leaching from one of us. Or the nature itself. It belongs to all of us. Abundant ants piling together, organizing themselves, systems like solar systems in all of us, energies that energize us! Moving in motivation, money the moon and stuff. Connected to elevate us. Love us, giving, freedom, the real things, in time. 

Stay Great Full my Friends.

I think so.  

Grand Rising Free Writing... this one is inspiring.

 

Been Reading “Ayer Tuve un Sueño”

Its a lil effort to read in Spanish, lots of words I dont know but as Im reading the rest of the words that I do know let me get the gyst and yes Im understanding. Its easier than Shakespheare or old English for me actually. Im circling words I wana ask my Dad what they mean, im not stopping to look them up everytime, its a documentation of his life story and its so impressive! My Dad was born in Spain in 1941 and for that he has lived a lot of life, hes a very kind and fair man, hes an intellectual, he is a poet and he is very talented. Through his life experinces he gained great knowledge from his story and from his mentors. Even his good mentors were at times greedy and making a living was just as hard as it was for anybody. The road less traveled is the one of the artist, Id say. Im incredibly proud and amazed. By reading this book Im seeing our similarities. He didnt tell me about his life much bc he didnt like to boast, he was beyond humble to the point of putting himself down to be funny or charismatic but Ive learned that isnt a good thing to do. I was a lot like him, I learned his ways and the perfectionism is unattainable so its important we understand that and not suffer. Life has been steered by political leaders and the fight for control and its been forceful and people had to go serve in the military. Many of them didnt want to but were forced to. I like discipline, i like pushing your body, being sharp, having order, having manners. But life is supposed to be full of responsible fun, free will, nature, tons of movement! Learning to take care of ourselves, the land, self reliant, & helping others, each other. The roots of our problems need some adjusting. As we pay others to do the jobs we dont want to do we learn how we are mistaken. While u pay for someone to clean ur house then u go spend time at the gym… cleaning house is a form of gym. The time we have, this life time, we have to choose to spend it wisely, life is money! Its a living, breathing, multiplying, abundant machine for our conveniance, to use best, the blessings are here! Why are they so far away and not more immersed into our day to day? The beach is healing and for all but we have made it for the elite w not enough conviance and parking. The rules upon rules arent just for us but for them to protect us most importantly. To protect us from what? Well, like good parents teach their kids how to best survive and fuction so much the system to children w the schools letting kids think outside the box instead of memorize answers or spelling. The kids can garden and cook and clean as well as learn things.  

Traveling is imperative! Families could get more vacation time. In Europe its a month, here its two weeks. More family discounts. More functional life style, routines and time to do nothing at all for people to live in leisure, self care, create. 

Working so hard his whole life and then when he retired he was already too old to get in a kayak w me. He gave his life to the industry. We need our time w parents! 

Airing out the Vents

Inventory was always a word I had trouble remembering. Just a word I couldnt retain. Id say “whats it called again…” it was just that kind of word for me. So now I think of going in and airing things out, doing a count of what really counts. And whats the story behind everything and how it got here… making some groupings like collections so u have some similarities, and some rarities. Whats got any worth, how can we clean this stock we are holding onto and how can we move it. Get some opinions from others we value their opinion. Maybe they can help see something we arent. So its what every biz does and what we do for areas in our lives as we grow and move and go in and purge. Its a good life sweep to do but its also full of old memories and time consuming and can take so much to just face and get over with thoroughly. Sometimes we need the grace of devine timing to come into our lives and move us to. Everyone has to follow their own path and do the work their own way. God Bless You All for being here esp those who are doing it well. Well come to the next level of You, U man y T. 

Affirming the Shift…

 I am a Star!

Here to Inspire Greatness  & Guide humans to heal and find their most abundant, Happiest selves. 

Surrounded by Abundance, Love & Support

I stand strong empowered, in my truth and living my purpose with passion.

I am dedicated to my evolution, confident and open to all that is meant for me and for the greatest good of the planet. 

I am a highly intuitive, compassionate Zen Goddess who receives with ease, wonder and grace, 

Love You Too Thank You...

 All righty then... Im missing my... never mind. no for real, never mind. I am here w jagged lil nails that are catching on shit. I needed to do my nails few days now not phew I got em done lol. Im so funny, I miss myself. I love u too. I had a flop of a day... a plan that went side tracked,,, it's ok, just saying. I will recover. I need more than one hug right now lol. I need 12 according to Google and go chat w GPT what an informative riot! New Orleans, what's that? a Beaver making a Damn... and so much else. My Dad needed me today, I remember he said that I am like doing circus things. he said Yoga is like Circus. I think that's pretty funny, he doesn't know how important that is... it's his perspective. he was always avant guard but recently he is showing himself to be who he is today. I appreciate his perspective no matter what it is. He always means well, he was always right now he's always right for what he believes. I wish I was there today for him but things took a diff route. Mom you too. I Love You All. Good night. Tamtastic

Yummy

Feeling delicious in my bed all snuggly, just turned the fan off bc its actually chilly in South Florida, its so nice I LOVE this weather! February in Florida is my favorite, its actually cold but bareable. I went to a free yoga class in downtown FTL and the breeze blew the most beautiful breeze right at my face at the end of the class. She was good, Carrina, I liked her flow a lot. Ive been going to Bombay Yoga w Michelle shes really excellent but tomorrow I will be at Zen Vida hot yoga class at 8am. Its another full day! And so much more to do that I cant even get to, its always like that tho! Ah! The move is still affecting me. I have to take out everything from my closet and do a whole new review to donate/spring clean soon! Im in my new lil apt, its perfect size, the downsize served me well. im much happier w less space to clean and worry about and no roommates… just was crazy w the whole warehouse bc so much stuff, there making my art but how can I make art and sell art? No seriously, explain that to me? So I just pivoted and said Fuck It! Ive done enough of this! Im an expert at this and if its not making money like it was Im gona learn some new skills and take better care of my own damn self … AND WHA? Lol. Im so glad I did. Ughhhh! What a relief! What a weight to come off me! My whole worry to servive just suddenly dessipated I was like wait, u mean im still gona survive without working my ass off like a slave? And Boom! There I was suddenly in peace like learning new ways to live life all over again. Learning how to care for me FIRST, learning how to love myself and my things and who the hell I am. Just learning about my desires for Gods sake! What do I really want to do? How does that look like…. And then having an interest in others of course…. Thats part of my healing too! Community Service at Salvation Army and Voices for Children and pulling weeds w an elderly woman for no hours, many things for no hours!!! But I did them anyway bc I knew helping others was filling to my soul. Me asking for help and nobody serious enough showing up in Miami, so unreliable I tell ya… just so over it! I started helping others bc i knewww what it felt like to be in need of help and how it feels when someone good actually helps and I did it for friggin free… and thats not how it went when ANYBODY helped me, I compensated. But it feels good to have changed the course direction and switch it up a bit. I love myself for it. Ive really bounced back. I even bought a bird! Never thought Id get a bird but I did, shes my new pet and I love her. Her name is Paloma. When I was young like 4th/5th grade I had a friend named Paloma and we got along like w side pony tails and big Ts riding bike in Cocoplum LOL, its like I forgot about her but thats how u say dove in Spanish so the white peace dove I got is a symbol of where Im at… i originally wanted to set her free now Im just still deciding… bc I think she might need me. Shes in captivity… wings arent clipped. I let her fly around my apt the other day and maybe not a good idea lol. I was warned. I want her to fly tho! Then I learned that they grow back if u clip them. So not sure. Paloma is by the window w a great view, a mirror too, a couple perches and I added some card board bc I learned some about Pigeons online and i even leave her birds on TV for her to watch while Im gone. Still so much to learn! They are used to release at weddings and celebrations and that I thought would be cool til someone said she will not survive if I let her go. I dont want her to suffer so they might be right… i picture her getting eaten by an aligator lol, not funny but its just what I picture. Poor Paloma! Shes a Queen! Mi Palomita. Wish me luck w her! We are really happy, just the two of us. Xoxox

A Woman’s Way…

Through the 12 steps. 

Btw this is an actual person not Ai speaking and Ai is abound! So please 🙏🏼 My word, my oath… I will say and credit Ai if I were to ever use Ai. Im not opposed to it or ChatGPT but I am thinking and using my brain and thats what I like to do… even if u havent seen anythin Yet! Im here writing in hard times here bc those are the times I need to try to express myself. It is an excersise. I dont like it myself… I do what I do bc I channel and I am literally looking for my own ways to help myself… remember this started before I found AA LOL AA Ai … hahaha Tamara …. Is AAAAAA LOL not bc im a riot or a narcissist bc u insist LOL no!!!!! NO! Bc I AM TAMARA AIDA DIAZ and it has that many A’s in it… 6 yes 6 the amount that says I care… bc I do… like a pregnant woman about to have a baby does… thats me even wo the baby! (I still do want a baby i think but thats just extra… im looking for the right baby Daddy!) anyway, 

Writing this on my phone bc its been a while I havent said something decent here LOL Im doing “A Womans Way”, “The Artists Way” and Reading the NA book Living Clean, 8 steps to Happiness, next up The Prophet. 

Do Good…

This exact time of year is always stressful for me. Stressfree is what I want it to be… the pressure comes to squeeze me in and also be forgotten on the most important day I have… i never get the proper attention… but its just stressful for so many so even if I had it good Id feel it for those that dont I think, how weird is that? Why am I like that? Like, Do i do it to myself? Do I enjoy that? I dont want to. I just think its weird to enjoy inconsiderately… which I do at some point, i authentically do a real good time but for a moment like now I just wana mention how so much of it is actually not that pleasant…. Like its really about who u r with in the end not so much what you are doing. So who do I want to be with? Looking…. And doing the best we can is great… i like traveling but it can be uncomfortable at times and shit fuck, i know it very well… its not all ig postable perfect. 

Hola

Yo te quieromucho!

My phone is about to die

I’ve learned … what???

Ive let everyone GO!

Its not a question…

I did

I love u. ALL. I just had to….

Idid…

My phone is about todie…

Im ok tho…

Surprising

Headphones on Bonobo

Good to be rising with a smile on. Years of time went by and Im doing me well thanks for asking. Its amazing how much is out there for self help and healing. Its a lot of similarities, rarities, reframed a new way. Im the same boat w wanting to share my findings w all that. I do have a pretty unique story though and all my set backs have taken the form of devine amswers, gifts for me to really realize me and learn from. I do need to apologize for things, I wasnt myself and Im a work in progress. Im really happy to be taking this journey tho, i have to say. My gratitude is immense it cant be easily expressed w words, it shows on my face now, my true nature is back within me. I forgive everybody. Im not done w this whole work im doing. I have been so rude to be so self consumed w my bullshit. It was what it was, im glad I got through that. It needed to be fully healed to attract better things to my life and its still doing its thing. The thing is, i want to help ppl and those that need it, if they are attracted to me I want to let them be able to get some attention from me. The thing is they are not there for that, they think they might have a chance. Im not available like that easily, its like a chastity belt. I do always kinda say the same thing here, my lil life dilemmas. Life is great, im doing all the things demanded of me. I am so in awe w everything. The palm tree in front of me swaying its perfect V stripes, my name means palm tree Tamar, and love in action passionately does come out. I pray for all of us, esp those that I love come to mind but I need it actually, Its near the end of all that but thats why its so imp I am meditating and praying and not missing anything. Ive grown up a lot this year, tight schedule, being accountable, i consider myself reliable, i did what I had to didnt let my mistakes well, I take that back, remembering some things that I could have done better on. Slow down thats all. With lots to do its hard to do that. 

Good Morning Green Wood Snake for 2025

 Welcome to your most magical life!

Im a wood rat by the way, this year is the year of the wood snake and they said green for some reason. The Lunar calendar is based off the moon so pulling the tides of water, our blood, our emotions. I did some research and Im going to write some free writing I wrote from it... you can look at how it affects you by your animal in the Chinese zodiac and the break down of how this affects and intermingle. Obviously a snake eats the rat but for some reason I didn't hear anything on that through my findings. So feeling good about that. Plus the snake has to eat but there are many rats in the sea to pick from and they eat lots of other critters as well. I heard about events entertwining and that reminds me of the woven TAMBONITA bags,,, coiled in a spiral the snake is the ribbon through the chain links. 

Main thing here is to shed our skin and let go of the old ways that don't serve us and moving into a new way that the world needs. Shedding the past to rise. The snake is not a representation of evil like the Bible wanted to exemplify. It is the opposite, it represents Kundalini energy and ppl who are connected to the Earth. St Partick got rid of the snakes in Ireland and that meant the Druids, the people who hold the true power, they ground in the Earth, get the suns powerful rays and this is their real true power and fuel. Connected to their sexual and sensual both physical and creative power. The sun can power all the Earth, don't let them convince you otherwise. That is purely for the capitalist system we belong to today and need to move away from.

Snakes are so adaptable, this is about connecting w your feminine energy, we all have that. Slithering The Earth as it does, so close to the ground, able to hear the vibrations and frequency from the grounds, this animal is so sensitive to know what is happening around, so silent too, not making a sound but a hiSsss, and tongue in the air like a radar for information about who is there. Can we learn how to be in tune and survive from our Earthly home which provides. We are disconnected from her. 

When will we move? Play in the sun, Touch ground and climb the trees. Letting Source Energy Rise from Through Us! Taking Snake brakes, laying and resting, balancing and twisting our spine strong and agile. 

The story that snake tempted Eve to an Apple from a tree, when cut in half an apple shows a pentagram, for the 5 elements, trees are wisdom, a round of Applause! 

Sir-repent, Sir-vive, Live Life Healthier better than the Lie, the mystery, she's asking "Do you miss me?'

No fake snake news for Gods sake, Dialed in Kundalini, calling in all to partake in the energy healing!To begin again out of the knot we are in, vertebrae verdaderamente, verde, Ver de Ana mantra nueva, sin manos, gusanos, Mujeres sexuales flexibles, in spine all Devine, feeling the ways intuitively,Tales at the end new stories assured so spent. Enough is not that Rough, as supplies last, blessed, flexible, able to move throughout Sir Peculiar System. Try a tantric Liberations the turn on! 

Wood you regrow, One bite Bit coin, twisted cities w snake shaped piping systems, here the stems, roots channel ways, the organic gain, we take space from snake as a race. 

Direct line to source w breath through spine, our inherent sense of freedom. healing so profound, Dream on! Now we finally Realize the lies. 

The Infinite Spiral.

Love always,

The clever Rat