(last post was deleted Friday July 16, 2021) Ok so the last post... yesss,,,, im going to take it down... your lucky if u even saw it. I am so sorry for anybody that was hurt by this. Of course, I came from a place of hurt,,, ppl do things differently from a place of HURT. and so everyone not only is whoever they are, from what they picked up on with the voyage of their life, from the two most important ppl that TOGETHER made her/him. So again... remember who they were as a child in their naive authentic-ness... and also with the certain polution meaning not only environmentally but vibrationally from all of us, like the mix-ups, the fights, the revenge, the silence is also painful and To me, doesn't make it any better,,, sorry guys. That lil "way" also desperately needs to change. The proper response from somebody might cause Gratitude... or something and thats where we r aiming. The silence is what makes us TOUGH but its so easy to, I think, share the perspective of why your choosing to dismiss them, to "disrespect" them, how do u know how much that might mess with them? their equilibrium...
for me, im learning, I have been trying to be "on track" and things get messed up naturally... and so I think im pretty flexible, but if things that are important to me get changed... I get sorta upset at times... I've noticed. So, as part of what im learning about myself and what might set me off... (but hasn't recently btw) I've just been able to notice the feelings and NOT sit with them but... take NOTICE... addicts will find a way to get what they want and the triggers are what brings me to start me off on a wrong foot,,, wrong track. Im aware of those things from being able to see them before I am impulsively allowing them to direct me. Im being more cautious YET "Do Not Fuck With Me" is also ME :) so IDK where Im at with this but I know that I am not going to let certain things just SLIDE... I get my words out... I am not going to be fucked with and me shut up... continue. No. Is this wrong? Ive heard its not right but I think they are wrong. I don't think ppl that handle things w silence care about growth, the truly correct thing to do and I obviously have an issue with it.
Im going to delete it.
Im also going to delete the person from my LIFE entirely and getting some stuff out about them was something I did when I was upset. Now ppl might think, woe, will she do that about me? Ive been feeling it. Its not at all what I would do on the regular but I am sorta revengeful. Sometimes the best revenge might be that, sometimes not, it depends.
I have a few projects floating around, I am mostly helping others right now... and with my schedule I will have enough time to do my thing and Im also setting myself up for -staying away from too much trouble-.
But Don't Fuck W Me Bro!!!
I say and do things that are hurtful bc U HURT ME FIRST. I was Hurt. and I was saying the truth, I wasn't exaggerating it! I also didn't and don't want to mix up the story for the future. This guy is actually dangerous. He said he wants to sew me for 500k now and I never even wrote his name! and Its all true and ... Does anybody remember what happened to me? Why I even did that? But Dude, Don't Fuck W Me. Im saying those words knowing their power, knowing that I only want who can really man up to this, who can take me seriously. The guy wasn't right for me, Im so embarrassed, I KNEW for a while, but it was COVID. Im sorry guys. Im sorry to myself. Im sorry to spill my garbage (which I know got lots pf laughs too0) BUT IM NOT THAT SORRY... thats why its still up.
He called my mother to have me take it down... I could have by now... but I chose not to bc... he's not just going to call my mom and have me take this "TRUTH SERUM/ VENENO QUE CURA" about him down just like that... like tell her Mom and she will take it down... UMMMM Im a grown ass adult now and thats not gonna happen.
Also, what is most terrible and what HE considers truth is that Im supposedly old and washed up and my prime is over ... LOLOLOL... when I feel The Greatest I have!!! Imagine hearing this>>?? You think this mother fucker is going to get back in my life>? no. thats enough. turn the page. Don't Fuck w me Bro! You don't know who dis is. They hire sheeps for lots of jobs and thats what we are now MADE UP OF... but Im not in it like that and your ghetto ass is disrespectful and NOT gone get away with it. I gave you a good life, I was a person you wanted to have kids with, we were going to get married,,, DONT FUCK W ME... Your not gonna get away with this. Your bipolar and have a few things to take care of... You know what they are. Home Depot, AirBnb, Rent since Dec,,,
But there was the Open Mic night at Words over Wine... and its practically next door form my house... @ The Andersen.. and he's there to sing some thing or whatever bc my old good friend Karla w a K Corona like the Beer... or the Virus... LOL... was over and told me. I told her she should delete him already... (If we even ... she said she doesn't like to get involved LOL,,, ok ok ... uhuh.) (I don't either LOL) So, I get in there and its... Raggea... some Stir It Up song.... so im all over dancing... cuz thats what the song even says... but its just whatever,,, anyway, im at this girls vending jewelry booth and I buy a bunch of stuff... things for others,... earrings for my cousin, etc. and The girl he was singing with comes over to the booth and says... I need something bla bla bla... and I pick something out for her and we ask what the stones were about energetically and they are about throat chakra etc both of them and its blue and SHES SOLD... and this asshole goes... something about "hoe" (Freudian slip) How He will buy her whatever she wants... I was like wow LOL Right in front of me he has to be such an insensitive dick? seriously? And to summarize that... I actually reacted... and then I MADE SURE HE BOUGHT THAT SHIT FOR HER BC GUESS WHATTTT HE WAS WALKING AWAY WITHOUT HAVING DONE SO AFTER HE OFFERED AND I WANST GONA LET THAT HAPPEN LOL OH HELL NO... AND SUPPOSEDLY HE WAS PAYING HER TO SING WITH HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!! WTFFFFFFF
OMG... IM WRITING THIS SHIT I CAN LAUGH LATER I GUESS... AND TO KEEP TRACK OF ALL THE FUCKED UP SHIT I HAVE TO DEAL WITHHHHH FOR THISSSS.... IM NOT SUFFERING... IM NOT. IM ALSO NOT AVAIL YET LOL. IM ALSO ON A DIFFERENT LEVEL.
WHAT A PINGA QUE COME PINGA
BRO!
Im feeling the vibes tho... Im feeling FIRST OF ALL that he's mixed up and that I def don't want to be w that type of person LOL "type of person" LOL (could be ME!) So, now its like... ppl r making sure I won't be writing about them like that... and so ppl r mixing me up for a person that im not, well its a part of me! Don't Fuck W Me Bro! its like ...
Its like the movie AMELIE... (one of my fav movies) and she's on the roof of the building and messing with the antenna of the asshole watching his soccer game and when its a goal she fucks w the antenna... I think she's an angel honestly. The guy is a Jerk and he deserves it. Is that ok that I think that>? Just asking. Cuz thats how I feel. Nobody ready this, nobody cares, everyone is so preoccupied with themselves,,, with looking after their own family, keeping up w the Jones' and being a Jones too. What I write about here is mostly my heart and soul and things I need to get out for some reason... again, isn't it true... Don't Fuck W Me Bro. I forgive you but I won't forget. Cuz now its here! For us all to remember. Maybe you will start acting right now... since u have enough reasons to start acting right, si?
Don't Fuck With US.
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