It doesnt suck!

We say “He sucks” but have you ever heard the saksophone? Have u ever been to Saks Fifth Ave? Lol 

Im just, u know, joking. 

Ok so I just went to see MOSE at ZeyZey and bought my ticket as soon as I heard like ifk a month ago like the only thing I cared to do over Art Basel events this year even. Im so extreme sometimes like I like what I like! I LOVE. Well, it was lovely… but anyway this one part I wana share… I went there wearing a beautiful blue flower w feathers… i bought this sunflower and white Goddess headpiece bc SUNFLOWER IS ONE OF MY SIGNS W GOD… i am like a sunflower. I wana go take poctures in a sunflower field so bad, i love seeing ppl who take pics like that… they are SO POSITIVE!!!! Anyway I lost my blue flower which I didnt wana lose it but if u think about the story its amazing… do u get it? 

Its like goodbye to the blues, the blue days, sadness… being blue… and evolved into wearing the sunflower goddess headpiece and its about THAT its exactly how I feel now in my life. Doing all this work on improving myself and been on the journey of cleansing my soul and going towards the light… i love myself finally like really and truly… i love spending time w myself, what I think, what I do, the way I do things (like balls to the wall lol sometimes) im pretty chill lol but I mean everyday pushing myself like monumental efforts of keeping up w the things OMG I am so … really GOOD like I practically am wearing a Halo idk if u guys can see it on me but I know its there LOL 

I love my Halo, I love my heart, God doesnt care what u Do, he cares about your heart that its loving!!!! So open your heart. Make sure u follow pretty things and watch spiritual or good things like its going to be YOUR VIBE! Do the homework!!!! So Thats what Im doing… and thats all I wana say. Oh & I love you. ❤️ 

Righting

I was up late and put a lot of very needed energy into the TAMBONITA working area. Feeling like I know where everything is and that Im inspired to make some new ideas. I realize I start things and then push them to the side bc a new order comes in or something so its a bad habit of letting things sit unfinished and then I have a bunch of projects that Im working on and arent finished so it looks kinda cray cray and I gotta get better at THAT. I need more hands really and together we can make the projects take less time and get finished. Its a real thing but in biz its not good biz! I would like to have this great TEAM in place that w samples we can agree on a collection, on new trending fabrics and color combinations etc. (thats the fun part) then have great eye and helpful ppl that want to see this thrive be the type that moves and shakes it to happen. Someone that has this experience and that can see the value in these unique works of art. I got some time to myself to explore a bit more focused and on my own doing my art, making my mistakes, which is easy to do w this. Its not easy to know what will emerge til u really try it. It is what it is, its not like painting, its a specific way of order structure w its limitations and w its availibilities and it has plenty to work with bc I keep creating new silhouettes and designs like belts, bag straps, spiral notebook covers, home decor, jewelry, bikinis, dresses, keychains, tree ornaments, and whatever else… i realized I missed it when i stopped and that I do want to continue making things w the brand for some more time bc im not yet finished. I feel like its been just explored and now I have become a better expert and would get things really right from now on w it. The mistakes are not needed anymore plus any “mistake” w this can be re-woven and recycled into something else so its a blessing to have something like this to keep working in a time where sustainability is important and ppl r now more mindful and aware about those things. 

Now, I was just looking at the trend reports for f/w 2024 and even spring 2025 and its showing a lot of basic, proper, serious, grownup, non pretentious, not edge or bold or out of the box. Its very respectful. Elegant. Plain, clean, but good materials and a lot of thought going into the outfit to look subdued and professional. This is like the opposite of TAMBONITA but it makes an excellent backdrop for wearing the bag. 

So its a time to go in and do what Im doing which is internal work, moving, re-start, get organized, work on projects online and in the work space too, these custom orders are good but I need to move the stock I have. Next vending event might be Dia De Los Muertos Nov 2 and I was looking on Temu and found things I wanted to buy to see if I can sell more at that event. Its risky but I need sales that are more accessibly priced and just a price you cant turn down bc ppl that go to these events have money and they wana drop some! That is how I am too! So 10,20,30,40$ priced things are a potential sale but a $400 TAMBONITA bag is not as common. I also wana start painting other things, I want to make art that is like a dance to make it. I want to dance and make art and also use words and poetry perhaps. Idk but im a lil scared like thoughts of not sure I know what Im doing or dont want it to look too messy or amateur. I want it to be something ppl really love, simple, but works and money comes in, ppl are happy, i am happy and love making what I make… everyone is happy and it evolves. I have some ideas, nothing major. I made an art piece bc couldnt wait and its ok its not finished but im not like wow i can paint and i love my painting skills lol i actually never really did, i could see the talented ppl who I liked how they painted and I didnt feel like I was good enough. It takes practice and if I did it a lot I could do amazing things for sure. My medium is usually mixed, collage, i like scraps, i like inspo of mistakes, i love a lot of things but realize it doenst all look good together on the same painting lol well, yea, i want the final result to be a vibe that I like. I want the movemnt of the eye to keep u engaged and for it to talk to ppl, id like it to heal, i want to be very intentional but at the same time let what happens lead the game of patience and the mystery of what it evolves to become. Open to the subtleties. The master of color. But i dont want to be over bearing. I want to be inspiring, feminine, graceful and maybe jolt, soft but strong, know when to stop and say its finished (not an easy thing to know) I would like to take things that arent usual to use and incorporate them into my paintings. Like feathers for instance. They are so light weight and spiritual, remind me of angels and birds, and dandelions blowing in the wind! Ballerina ribbon brush strokes, landscapes maybe, interiors, scissors cutting patterns, sun dying, sling shotting, sewing, idk. I would like to take u to a place of texture and wonder and illumination and embellishment, remind us of beauty. 

My Vision Video...

https://animoto.com/play/U0k9SLAzKcKDVfrb3fh5xg

I feel like I can keep working more on this. I forgot to mention I want to see more SUNRISEs and SUNSETS and I want more ppl to be able to see them too. For Society to be healthy we need more places that offer this. More architecture that allows everyone to see the sunset and sunrise if they wanted as a basic human need be met. 
 

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Can I make a suggestion?

 ...Or Can I make an observation? 

This is the way to ask before giving out some advice. When advice isn't welcomed it isn't your place to give it. It isn't usually your advise that will be welcomed or wanted but better if you can guide someone to come up w the answer on their own... so they feel good about themselves and also bc it might not be your ego of thinking you know what is right for them who really knows anyway. We have to get this right... ppl do need each other but to be listeners and not for your opinion so much but ask more questions and listen and learn and really listen tho and let them talk more... keep asking them to tell you more... and then maybe they can hear themselves their own answer. THAT is really valuable "guidance" it doesn't need to have your advise bc its their journey but we need to be there to help assist and facilitate these growths and changes... growing can be painful and we ca feel lost when we don't have a clear answer. 

Make sense?

Not giving my advice is the hardest thing for me to do LOL. It is my love! but if I ask for their permission its like a glide in w a suspense for them to desire a new idea,,, its up to them...maybe... its not for me to dictate and say they MUST, even if they must its their choice, either they will or they won't, they won't die over a wrong choice,,, instead, it just takes us to more experience. its tied in with WILLINGNESS

UNWILLINGNESS can look like procrastination or unmotivatedness

"In any moment of decision the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing u can do is nothing" But What's The Next Best Thing!? RIGHT? Diff for each of us. We need to learn to feel, when we know how we FEEL we can find out what we NEED

Uncertainty is good, we grow!

Why am I here? -To Listen. (hear)

The more we stress ppl the more we entrench them in their addiction.

In our true nature we are Enlightened - totally open, peaceful, joyful, compassionate & omniscient.

Roll the Paradise

The Human Realm is filled w struggle & uncertainty. Humans are highly emotional. There is no telling whether, in a fit of passion, we might make some big mistake & regress. 

Have compassion for confusion.

Oh hey sis! = oasis... say hi

Genuine Compassion makes no distinction between self and other.

Anger and Hatred are the materials from which HELL is made.

Words of healing & reconciliation 

Delight don't Despair

One Step, one moment at a time to lessen the mountain of sorrow in the world.

I haven't shared anything about the 50 days I spent in jail at Key West... Monroe County

I read Books on Buddhism and had already signed up to study Life Coaching and get a life coach and I disappeared! Imagine! I learned about Bodhichitta and at the exact moment I was eating Cheddar Jalapeño Cheetos to it was like "tamBO EAting CHEdar chEE-TOS" hahaha and I swear its so weird how things like that happen LOL

Look it up! Bodhichitta <143

I want to add more of my notes here, so I will. <3

Right-Writing

Prancer! Dasher! Energy enhancer! …. All Dancers!!! Stare while I walk up these stairs elevating through doors and roofs as they have two o’s oo oo to look through, to peek a boo, at a peacock aqua, purple, indigo blue, I see you, sea side but not inside my soul Ray a drop of gold bind us stars by shines of 3 sistars sea stars our nighttime doves so bright, sit tight, lined up calendar like in formation in accumulation pattern separation, they stick out from the rest. For this is how a captains never lost looking through his telescope Pirate like 3.14 miles to land. Peeking, Dunking in ocean blues salty water like tears like a soup, made by who? Peppered by plankton glowing down your digestive tract track that result in your unrefused choices down the pipe. Oh Darn it Boy this calls forth the energy of gaslighting our very selves like change to our working machine washing u clean its a stream of conciousness paralled course paraguas-umbrella water of life sending circles throughout. In order of perfect design, sometimes I sigh and say what better signs to tell us. Be the you and I be the me its all happening wo trying, we can fall in trust w us, letting go of our story, one step at a time, footnotes, parent the thesis, or spiral in vortex. Choose your choices it is test ting intestines, detoxing what must die, just good guessing gestation governed by divine order, how it goes, we kill our elves we arent always Think King about transforming negative poison-us, by pausing the tention and setting an intention. 

Kindness generator, never ending tank of generosity unlikely to find in many other human beings unconciously thriving, walls created, bound-diaries ass tanks running on loworried and full of empty fear headed towards a The End they avoid w all their might. Barely operating Sir vive! Is your duty while alive. My God I heard to do that Gov says die trying. So we go crazy on one another trying to prove our different points, things like what I want to do and what you think I should do but we forget what does God want us to do. So we go crazy on one another arguing creating Grand Canyons from small oil rigs, The Drama we are a dick ted craving the theatrical call to the backstage … “We are going on LIVE!” Live and Death for who cant hear listen up, behold, on mute, off the hook nobody. Slow to God. Ten Fe! Feather… fe at her… gusanito adentro, yo digo Pio Pio Tuyo Tuyo espejito volteadito a ti porque se que dar es mas ganaza para todos que quedarme con todo sin ser generosa compartiendolo con todos otros generosa osita. 🧸 Ositos que damos a nuestros hijos, y lecciones de enseñanza insuficientemente explicatos porque no hay una forma en concreta y quieres que lo descrubren ellos mismos. La dualidad de malo y bueno ponendo encima injusto  justicio. Aver si aprendemos de los caminos de otros no tiene que ser todo aprendido de nuestro propio camino. Por eso necesitamos hablarnos. Discutir de casos de nuestras proprias expirencias. 

Osita ono? Es que ositos Necesitan amos y abrazos hay que darlos y darlas gracias y a uno a otros. Diosita Osita Orisha. Nadar en el Buen y en el Mar con ositos amorosos, todo sera con Fe, compartiendo sin miedo, mas miel, Rey-dio… we will leave the awful and head for hopeful, beautiful, a do able, agreeable Dream come be seen! 

Owl always love you, who? Who? Whoever you are its forever we are here together, if i listen I hear the channel, I surf di “oh”, rad. Promise you will call me to ask me in person so I can put my purse on. All right, bright, set, hike! Uphill will, down for the challenge! Not here on edge, it feels like im in the middle, feels round to me. North East Eye Feast, south west simply opposing place. With a mind of its own, My heart is concious of you, I believe it to be true. Battery powered to last a lifetime measured by choices, back choi, & from now on Choi (not made in china). Not even Shy-na! Be courageous, speak and share to learn from each one of a kind you mans. Bound by lifes unique spectacle! Get together hear through the heart, now wake to meet greet and get deep. Time to care parenting like Moms for our family, siblings, excusing, advising, demonstrating love allowing the other to choose their path. Sharing wo expecting ppl to need to take the path you think is right allow everyone to take their way fairly! Healthy choices heralded! Hoorayed! Honored! 

Writing our wrongs, the ups and downs to better understand what works for our selves. In motion of learning by Gives and Takes no such thing as mistakes really mostly free will being used in choices. Give ppl control unless they allow otherwise. That is principle, a law of the word freedom, free will, allowing to choose, comes w suffereing consequences, so does a marriage ring, and a telephone ring… all have a result, and all results can be more pleasant. The gravity is here to hold us on Earth, we dont need manufactured suffering on top of living life we need to pay a system to make things easier for us instead. To tell us the truth. To know what is right from wrong if they expect it from us. Warnings are given, we dont need more wars. We dont meed the wrong type of profit. The way to destruction is necessary for creation but we should evacuate places properly all lives matter. We dont need a poll to vote for the richest side to win, we know we want a working system that basically demands the same of us that u expect we want from you. We want the same things, we want to Enjoy our lives. We want to raise our kids and work 3 days a week, we want to explore this planet and contribute a couple days to volunteer. We wana be fulfilled. We are very happy humans who want to reach our full porentials and we want to have the option to live fully in TRUTH AND ABUNDANCE. 

Genie Rose...

 I am working towards creating and writing my 7year Vision next. Superwise Manifestation, Deprogramming to Re-program. I declare to be my best version of ME bc I AM POSSIBLE, confide in me. It's all a decision to my own self to be true. Everyday doing more tasks to get me closer to my goals consistently moving on my path towards a better, more evolved me that I am proud of. I am generous and that is a beautiful trait to have, generous with my time, my guidance, my healing, my light, my art. I am in a good place in my soul and in my core while everything outside of me is just challenges that make themselves out to be bigger than they actually are and as the Fires grow in California and the Wars and devastation continue ppl still don't know how to offer love and support to me in a rehabilitation program. Sad how ppl are treated in our own communities instead of building up they tear you down so that they can take credit for who you end up becoming. No, this is not bc of them, this is bc of what I choose to read and do outside of what I am told that I have peace and love inside my soul. I am doing my own homework with my thoughts, meditations, spiritual readings, and many more secrets that I have to offer people who want to come closer and find out, just ask. I want to help and be of service and you already know that. I am 40 now so I think Ive reached a place where I finally feel comfortable stepping into my power and offering myself and my expertise as a healer and hear you out, I want be HERE for you. We can go for a walk together, we can do energy work, Reiki once I learn more about U. I have questions about your story after and during as I listen. I offer advice only when you ask for it, that is bc it's better you find your own answers and we can discuss the options, perhaps you're missing seeing something that I can point out for you. I am here to HEAR you and I do a lot of it with my HEART not just my ears. I can see signals in mannerisms and in where vibes will tense vs soften. I feel breathing changes, and face expressions or simply in your thought processing towards individual desires, fluctuations. Do we have an allowing with our words and thought like moving of our wand or are we casting a web on our own selves w down play, not being able to take compliments and not allowing ourselves to dream big enough and play in the dream like its alive and in occurrence! It's just a Fun Dance after all and then we Die but at least we did it! So DO it! DREAM it with me and won't you take this dance called GIVE A DANCE, a water jug you hold in your belly. Shaking it with LIFE like the rivers, waterfalls and streams do, oxygenating, but inside YOU. Do it anyway you wish but do it as a prayer dance for the world, for life, for more flowing, and flowers, to do your part to the trickle you will pour of your water, the cycle, Scientific Terrific Sacred, no words, frequency contained in natures language, ARTS. With this wise Vision we see we must care of our movement, of our thoughts that it all goes back to you what you do. It's a Karma, do no harm ma. even with a hammer we can hit it better, we can sway as we walk, we can be cautious, mindful of our claps and our slams and our zooms and all the put downs. Each gentle step a gift to the Earth, filled w emotion, we might feel so good enough to fly! Light as a heather, glide, like a graceful spinning slide. the wind helping you where you need it, working with the things, the moonlight your perfect flashlight. Anything better than the Television. Tell us your Vision! it's everything organic and perfect size. Why would I life to you? That's exactly wise. To Notice the other person is even there is first level respect for each other. Nobody better than another, they are just more asleep or more awake that is the trouble, potential yet no intuition, didn't pay... attention that is it lol. Pray for them, they the sinners. May we all know how to create human heat like fire, through dance, through love, with our bodies, how do you think we survived the Ice Age? not only from the actual element of fire but by movement, the healthiest way to spend our time on Earth, the best investment of ourselves for our mood, for longevity, for the rest of humanity, bc alongside nature is where we belong not in a gym but with our skin in the sun and exploring the unknown trying things you have never done before expanding with new textures, sounds, sights, people, combinations you will download. Follow the good feelings of bliss from your curiosity, like this you are safe in the world and adored. With an openness you will, in childlike awe, just see all that you can be grateful for. be a breathing living aligned version of you and watch it all unfold for you. Participate you are a part of the master plan et Tammy show. ehem, Im not Tery Im Miss Tammy<3 

My Future in the Crystal Ball…

I am a Ball of Love! So full of life! Transmuting all that comes our way with dismay into utter delight. Thankful for all the choices I’ve made to get myself united and to this place of Power. From purifying my soul and digging deep to turn darkness into divine abundance and gift of my light. I am so proud of the person you present yourself as to all the people you meet and greet, inspiring everyone you come into contact with. Thankful for being an Earth angle and protecting the good and sacred. My vision, sharp and panoramic like an Eagles view, I’ve kept my integrity and like a Goddess phoenix have exemplified strength and sophistication through adversity from a keen awareness and Birds Eye view. My heroine has steered us to Freedom, Joy and Peace through healing and by simply being. I see my family united and happy, children running through flowers and fruit trees one with nature. I see how organized and clean you like to keep everything. I feel the sunshine as we walk through this farm that everyone can enjoy. I feel everyone around me is healthy which helps me feel even more healthy myself. I see the overflowing of your love for everyone surrounding you and the interconnectedness of it all, including the animals. I see how graceful you are, you’re strong and you do it all in like a dance. Stopping for curiosity! Free to feel at peace! I am proud to be me, I AM. I am so excited for the seasons that change and the new ripe foods and spices it brings. Such respect for Mother Earth was lacking years before. It is amazing to see you working so diligently on your relationships, the giving and receiving never depleting, I feel your motivation! I hear so much laughter, the birds at play, beautiful music, instruments like harps, drums and tambourines with crackling of fire at night. I hear the angels and ancestors singing their medicine songs all around, drowning out the sadness with truth and wisdom. I taste the most magnificent healthy foods from the blessed ground we walk on, exposed, not under cement. I taste the elements in the winds breezing by, swooping through my nostrils and hitting my pineal glad with information of survival. I taste the melting snow, at an exact degree wind change, I feel it all and it is all love that I feel. I sit with my partner, soon to be husband, he caresses my face and puts the curl in my hair behind my ear and whispers something that makes me giggle. I feel so connected to be able to braid my daughters hair with ribbons and flowers too. That I get to read my sacred books of knowledge every night to fill my soul expanding my wisdom. That my life has become about spreading these wonderful secrets…a chain reaction of bliss. I am honored to empower my human family towards a better world towards a higher dimension. I love this beautiful planet Earth and our World Wide Web that has allowed us to take back our power from those with greed and we have turned it into a paradise for us all, every single one. 1111 Don’t stop making wishes Tamara Aida Diaz McVeigh A marvelous woman. Amar, to love, and we love you too.

 

The Hierophant -Tarot-

https://biddytarot.com/tarot-card-meanings/major-arcana/hierophant/

What Ive recently realized…

Its the defining moment, the time to decide… what ever we decide will need to be clear and concise, remembered, spelled into the great conciousness mind and echoed into realization. It is there, all there but our choosing will make it whirl it into power w our desire, the feelings we have of having it mixing in with our intention… like a record repeating in a whirl wind it Will! And so now is the ticking time to say it, know your power, be so sure! Be 100000% sure after all your off kiltering, swaying side to side getting familiar w the diff forms of feeling off balanced. Feeling so sad after being so happy,,, remmeber the bigg balance… the pendulum swing, the Universal Laws, and the Covenant agreement you made before this life of treasuring this vessel body you were given. The way you use your body, the ways in which you love your body, the thoughts you have sent your body, the way you dress it, the way you hold your posture… and how much you have improved!!! Realizing that this body is the way for a better world! The covenant you hold, the secret contract, the U that U are and the inner child you have inside, the relationship with yourself and with all sentient beings! All the birds can feel your energy! All the trees and butterflies and if you look at the air itself its filled with all sorts of energy and pollen and life and spirits! Look! Dont worry about looking cool, worry about how devinely connected we are so much so that we are in a delicate play of energy w every single movemnt we make! Affecting and rippling out into all sorts of other! But really to take notice! Awe Awareness! Like opening the blinds on your whole soul and seeing all the signs and when you see one, you see another one and another one… just ask! Show them that u can See and they will show you more. Ask to see messages of LOVE AND KINDNESS and WHATS BEST FOR THE GOOD OF ALL and the “voices” may not need to be quieted but gifts of whispers that you can just decode and decide if u will let guide u. Love surrounds you! We are asked to stop and notice! The animals help, for me the birds really do. Did I tell you how an Indian Man told me to feed the birds and that they will protect me… where is that man and what was his name? He even gave me one of those Goddess names and back then I didnt pay enough attention… I wrote it down somewhere… but idk if I will ever know. So that is an example to paying better attention bc if u do u will live so WELL-THEE! You will see the abundance! You will dance in fact! Moving will become a dance, dealing w ppl and your whole entire Life a dancing prayer! Rotating and Meditating. So even I cant live only as a dancing writer but it will be part of what I do. I enjoy expressing whatever is needed for the moment. Its all a process of transmuting and transforming and channeling. If i am in a better place I will write better things, if I am agry, sad, etc I may channel dark or heavy energies… yes! This must be seen! I am not a robot! I am an emotional expressive being and these are my brush strokes! They are worrds and they have human kindness and meaning, both. My tattoo on my back is of 3 dandelions to make 3 wishes… its to remind me that I believe we can always make 3 wishes! Everyday! Every moment! A way to check in on what u want! Knowing that firmly is a great advantage and puts gas in your vehicle! Your heart like an engine! Your mind the steering, your gut perhaps practically the wheels w food and water fuel and the air oh the air…. Thats what we cant live without most! Water is life! Notice your mood change when you eat and stay hello hydrate! That is the difference between a Ferrari and a Jeep for example… shushness … idk im just kinda joking here… u know, i do that. Not following a yellow brick road making my own unmarked path from having digested others yellow brick roads and here I go making mine… but what do I want? I dont have a boyfriend, or a husband right now… i dont have any babies, i have a dog, shes like a cat and she is really easy, my Mom just got a puppy and he is BIG BIG LOVERRRR BIG! ❤️ I want to Fly! I want to see amaxing things and meet amazing people and Yes I would like to fond (freudian slip) find someone yes I am Fond of and can Bond with and who is intelligent, successful wnd has a sense of humor please. Someone I have an attraction towards and we just have a great chemistry and make a smooth team. Yess!!!! So Im working on organizing my deepest deseires and I hope we can all do this, of course we get to come back to the drawing board but just to inspire the new Earth… find your intention and be the best you can be! You will see that you can! You are a star! So shine your light! I really do love you. Xoxoxoxo 

THIS IS ME.

https://youtu.be/sRBGYo7IbEg?si=3nf_GCRaITeTM2AO

A Fallen Drunk…

II think I want to be a dancing writer and all at the same time. Rich Right Spirit, native, world traveler, the curious kind, free, Joking, A network room for growth, the reach above, i love you so much, 10-A-plus! Flying white dove highlight. Starting bright beginnings, swaying visions like vice. (I do that) devide why? Multiply. Stop what cement wells when dry. A greener grass across this path. We stayed in the lodge wake up and prepare to die! Colors are lieying lazy melted together murky waters loitering together…. Entering a fire dance, a range of blues. The wisest why? Blessed yes, knowing otherwise. Looping language repelling regions of thought. Lost for words we dial in numbered secured. Cured. Suddenly, sun burned. Staring at the start we imagined the entire route. Inspired we live out more ways than the one we go about. Flights of feelings, wired w words, wind down in spiralling stairs elevating my perfect soul somehwere. I guess I can kick it, take the cerebral way into my heart. Following God sparks, inspiring my internal spark for more parks wolf clubs dont need Grooming or fruitful tree routes. Re-route! Almost F-Out! Lol or stay and help me to bring in a new lasting Happiness when lost, we have easily been able & found. Finally facing my enemy and even a seeping peace of sound. Owe. It hurts. My little peace I hold. Please can we talk? Who are you? One of my own. Free to fink, free to find, that only an open mind, is the one worth my skills, skull a prize- on. Awarding #888 for all! Breathe the union wise and slow, lightning speed available. 000 un twisted faith festered. See w 3s ups and downwards 🌀 spirals of 8’s in exponents. Bathe in mathematical bubble baths. 

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Time for love Habibi

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Or u have been robbed.

Alchemize...

 This journaling exercise helped me realize some things and I wanted to re-write it here. 

I was asked to recall an incident that got me mad and that morning just before then I was quite frustrated by an incident I had to wait over an hour to be seen and was going to be late to my next appmt. I had to put my foot down and stand up for myself bc this was not right for me and I said I would have to come back. Well, I was given ultimatums and fear mongering and still left bc I knew I was doing the best for me not to mess up my next meeting. I was somehow able to get the meeting on zoom and go back to wait for the appt. I chose this incident bc it just happened to do the exercise. I am leaving some details out bc it is private and unnecessary to share. 

When thinking back at this once it was in the past I was first proud to have dealt with it by standing up to myself and my boundaries and my sense of self respect. I made a huge effort to be on time for my zoom meeting and I did the best I could given the time was overlapping. I was originally there at 9:22am and my zoom call was at 11am! I thought I had plenty of time so next Monday I have to be there earlier, Id say 9am. 

I felt good that I was able to go back to my house and having done all that could eat lunch at home w my Costco purchases from the day before. I felt confident, strong and grateful. I knew those fear tactics were wrong.  I was happy to be free, past that difficulty, that I was 100% sober and clean and doing everything to my best capacity. What more could I or anybody else want from me?!

Then I thought deeper into it and realized that the reason why I was 100% sober then was bc I had to be for Probation That was a BIG awareness,,, I might have not been if it wasn't being demanded of me. and then from there it turned into gratitude. I was grateful for my situation and the gift of making me a more aware and clean sober person for my dog, my parents, my community, my zoom meeting, for my path to a better version of me. I realized that was a huge thing to be grateful for. So from being "bothered" I alchemized it and realized how Grateful I am for all of what is happening right now and dunked it in sweet LOVE. 

Find an Agreement.

The only way to win the game is to win ppl over! How? With kindness! You dont force ppl to agree with you, you have to care enough about them to be curious to learn and grow and find a way that is not only beneficial to u but to them as well! Its called an agreement and its like a lost art these days since some person of power says the word and ppl just have to follow it, this is more like a trade deal, a negotiation! Its like wanting to be popular and keeping your followers engaged… you win w them following and liking and commenting on your pics… how do they do that? W your engaging w them… making sure they are getting something out of the relationship, being concerned about their end of the deal not only what YOU GET. This is a huge piece of why things work and why they dont. This is the secret sauce to success! Their goal should be of interest to u! Things are non sensical and worthless wo growth! Keep ppl happy! Its a mixture of what they want to hear and what keeps things interesting… can we do this wo a catch? Can we help each other find our own ways and accept the differences? This is freedom! Letting ppl be w a structure of manners in place. Life is to be ENJOYED! Its better we make JOY than anything else! We all can love each other if we can see each other for who we are, less competition and more family. A restaurant w one table that everyone sits together at, have conversations w your fellow community instead of so seperated and detached isolated yet longing for connection we are. When u meet a friend of a friend you feel u can accept them even if they are not ideally your type of person. All these beings are here for us to get to know and learn something from. Hearing from your same bubble isnt going to bring in any new points. PROGRESS Congress. We are all just lovely human beings trying to survive, programmed to act and think the way we do. Forgive us for we are here to wake up and realize that we can choose a better way and find a peaceful way where we can all live in abundance. We can have more this way. We can be wo fear. We can feel supported in the unity. This is powerful. Everything is sacred and everything is family here on Earth. Whoever doesnt see it is blinded by trauma, by pain, is lacking love, is manipulated by money, will need some time and needs Love to Heal. Forgive. Hold each other. Say nice things to each other. Help each other. W this new mentality we wouldnt need this system, its up to us to stop being too busy to help each other out and hear one another out. With Love all the rest is over. Be well, love all! Live in Joy, Enjoy! I see Bliss ahead! 

Into Positive Self Talk... Switch ON the Neuropathways

 I just want to express how proud I am of all the people who are doing well, living life happily. I am doing the same but it's time to look out into the horizon and move into a new level! My grandmothers are here and I am so happy to hear that bc I need their love. This year I need to give myself some special attention, I will exercise more self kindness! I need a good nights rest tonight before I leave to the Moon Dance, I may do a beach stop on the way up. I haven't been wanting to eat, Ive been juicing a lot. 

Tamara, You have been doing incredible things, you give everything that you do your determination and focus and don't cheat yourself bc you spend your time reading, planning, doing, such impressive choices, I am very proud of you for who you are and how much you give to others and try to help others. You deserve love, forgiveness, amazing friendships that accept you and are excited to be around u. You deserve  your dreams of a peaceful healing sanctuary, a life of adventure, exercise, community, fun, and creativity. ppl will follow you and your bliss. Let's begin by writing about your wins, meditating daily wo forgetting. This time you have for yourself is everything you can ask for! I am here to gently help guide you back to a path where U can be your best you yet. You are adored by many and so necessary here on the quest. You are more powerful than you even realize and yet you are humble and kind to all types of people and strangers you meet with ease. keep doing the best you can. Love yourself more, as present as u can. Please get serious about this year and program and all that life offers you, the opportunities will come and you must take them with a beautiful attitude and a ready/responsive/responsible vibe. You are truly the best, I enjoy having the chance to try to help you reach your next potential. Don't worry but do rest and say your prayers n be in nature. I love you the mostest. 

Let's work on Relationships and Conversations this year. Punctuality, precision, business talk, Shopify, No harsh criticisms, Its like you're our VIP client, we attend to u, maximum service, You are the most imp Project now. Your NEEDS are #1Your emotions must be felt with so you can be at peace. You are so appreciated, loved, safe, you have felt uneasy dissatisfied and sad bc it was leading up to this, learning how to give it to yourself. You just got a special 1-1 coaching where nobody was there to accolade you (you are enough!) There will be daily progress and so much love and laughter and sweetness in your new life. You will have time to read your new books, have your team at Bizcraft and Coachery cheering you on and sharing the magic. 

More Lessons...

 Some of what I learn from is merely in the spelling of the words and diff languages is more knowledge and from more knowledge we can aim at wisdom. We can make some assumptions, some explorations and w that misjudgments. You will never know until you try. Such as this... Freedom is Libertad in Spanish and my initials art TAD lol Liber is like Libro a book, Liber is like Liver the organ, which has the word Life and when your ready for Liberty you can read between the lines, you are now responsible enough to choose well at Free will, wo Fear interference, know the difference, having knowledge with it Wise. You know many Why's bc you asked and cared to know. With FREED-Om we are all able to now stop and be in silence, no lawn to cut or flight to catch, The planet can be in Peace wo the hum of something always on, a Silence, a Sigh now Slower. No rush. No now what? Will a baby still cry? why? if its with its mother. 

I have been asked to meditate on FREEDOM for a few mins daily and I thought I should say how FREE I have been. I chose to chain myself to structure, to find a pattern for survival, I wanted this person to know that I am freeing myself but that I crave also the need to satisfy the opposite. I see that sacrifice we make for love, for motherhood and family as being what humanity does and without that I would get an incredible amount of time that I would need to figure out how best to spend it. I am still young and willing to keep learning and contributing and joining for best results to BEST possibility. 

I felt a lot of LOVE inside of myself today. I spoke it out while driving in the car. I feel free when I drive for example or on a bike or any kind of scooter or motorcycle, also dancing, writing too. Yet I have mostly chosen to complain. I look for what I can fix instead of appreciating the IS. I see that but can alchemize and learn a new groove in the brain, needing a new route as engrained, like skis marked course in the snow through a trail, Its time we groom the garden, we are all skiing in the conciousness mountain. Can we live in Prayer? Everything we do w A-peace-ciation, a appreciation, Great-Full, grateful, Aware, Graceful, that our sounds and rhythm affects, not to bother, to accept our differences, not see each other as interference, and allow Fear in, having Faith instead, Believing in others, that its safe, more than dangerous, that we are good more than bad, that your trust in me allows me to want to Be better, that your mistrust in others is doubtful and unloving and the kind of thing that needs to fall off and fall away and a new leaf will grow from the tree, its a Be Leaf in magic! The invisible indivisible from what's here materially so spiritually we can focus to bring in a new order woman manifested this time, All of you inspired it, its free spirit and ecstasy of love how else do u think we all got here>? Full of Gifts waiting to be noticed! We need to take off the masks of this Masculine Man-unkind More Om-ing no Bombing Wombing, we've been cooking, we need time to rest and nest instead of protest, we have the choice if we are educated and not MAN-ipulated, where is True North when we are always slightly tilting? Join the channel, Wave-length, Ray of light-Radio both heard and seen, indivisible w liberty and justice for all. Take the hit, other cheek, a diff reaction. speak a tear, check your compass w reading glasses. toss the tools aside and feel the ground, find non cement, don't let them pull out wisdom teeth genius'. I prefer mine in. What even for? Not the Fairy or Fair for us. It can't get worse once you know the amount of lies in this business. Humans are many, we come in many colors, Hue-mana, colors of life, like birds of a feather, mystery-us, Love missing, taken from us, to MAN-ufacture more individuals to work for some hiding  King, who are these Leaders such failure. Forgive me if I am wrong. I ask for more love and for good men to stop drop and assume the role of LOVE. & To Heal Thyself.

Be growth Anew…

The most famous chant in the world is the Compassionate Buddha "Om Mani Padme Hum" which translates to "Hail to the jewel in the lotus." It is the mantra of the Buddha of Compassion, known by the Chinese as Goddess Kuan Yin.

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Oh how beautiful the diamonds, pearls and Lotus flowers! All life’s seeds that sprout anew unknown, eggs that have to hatch and birth from  mothers brake of her water. All growing pains, all uncomfortable eruptions that form us into who we are molding us, affected. How from these storms that do pass and settle we are blessed with new strengths we can be proud we have surpassed, landed on another side! 🍳 

Growing pains, painting 🖼️ our lifes picture and growing past what doesnt serve us any longer, even growing into us, we see we are holding the paintbrush! …at last we can feel OMs from others besides just us! Same way we wanted to be helped up or lifted from the murky dark we are now here together holding space on these beautiful green Lily Pads floating on the pond, with Devine Light’s time of on. The Blooms and Pad we Hums. Lotus’ 🪷 & slowly more and more of us! Individually blooming, Ooos and Aaahs Riveting 🐸 while the still of the water (for now) we are in and conciously connecting, affecting... Posting, thoughts splashing boosting our growth in this life. 💦💗💦 Ripples of hearts each time… devine order so sacred the wild in flow the Flowers 🕉️ 💜mmm

Reflecting… REEF-flecting

mmmagic 

MMMAGIC

Expecting Greater Changes

Feeling like Ive been caught up in a trap. Like keeps showing me who I am, certain behaviors that arent me thinking straight, my better self. The shift isnt something im allowed to blame but when we have gone so far and we do want to raise the bar. Starting new doesnt have a picture yet and who am I fooling right? Ran a 5k today but didnt make any new connections or friends w anyone so i soon after left, crowd was young or in family. Not sure what to think of that. Feeling really detached, confused, lonely tonight. I want to be doing better and sure of my flow. Even my parents need me now and wonder if there is any better way for me to go about it. I keep going on but lifes material world is no longer satisfying. Im learning about a joy that outlasts it. But holding on to the past bc its all I have and how do I even let it all just go like that? Id miss it being something i can keep creating with but feels like i should prob brake free of it. Ask how i can be of service to our world, w a record they keep you distanced to be of help. Degrading me and making a waste of me. I deserve to learn more and be of greater service. Almost like I could be a full time care taker for my Father. Then it seems like I know everything feel jaded on my perspective bc its not a new one. 

Im spending time on things that may not bring me a financial boost any time soon. Feel like id love to get guidance but from who and how will anyone know for me its my life i must figure out. Recently ive made peace w the idea I may not be a parent bc its feeling like a lot for me to even get the hang of so its prob better i choose to free myself and travel and persue a cause to help. Alleviate. Find peace. Go deeper into spirituality and be able to have more time for it all, i think im ok w it-?!?! Love is all we need. 

The Time of my Life...

 Hi all my kind, I just came back from dancing and watching the fire performers at Skate Bird, I took Roxy out and she doesn't want walk to I let her do her slow thing which is not wanting to walk and then I had to drop her back off at home. She needs to walk, she's overweight and I can't get her to move she puts on the breaks and it hurts my back when she does that. Anyway I left her and went on an excursion in the night... It was beautiful brisk Miami weather w a breeze and I am so glad I went bc the fire performers were there and my friends were the band and I didn't even have a drink. If it was up to me I would have BTW but its the government doesn't allow me, Im on Probation and can't drink for 3 years now. The government is seriously sick and the WORST example in my opinion, it's funny I have to obey them when Im 40 years old meanwhile they are bombing and making wars w my hard earned taxes. Seriously not a fan, I think I should leave this country and give up my American Citizenship, this is how I feel. I need a full body massage by a particular strong male who is really fucking good at what they do and it's not anybody I know LOL. Sorry Y'all,,, Im still avail and looking and Im straight in case Rainbow bags have offended you or something. I am so ME right now that Im reading books, writing, doing so much ME TIME that it's like regular society is curious and thinks Im a weirdo for it lol. I am doin just fine my dears, I am working on myself DEEPLY and Its SOOOO imp to just have fun!!! Everything is such a serious ordeal and hassle,,, umm guys, we created this and it SUCKS sorry! Im not into it at all and Im like dancing in the street instead and I really believe that my way is better lol for me and prob for everyone. Working on a new tag line for the brand w a new marketing guy, Making new stuff at the warehouse,,, yes and the fire dancers,,, this one girl does the show at Faena and wants me to make her something so excited. How come I didn't know there was a fire dance show there? I need a real adventure like to the ALPS of the best shit already. so fed up w these losers that make me pay for them n shit wtf seriously. I am a lady! I am an artist! Im not a Realtor assholes. Im supposed to be taken out and everything you pay for. YEA I said it. Its Time. I need that kind of man and if not Im Good, get it? Im Great just me here doing life, my dog, my art, my books, my interests and curiosities and online schools of all damn sorts. I don't want hear stupid shit anymore. I am into the wisdom. I am so there w what's happening w my life, how I am cared for my my angels and I like to care for others too... so I do to my parents whom I owe my whole life to and Im willing to heal them and nurture them and organize them and make sure they laugh for Gods Sake. 

I am so proud of me and so I think Im prob proud of u too right now. Im sure you are doing great things for the whole world and that your way of being is good for whoever is receiving it. 

All the Best,

Tam

Know Our Power

Ive put a great deal of effort into improving my life and feel like I still havent managed to find a true way to be here and manage it the way its technically supposed to be. Im tired of not getting reciprocated for my efforts as Id like to be in a different place than I am in right now. I can be so grateful for this here and now but its the aftermath of efforts than i here now lie in. And everything has passed and is unalive and gone. Im left with my own left overs of a life once fought for and turned aimless. I now lay in a mountain of my choices expired now uninspired and i hate to say it. I changed bc I freed myself and gave myself some time and forgiveness and time went by, lots of precious time. Im not going back, im spending it, watching it make changes in me and those around me and cant decide what to think anymore of it. I didnt let anyone down I must have chosen this rebellious path thinking I was doing the right thing. I like to write. I dont like it when i do something wrong. Im in bed writing, its my Birthday. Im 40 and had a nice day Valentines Day but this time of year is always a bit stressful and unique to me and my story. I cant imagine it any different that this particular strangeness, its like im a vampire to my own personal quirks, i dont see the difference between my soul and my life story like they are so glued together. The things i do in all ways over lap and connect so im evolving from everything that i do even tho “its not me”, it becomes me and i live wo seperating them or knowing the difference. Its to not compartmentalize and have diff versions of me for here and for there so it might be a mood change, definitely a mood change actually. A mood to create my Mundo, my world. The mood is the frequency your on that affects your understanding! Mood though is your way to give yourself a check in, check up, its the sure signs of some sort of depletion or time to talk to others to hear them for a change, i talk too much, i guess i will listen more, who do I wana listen to? If we are all children here learning and noone can tell me what better than me for me. Thanks for sharing your words of wisdom w me ahead of time. So 40 is here, what can I say? Its like a collection of things, memories, stories and we dont have enough time to enjoy it together, the calendar could be a Call In There to come back around to the ppl u meet, not all friends are on the same level, its more specific and what fucking matters? This is our Power, our Network! Our World Wide Web and we can deal w 8 things at a time. But we gota share the attention span to keep the web slots organized and filed away. One by one multiple ways through groupings, key words, informational database that allows u access to see ppl by job, location, whatever it may be, music taste, diet, hobbies, knowledge… if there is anything this future shit can help us with is that our ppl are our market and not all of us yours only. And we should let them know what we say and frienda can know more if we choose so. We arent for sale unless we are making the world a better place, machine in place for our benefit. We choose. Too bad for u. Thats that. Know our Power. 

Blessings to All...

 Loyal to each one we become Upy'all, it's a thought and it is beautiful in my opinion. It's not meant to be funny even though it has a silliness to it perhaps but it is an underlining treasure. I can see potential in ideas that come from playing with words. The spell we are under or I should say I have been under caused by myself unknowingly with no blame but instead a recognizing of our choices and our power sometimes I gave it away I guess and I am sorry if I bothered you or hurt you or if anybody ever did but we are here to heal these past wounds and try a different tune that sees our traumas as gifts for knowledge and growth and lovingly walk each other home like he said... my mind is blanking. what an interesting problem to solve this big giant one we are all a part of, isn't it>?<it is! everything is both now, Nothing is right or wrong and its truly a time to let that go gently forgiving our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. How lessons are MORE beneficial than Correct Answers in a sense bc its a form of exploring experience to become better experts at Sexy Life Making and Sharing and Love is the only way but friendship makes the world go round, doesn't it? To not only love one another but also to have compassion and acceptance for the flaws for they will happen. Even me here trying to think of the best thing to say not only for you to love and accept me like I'm some desperate person Actually not at all, For myself, for the future of humanity, bc I thought well about this and Im learning as Im going, aren't we all? You aren't like me and I don't want you to be, I am very happy to have you the way you are, I could learn from you and Id love the chance to share great moments with you all to be IN JOY Enjoying the present moment and getting somewhere w this ship my dear friend. won't you Say you will sail with me, closer to the here than away farther away, that might just take too much time and We all don't have so long you see..? I hope you see, and feel and know how much Life is also Truth and its Simple, we have created this to survive to hopefully better this place... Im very proud of us! So many incredible humans Id love to hear from. From Thought to Forming Things, Systems, Rules, all kinds of shit and how can we take a second to look at where we are headed and allow time for goodness. Monday comes back around like a loop on repeat and so does money if we can let it flow and see the energetic exchange we are trading and exchanging with... the bottom line is it comes back to us, creating value with a TRUTH to care about one another together>? not one up and compete like cheat and take,,, its like manners, education, a united understanding of clear mission, Motto-Ship. Light and Dark, it's about a lighter load, sharing for a mentality of abundance. You can have whatever you want right? u have it already... so but caring that WE ALL HAVE IT TOGETHER that's how we have more... not as divisive its planetary, its mathematical, scientific, historic, anything but Horrific, bc its impossible for it to be Horrific if we are all together on it, I think. It's so difficult for me to get along w some people, and just at least if we can send love to the ones that need it, sometimes those are the ones that need it most. I am one of those people, So everyone is, at some point. So flawed myself w awareness and then expecting a better planet is not how these far out things get solved, I believe our children and next generations need to be protected and guided better and pollution doesn't need a poll to ask who wants it to stop. we need more rules against THAT than against humans, Taxes are to be used for the things that Government is allowed to be on control of not to go outside certain lines other wise this self interest CONFIT is Counterfeit and Fuck your dollar its that against LOVE and we have the power! why are we so comfortable and dead to see that? Im not trying to take away your money and things Im trying to let the ones who are doing things that are wrong for their benefit that we are on the same team-ship, why don't we be friends? We fried instead of tried! we haven't tried yet. we have tried to make a life in a system that is just as unpredictable as a bear coming to eat me! w car accidents, and whatever video game like massive weaponry being used is just not a way to solutions. sunlight and Us and sharing that in peace is a better plan for final result why are we creating deeper caves and bigger walls and more hate than where we were headed before? Your before and my before is infinite and we keep on brother and sisters, like spirals in shells, don't make this a living hell. Lets walk out of this every new day feeling better than before, its up to us to fill our hearts enough to give out, our minds could use some space and declutter a bit, go in, find that box of crap your hiding and go through it lovingly and give things away. more than things we need each others smiles, warmth, invitations, likes, comments, time, understanding, forgiveness, its the most valuable thing we can give right now. Things aside, our needs are connection, next best maybe food? but ALL should have basic needs met and almost a PHucking Fone!  bc we need a head count on phones... if some aren't being used release them or fixx them for those who want one or in need of one bc its like food now almost and Im about to say I don't want one but how will you ever find me if not? better hold on to it then. Im not worried, I don't want you to worry now either, how can I take your worries away? please Tell us, so we can correct this battle field called distorted Heaven on Earth. Know and believe in this process of evolution that connects us, binds us and how we can always choose. Choose Wellness. Mother Daughter, Spirit, Sacred and when you bless yourself this way it's upside down and ends at the heart. from Mother we came and Daughter as the sun in solar plexus, spirit instead of Holy bc it was sex that got us here nobody is so Holy to continue our species... and Sacred,,, at Heart... It's just because I like it. And all that is said to come from the heart... spelled instead of expelled ... connected not by the neck on the phone but from the Heart... Be More, Be All....