Tuesday, December 28, 2021
Forever
Monday, December 27, 2021
Hands Together ππΌ
Friday, November 26, 2021
Thankfull
Saturday, November 20, 2021
The little games
Friday, November 19, 2021
Crossed Fingers...
I remember when I was a little girl and I would cross my fingers. I still do it. I remember those 80s textured walls I would scratch my limbs on. I remember that time I woke up upside down or something and couldn't find the door knob, instead I was trying to get out of the window! I remember the drying lines, the antennas, the manners I was taught and how quiet I was bc I was a sponge observing everything. I remember talking to my dolls bc what else do u do if not? I liked being the teacher. I did it w my dolls make believe and with actual kids I could manipulate during recess, I had my own ballet class! quite productive! but it wasn't always that way lol. I guess I like being a leader, I liked having the attention but it was also very pure, a little piece of popularity perhaps? none of it lasted too long. I had to make new friends a lot. I grew an attitude. I was just shuffled here and there and just absorbing the whole thing knowing id soon be thrown in a different direction again. I had a reason for being the way I became but nobody knew that part about me really. I believe ppl do want the best for us but the look holes, the gaps that don't allow for a match... its not a kids fault and its a life tampered with. everyone has a different story. So many variables, I wonder if the right way to go is as interesting. Kids in a class remind me of objects collected from diff parts. Another assortment, each a diff flavor, and spit balls, and time wasted... nobody seemed to know what they were doing. Even in college, so odd. By now I hope they do bc wasting time wasn't solely the kids' fault, I think it was almost more the teachers. lol. Thats so terrible. I have these memories, so many ridiculous memories, stories, culture, societal lessons, places and things, unbelievable. I am just so grateful so have had the journey I had. Things take time, to make you the more mature you, ppl marry young, they have such real lives, we chose a career, a partner, and become a parent so many times so young! Naturally. Its more natural to make a beautiful mistake like that and yes it is a blessing. It gets harder to later in life I think. I am juggling w diff realities. Why can't he come and save me already LOL ;) Im not sure anymore. I have to really think about what I want. I realize that I am not truly firm on one idea cuz I need a partner I can feel supported, I believe in the dream... I choose to believe in it, I want to find real love, is it so? ugh But of course and I also want to hibernate like a bear for the whole winter. Pray for peace be with me. Cuddles xoxoxo
Wednesday, November 17, 2021
What’s the temperature?
Tuesday, October 12, 2021
2022 Fashion Color Trends
The Spring/Summer 2022 fashion shows and influencer street style has been quite the sight to see & its like “I CANT STOP LOOKING!” Being a fanatic of color I have really appreciated to see the unexpected combinations created by designers and the like, I am Obsessed! Complementary colors paired like I’ve never seen before that perhaps only the fashion forward would dare to pull off to the level that we have seen it. There are endless ways of creating a mix of colors that feels safer but still has the fresh edge of next season. As I’m studying what it is about the colors that’s new and refreshing to me I notice that its because of selecting colors from different color families or groupings to selectively put together. Like using science and art we are walking away from our classic rainbow which was all in Poppy/Punchy spring tone colors or all in rainbow pastels to now shuffling it up and making the colors be from different color families such as Earth tones and pastels mixed w a Neutral or two and then maybe adding a Pop of neon which jumps off even when used sparingly, because its loud, you domino need very much. Make sense? They each interact and relate with each other and because of each other they are receiving the light, like as if they have personalities and they are in conversation, each of the colors has a tone of voice and an energy vibration and together they are all special and do something quite magical and marvelous.
Im seeing the color Chartreuse, Burnt orange brown, strong shades of Fuchsia, electric Lime green, conservative and classy Emerald, potent Indigo, Rich Purples and Plums, Vibrant Orange, Classic Aqua, and a beautiful Teal Green… you name it, I can’t think of a color that was excluded but the magic was in the combinations. The popular powder pink … and youthful details of Aqua kept things so fresh and interesting even as far as sometimes audaciously playful! It looked like a competition in fashion fun, the paparazzi documented a parade of street style in every Fashion Week city across the globe at our fingertips. With scrolls of eye catching colors that bounced off the screen and I kept scrolling and scrolling and couldn’t get enough. I went through an addiction, feeding my brain with more and more endless photos of fashion ideas and innovative inspiration that made my heart jump up and down and of course leaving me unable to get even a wink of sleep. I even thought to myself if there was a way to turn my being online on private, since some were asking why I was still up. Yes that bad but that Good too! ;) So thankful for the incredible style the icons of today, pushing the envelope and making the effort to be bold in times of confusion, corruption, and despair. Like a sweet nudge of hope for next s/s 2022’s dreamy joyful and more pleasant days to come!
Head to toe in Neutral Khaki was another alternative to speak of as well as mega more wearable for the masses. We saw it in Tan, Browns, Classic Black coming in strong and also some White/off white, even Gray was around, everyone was included and had an important part of making the other colors do their thing BETTER. Neutrals were also used with one select pop of color or with many to bring a base or stability and each brought along its purpose as a warm or cool tone, Brown being warm and grey being cool for instance. When warm and cool colors were paired in an outfit they did things far more interesting than when played safe. It actually complemented it when it didn’t match bc it popped or vibrated! Our eyes are trained to see things that make sense and go well together but that’s a bit stale to see now so when its unique it makes us do a double take and wonder why we like it so much! In fact, we might stare for a lot longer.
A complementary color, in case you don’t know, is a color that is on the opposite side of the color wheel from the other color. Such as Red and Green, Orange and Blue, Yellow and Purple for example but those don’t sound like great color combinations do they? Well, what makes it interesting is when you take one of the two colors and you play with its tint or shade and you might add a little white to create a pastel or you might add a little black to darken it from a Red to a Burgundy or Pink & the green going Hunter green or a baby pastel green or the popular punchy lime green color that Pops like a neon or the more classic emerald green which is a safe and elegant bet for f/w season but now paired with maybe Lavender and Voila! This is the game for 2022 and it takes practice, courage & some extra planning.
Neighboring colors like Blues with Greens & Pink and Orange, Purple & a Pink or with one of the many Reds were a thing too. Like people, neighbors were a good choice to sit together and be friends with. It was abundant in fun color options and variations so have fun with combining your looks from the options in your closet and find inspiration in the color wheel. See what happens when the rules of color are broken and you might discover a whole new sense of gratitude for color, that makes them turn alive and cause a smiling sensation with those who get to see you in it.
Sunday, October 10, 2021
Zombie
Thursday, September 30, 2021
Back to Back lmao lmbo ;)
All the things
Tuesday, September 28, 2021
Learning
Saturday, September 25, 2021
You guys
Friday, September 24, 2021
Words…
Loving
Good looking king kind intelligent
Hardworking fun honest sensible sweet soothing adventurous warm cuddly cozy funny easygoing when needed firm cultured
A lady named Crystal told me not to share w ppl when I get down bc ppl who are sending me negativity feed off of it. I thought that was so interesting bc it what I do, I write the negative out so it can flow out of me and leave me in a way… I am so confused we even feel these terrible feelings. If I do, imagine! I know it’s leaving me… we all might be doing better together as a whole over time, getting more used to life’s ups and downs and better at cushioning the tough times for ourselves. I’m on a journey of awakening. It’s all happening… I’m going to get it together and better and better. It’s unbelievable how many things must be going on at the same time. I still have things to learn and people to meet and the divine timing of this life, alchemizing the movements and thoughts like a cause and effect. It’s all here and now and the peace in a pause in the bliss of a beautiful kiss, hold her, stay with her a while, it’s not a dress rehearsal, it’s better not to rush. Ppl need to be held and not asked for things from them. Just be. Just be together and savor the moment and allow time to pass by without saying anything but staying present in deep care and love like a gift to that person. It’s not that hard to do. To not do. To not say, to not keep on w whatever is next but to stop for once and not let yourself go back to u but stay THERE, right there, breathing, seeing the little peach fuzz hairs, they are growing and cells shedding or whatever try to see it. Really look tho. What do u see? What do u see w eyes closed about that person, being there for that person in a present way. It’s underrated.
Thursday, September 23, 2021
Seeed
Wednesday, September 22, 2021
So this guy..
She’s back lol
Saturday, September 18, 2021
Digging for… Gold…✨
The last sip-per…
I’m lying on my yoga mat before the sunrises knowing how much love I have for both the sun and the moon and which I think I am more like or which I aim to be more like or which I’d like to see more of or any comparison to question to know where I stand and how lovely it is and honestly I don’t even question it. If it’s true I’m supposed to be asleep at night and awake in the day I just really like to stay awake talking while watching the stars, catching them shoot across the sky… or a fire burn in the night, it’s warmth gives me feelings of hope, incredible power, ancient wisdom, nature as something to respect, I don’t need to take Ayawaska to get that. I feel my ancestors and all of our higher powers and the magnitude of intelligence that finally I can assure you we shouldn’t fear, we are watched, guided and cared for when we need it. Creepy are our thoughts, not their love. We must deliberately ask for more guidance, show more respect, remember they are who come before us, I also forget these things. I came to write again, to discuss a silly thought, the love and care I crave now questionable cuz then I won’t be as able to be my crazefree self… I’d have new eyes on me caring to watch me do these rarities and then I ask why I don’t belong? It’s bc I guess I wanted this, I painted this picture, I manifested the dream through some kind of intention and even if u want more than one thing u end up somewhere… it’s my wild guess. I appreciate being here, exactly where I am, only thing is missing is you to hold and be held by. That would mean I’d have less time to write here, I’d be more present, the moment, connection. I took a year off writing one time, just saying… it is a long time but also something i missed. I’ve tried lots of diff things but some things do stay the same, don’t they. I couldn’t have a baby now, I don’t even have a guy… I have a dog, I have a business to attend to, I have relationship issues. I don’t go to a therapist. I don’t take meds. I deal. Life is about teamwork, about sharing moments w ppl u love and love u back. Life is no fun alone, socially distanced, or wearing a mask. Life is a lie if it is. Life is not supposed to be like this and this is not life. Kids and even dogs r seeing owners/parents holding a phone all day long. I can’t be a part of this and yet I am. We know it and we just are… we can’t not be. Everything is made of plastic! I don’t know what to eat anymore. Silly things hyped up to be so expensive and then it don’t match up to what we can afford. They r selling us fake crap or temp shit or even what’s cheap is so cheap but the pollution isn’t being acounted for. While turnin a blind eye we see time fly by… we make time to avoid, to get high and to play w puppets while missing the point and losing sight of the goals and over all direction. We all know this now. We are human and want to find pleasure, with enough money we can do that but also it’s got to be found for free. Not through drugs or even marathons but through more of what’s simple in life before the cement. The great pleasures shared for those with nothing. That it is limitless w solar, wind… why deprive and punish ONLY, so much? I always pretty much say the same thing… yes, a better world. A better world.
Shape up Wake up Whatever…
I dont wana “wake up”, (Had this in my notes and it’s Gona go here, somethings I write in other secret places. I write in my notes and I do still write on paper FYI)( Ps again, this is old. )
But i feel like a drink.
I said i wouldnt drink for June but that didnt pan out. I wanted to but then i knew it would be hard cuz life can get tough and you opt for a drink to or i did.
I came home wayyy too late again, my parents must think im crazy. I did come home late, my life isnt structured enough. Idk who to blame but myself but i feel like taking a big ass shot of vodka or turning the alarm off to grab a beer, an IPA which i dont even like. Usually when i want this, i dont do it but i might this time. Im just being honest. Doesnt pay to be honest. I was at a friends in the SW area and i think i even have my destination shit visible. Thats how much im like “here i am, so what?” Lol if i was up so something worse i wouldnt have that. So, im home finally, hoping my parents wont be pissed or know how late i got here and and so many other things i dont even wana talk. I feel fine, just wondering if im a freak or simply still on LA time.
Baby Pink Airplane FLY FLY FLY
Mean it Go Green it ?
Wednesday, September 15, 2021
Hello I’m
Monday, September 13, 2021
Protection
Scissor Sisters
Wednesday, September 8, 2021
Good to Go
Sunday, September 5, 2021
Wow TAMARA
9. Ra’ Χ¨ַΧ’ (pronounced rah)
There are many different words for sin in the bible but ra’ is used more than 600 times! It comes from another Hebrew word ra’a, meaning evil or bad. When you remove the “a” sound at the end, its meaning encompasses “evil”, “harm”, “displeasure”, or “misery” but it also conveys an aspect of brokenness. It can mean “broken into pieces”, like when something’s completely ruined or “blemished”, like things unfit for presentation to God, such as for sacrifice.
Use in Scripture
The ugly, gaunt cows from Pharaoh’s dream in Genesis 41 are described using this word, as is the wild beast that Joseph’s brothers claimed devoured him in Genesis 37. It’s also the word that was translated into “evil” in describing the tree in the Garden of Eden. It was the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Ra’.
Brokenness
While we know that sin is disobedience to God, without the aspect of brokenness, we have no reason to turn to our Savior. Everyone knows there’s sin in their life but not everyone realizes their brokenness in it. We all know someone who says “Sure, I’ve done bad things but I’m a good person overall”. This is to imply that sin is just part of who we are, but God will surely compare us to one another and forgive the good people for being less evil than the really evil ones.
It sounds great but that’s just not how it works. The bible says that we ALL have fallen short of God’s glory (Rom. 3:23). He’s just too glorious, too perfect, and too holy for us – even the good ones – to ever measure up to Him. HE is what we’ll be compared to in judgement, which is why all of us need Jesus, the only person to have kept all of the Law perfectly, as our substitute.
Without realizing that the ra’ in our hearts has left us blemished, unacceptable, and broken before God, we are unable to see our need to accept the gift of Jesus. When we get to the point of being devastated by our ra’, we can then humbly approach God, genuinely repentant, and be made unblemished, acceptable, and perfect in the eyes of our Creator, fit for communion with Him!
These are just a few examples of Hebrew words that can enrich our faith through an understanding of them in their original form. Imagine what can come to light in the process of learning even more of the Hebrew language! As lifelong students of the bible, learning its main original language will deepen both our faith and our relationship with the God of the universe!
What brought you here?
HOW TO GET A WOMAN…
How to get a woman…
Step number one choose wisely, really choose. If you choose too easily move on too fast or don’t choose well enough we’ll find out and you won’t stand a chance.
Step number two point your arrows to target. Once you have selected your victim Point your arrows….
Point you’re many arrows first point your brain arrow once you have it in your mind that that is who you want your mind is a very powerful arrow and must be pointing in the direction of your prospect.
Point Your eye arrows… you have three eyes the two physical ones will let her know you are interested these are very important signs for her to know the game is on. Your third eye must also be pointed in clear direction to target.
Next is your heart arrow, This arrow will make sure you have only nice things to say and do for her. If this arrow becomes anyway unfocused on your target you instantly lose the game.
Your gut arrow must be pointing, with this arrow decide what top 3 restaurants you want to take her on your first date. Don’t be gluttonous, be classy. Find out what she likes. Make good decisions. Be thoughtful and remember James Bond.
The last important arrow is the one we don’t need to mention that’s the one you guys tend to think with. This member of the pack is also very important. Must be ready to go, cared for, healthy, groomed if need be just as much a your face. Remember to be thoughtful w this powerful arrow for he might be getting some action so come ready with his special Bday suit (if u know what I mean).
To be continued…
Saturday, August 14, 2021
Keep Smiling Under The Mask
Sunday, August 8, 2021
Saturday, August 7, 2021
Check my temp
In a Tetris Maze
Momentum
Tuesday, July 27, 2021
The Vibration of Love…
“Love is the key.
Be willing to find things to love about yourself and others. Your demons will melt away. Your fears cannot exist in the same place that love and gentleness abide.
Stop pushing so hard to get others to change. Change comes from within. Apply gentleness to your present situation, become like the summer breeze, gentle, warm, and caring. Moving over, through, and around the one’s you Love.
This is our lesson for solving our present dilemma. If you use it, you will connect with Sacred Mountain, the centering place of serenity, Great Spirit will guide you on the path.”
Chomper our deer friend!! Are you Listening. The T is silent.
I have so much to learn and improve on. Thankful of these messages. So Thankful.
The Symbolic Meanings for Deer
It’s been said… any practice by which man sustains himself at the expense of other sentient beings, is considered wrong. Consider ALL non-human life to be Divine, as is human life.
So beautiful,
http://www.shamanicjourney.com/deer-power-animal-symbol-of-gentleness-unconditional-love-and-kindness